haiz..i dun like this feeling..i know i have no rights to interfere in other pple's relationship..but why do pple like to do things this way? it juz confirm that the thing i hate most in life is pple lying to me..whether intentional or unintentional..can't we make things simpler by being more truthful? is telling the truth really that diff?or do pple like to do things the in-between way?i feel so lost suddenly..
blur after reading the 1st paragraph??haiz..juz confused at how pple handles relationships..why act blur when u are so sure of the other party's feelings for u?why tell pple it is impossible between the 2 of u when its a 2-sided feelings affair?why deny and give another person hope when all u can give in de end is disappointment?i feel sad for the guy who is hurt in de end..but there's nothing i can do..i dunno wat to say to make him feel better..and i feel kinda pissed looking at the 2 of u..argh..i hate it when friends within my social circle develops into a couple and denies it all the way till they can no longer hide it..i mean can't u juz admit it when it is already so obvious to the others??can't u make the lives of others easier by telling them their intuitions are correct?!?!?! is it really tat diff to do to prevent pple frm getting hurt?!?!?
okie..someone tried explaining to me why pple like to play this in-between game..makes me wanna scold vulgarities la..maybe cos i dun believe in this theory..tat's y it juz seems like lame excuses to me..the person told me its a natural reaction to deny when pple ask about the possibilities bout 2 frens developing into a couple..i was tinking to myself..what natural reaction?!?!?!there are so many other options available la!i mean if u dun want pple to get the wrong idea..dun do things dat give pple those ideas!if it is unavoidable..sudden urge to show ur feelings..u can always keep quiet when asked bout the possibilities!u dun have to deny..wat more outright denial!!argh..do u knoe how frustrating it is to realise dat pple have been bluffing to u?!?!even more frustrating for a person like me who HATES being lied to...AHAHAHAHAH!
"jiu3 zui4 3 fen1 xing3"..maybe only after drinking will pple says wat is really deep down in their hearts..if they never drank..maybe i wud have never known about it..wud it have made me feel better if i din find out that they were lying to me?wud i hav felt better if i knoe tat 1 of the party really din knoe de other party felt sth for her..argh..but tell me..which idiot can't tell dat a guy is interested in her if she slept with her on the same bed and de guy hugged her to sleep!!!tell me its normal behaviour in singapore!bished!!!
i knoe i am weird..sorry..i dunno y i am so against pple lying to me..esp in the aspect of relationships..maybe cos i juz can't agree with the in-between affairs way of thinking..are in-between behaviours supposed to allow u to try out with diff guys till u find out who is de better 1 for u??and if dat's de intention..dun be so dumb as to tell the other guy some guy hugged u to sleep!dun u hav any idea how much it will hurt that guy?!?!doesn't common sense tell u dat it is insensible?!?!if i can..i wud bang u till u are awake and aware of wat u hav done..ha..all ur talk bout remaining single for the whole uni life..the talk bout staying trouble-free for the coming year..more trouble instead i guess..
haha..i knoe i sound angry and pissed thruout this whole post..but tis is really wat i am tinking right now..ever since x'mas eve night..can't sort it out in my mind..tried convincing myself..tried finding ways and excuses for the things pple did..didn't work..de more i tot of it..de more pissed i got..i wun interfere in whatever u guys do now..juz gonna keep my life simple..i'll stand aside and watch wat comes out of this..praying hard that u wun hurt anyone else further..
sorry HTG for having to read thru this crap post..juz had to get it out..i mean i can't complain to my frens in hall..cos they are the pple involved..and the ones trying to convince me bout this in-between thing..wahaha..seems like hugging de opposite sex to sleep is normal to them..argh!!!wat are pple thinking?!?!?!i knoe i might be a bit extreme in this case..juz let me hav my crazy moments once in a while too..=)
shuqin | 12:30 AM
ge wei xiang qing fu lao...wo hui lai le...hmmm...how was everybody's x'mas eve and x'mas...wonder if kenny spent it with mei nv(s)...da4 lu4 mei wor...hmmm...who knows...love blossoming overseas sounds cool...okie...some pple must be wanting to hit me le...hmmm...so ya...wat did evry1 do leh...
let's c...x'mas eve was spent at my uncle's place this yr...no...1st part of e morning was at my tutee's place...n he betta wake up his idea! stop yawning in lesson can...boring oso must listen...is it me or is it e lesson that's boring? hmmm..okie...prob both..anw...x'mas eve this yr had 1 big missing element...nice food!!! cannot eat..cos of stupid food poisoning i had...tummyache till shouted out in pain...cannot eat rubbish for a few days...
now i need to fig out wat to do today le...tata...
alaka | 11:18 AM
yoz pple..i wonder if i am plain lazy during sch term or is it that i am more hyper during the holidays..haha..suddenly feel quite on bout blogging again..hmmm..juz tot of another reason for the increased in frequency of blogging..maybe cos there are HTG events worth blogging about only during the holidays when everyone is free for a meet up once in a while..
okie..went tamp KBOX with yt and kiu yest..1st comment..food at tamp KBox still sux as much as before..even though we already ordered the most edible meal available..but i guess when we go for KLunch..what we are after is the singing experience and not the lunch..eh..sang quite a number of songs..mostly new songs..guess it shows how long we hav not been to Kbox..dunno y ah..the 3 of us chose to sing without the microphones yest..most of the times..we sang without it la..anyway..what i remember most from the singing session was the song "夜曲" it was humming in my brain a long time after we left the place la..haunted by it..
after Kbox..met up with Kenny..found out there's nothing to do in tamp..so we decided to go down to Yaochen's hse..seems like we had to see him yest ah..he dun wanna come out so we go look for him lor..wahaha..went there..started watching "童梦奇缘"..hmmm..its a fiction show..dunno how to comment on it also..but juz like YC said..the ending is touching..quite sad la..cos pple sometimes realise their mistakes too late to make any amendments..even worse..they wun even be given the chance to start all over again..oh well..this is life..
okie..the guys left for soccer..seems like they haven touched the ball in ages ah..left me and yt in the hse..cont watching movies..YC hse can open rental shop liaoz..enough shows to entertain us for the whole day if we needed to..watched "三个好人" next..typical singaporean movie..half the movie was in dialect..i shd say hokkien..if u dun understand hokkien..its as bad as watching some korean,japanese,french show..a look at the life of ex-convicts..sad case..new insight on how we shd view these pple..give them a new chance for survival..
eh..basically..after that it was waiting for the guys to come back from their soccer session..and waiting for pizza to arrive..wahaha..pizza hut's pizza shrinked in size!! their large pizza looked like a regular 1 la..but it was nice to eat pizza after a long time..and it seems like a common practice to order pizza whenever we are at YC's hse..HTG habit??had ice-cream after dinner..cookies n cream and chocolate..ice-cream is always heavenly..hehe..=p
we tried watching "Forgotten" after dinner..but its either the player's or the CD's fault..we never got past the time 17'08 of the 2nd disc..argh..frustration..but after tryin a few times..it was time to go home le..we all left..only Kenny stayed..fought with YC for the bed?!?!
okie..tis is a narrative post..not much personal feelings in it..tried to make it more happening and interesting to read ah..budden..doesn't seems like it leh..alamak..whatever la..juz a sudden urge to post something..so it ended up here..
seeya guys soon! take care wor..smilez! =)
shuqin | 1:52 PM
haiz..i dun like this feeling..i know i have no rights to interfere in other pple's relationship..but why do pple like to do things this way? it juz confirm that the thing i hate most in life is pple lying to me..whether intentional or unintentional..can't we make things simpler by being more truthful? is telling the truth really that diff?or do pple like to do things the in-between way?i feel so lost suddenly..
blur after reading the 1st paragraph??haiz..juz confused at how pple handles relationships..why act blur when u are so sure of the other party's feelings for u?why tell pple it is impossible between the 2 of u when its a 2-sided feelings affair?why deny and give another person hope when all u can give in de end is disappointment?i feel sad for the guy who is hurt in de end..but there's nothing i can do..i dunno wat to say to make him feel better..and i feel kinda pissed looking at the 2 of u..argh..i hate it when friends within my social circle develops into a couple and denies it all the way till they can no longer hide it..i mean can't u juz admit it when it is already so obvious to the others??can't u make the lives of others easier by telling them their intuitions are correct?!?!?! is it really tat diff to do to prevent pple frm getting hurt?!?!?
okie..someone tried explaining to me why pple like to play this in-between game..makes me wanna scold vulgarities la..maybe cos i dun believe in this theory..tat's y it juz seems like lame excuses to me..the person told me its a natural reaction to deny when pple ask about the possibilities bout 2 frens developing into a couple..i was tinking to myself..what natural reaction?!?!?!there are so many other options available la!i mean if u dun want pple to get the wrong idea..dun do things dat give pple those ideas!if it is unavoidable..sudden urge to show ur feelings..u can always keep quiet when asked bout the possibilities!u dun have to deny..wat more outright denial!!argh..do u knoe how frustrating it is to realise dat pple have been bluffing to u?!?!even more frustrating for a person like me who HATES being lied to...AHAHAHAHAH!
"jiu3 zui4 3 fen1 xing3"..maybe only after drinking will pple says wat is really deep down in their hearts..if they never drank..maybe i wud have never known about it..wud it have made me feel better if i din find out that they were lying to me?wud i hav felt better if i knoe tat 1 of the party really din knoe de other party felt sth for her..argh..but tell me..which idiot can't tell dat a guy is interested in her if she slept with her on the same bed and de guy hugged her to sleep!!!tell me its normal behaviour in singapore!bished!!!
i knoe i am weird..sorry..i dunno y i am so against pple lying to me..esp in the aspect of relationships..maybe cos i juz can't agree with the in-between affairs way of thinking..are in-between behaviours supposed to allow u to try out with diff guys till u find out who is de better 1 for u??and if dat's de intention..dun be so dumb as to tell the other guy some guy hugged u to sleep!dun u hav any idea how much it will hurt that guy?!?!doesn't common sense tell u dat it is insensible?!?!if i can..i wud bang u till u are awake and aware of wat u hav done..ha..all ur talk bout remaining single for the whole uni life..the talk bout staying trouble-free for the coming year..more trouble instead i guess..
haha..i knoe i sound angry and pissed thruout this whole post..but tis is really wat i am tinking right now..ever since x'mas eve night..can't sort it out in my mind..tried convincing myself..tried finding ways and excuses for the things pple did..didn't work..de more i tot of it..de more pissed i got..i wun interfere in whatever u guys do now..juz gonna keep my life simple..i'll stand aside and watch wat comes out of this..praying hard that u wun hurt anyone else further..
sorry HTG for having to read thru this crap post..juz had to get it out..i mean i can't complain to my frens in hall..cos they are the pple involved..and the ones trying to convince me bout this in-between thing..wahaha..seems like hugging de opposite sex to sleep is normal to them..argh!!!wat are pple thinking?!?!?!i knoe i might be a bit extreme in this case..juz let me hav my crazy moments once in a while too..=)
shuqin | 12:30 AM
ge wei xiang qing fu lao...wo hui lai le...hmmm...how was everybody's x'mas eve and x'mas...wonder if kenny spent it with mei nv(s)...da4 lu4 mei wor...hmmm...who knows...love blossoming overseas sounds cool...okie...some pple must be wanting to hit me le...hmmm...so ya...wat did evry1 do leh...
let's c...x'mas eve was spent at my uncle's place this yr...no...1st part of e morning was at my tutee's place...n he betta wake up his idea! stop yawning in lesson can...boring oso must listen...is it me or is it e lesson that's boring? hmmm..okie...prob both..anw...x'mas eve this yr had 1 big missing element...nice food!!! cannot eat..cos of stupid food poisoning i had...tummyache till shouted out in pain...cannot eat rubbish for a few days...
now i need to fig out wat to do today le...tata...
alaka | 11:18 AM
yoz pple..i wonder if i am plain lazy during sch term or is it that i am more hyper during the holidays..haha..suddenly feel quite on bout blogging again..hmmm..juz tot of another reason for the increased in frequency of blogging..maybe cos there are HTG events worth blogging about only during the holidays when everyone is free for a meet up once in a while..
okie..went tamp KBOX with yt and kiu yest..1st comment..food at tamp KBox still sux as much as before..even though we already ordered the most edible meal available..but i guess when we go for KLunch..what we are after is the singing experience and not the lunch..eh..sang quite a number of songs..mostly new songs..guess it shows how long we hav not been to Kbox..dunno y ah..the 3 of us chose to sing without the microphones yest..most of the times..we sang without it la..anyway..what i remember most from the singing session was the song "夜曲" it was humming in my brain a long time after we left the place la..haunted by it..
after Kbox..met up with Kenny..found out there's nothing to do in tamp..so we decided to go down to Yaochen's hse..seems like we had to see him yest ah..he dun wanna come out so we go look for him lor..wahaha..went there..started watching "童梦奇缘"..hmmm..its a fiction show..dunno how to comment on it also..but juz like YC said..the ending is touching..quite sad la..cos pple sometimes realise their mistakes too late to make any amendments..even worse..they wun even be given the chance to start all over again..oh well..this is life..
okie..the guys left for soccer..seems like they haven touched the ball in ages ah..left me and yt in the hse..cont watching movies..YC hse can open rental shop liaoz..enough shows to entertain us for the whole day if we needed to..watched "三个好人" next..typical singaporean movie..half the movie was in dialect..i shd say hokkien..if u dun understand hokkien..its as bad as watching some korean,japanese,french show..a look at the life of ex-convicts..sad case..new insight on how we shd view these pple..give them a new chance for survival..
eh..basically..after that it was waiting for the guys to come back from their soccer session..and waiting for pizza to arrive..wahaha..pizza hut's pizza shrinked in size!! their large pizza looked like a regular 1 la..but it was nice to eat pizza after a long time..and it seems like a common practice to order pizza whenever we are at YC's hse..HTG habit??had ice-cream after dinner..cookies n cream and chocolate..ice-cream is always heavenly..hehe..=p
we tried watching "Forgotten" after dinner..but its either the player's or the CD's fault..we never got past the time 17'08 of the 2nd disc..argh..frustration..but after tryin a few times..it was time to go home le..we all left..only Kenny stayed..fought with YC for the bed?!?!
okie..tis is a narrative post..not much personal feelings in it..tried to make it more happening and interesting to read ah..budden..doesn't seems like it leh..alamak..whatever la..juz a sudden urge to post something..so it ended up here..
seeya guys soon! take care wor..smilez! =)
shuqin | 1:52 PM
