hmmm... dinner today was rather diastrous.. big things happen.. hearts broken... friendship ruined.. trust broken.. terrible right.. haiz.. i'm still trying to heal broken hearts.. mend ruined frenship.. find back de trust.. i'm guilty.. for not studying now.. but slacking now.. but if i dun clear this mess i hav now... dun tink i'll be able to study in peace also.. learnt something today.. nothing hurts more den being cheated by close frens... de pain is beyond description..

maybe i'm gullible.. believed de many times he said.. but not my own eyes and ears.. or is it juz bcos i refuse to face up to reality? i was living in disillusion.. hmmm... time to wake up.. get my priorities right.. move up.. i may be at my lowest point now.. but i'll climb.. and reach my peak during de As... htg... thanks... u pple were great help during de past 2 weeks.. gonna need much more help frm u pple for quite some time still... dun hav to do much... juz need to let me knoe there's always u pple i can turn to...

as of now.. i'm still waiting.. for explanation.. hope all doubts cleared tonight..
broken things would still hav cracks after mend... but hopefully they are mendable.. and dun hav to be discarded.. its fate that allowed us to be frens.. things dun hav to turn out tis way... if only we handled it de right way..

shuqin | 11:28 PM

that's the problem with htg blog la. either it's totally neglected, or it's constantly updated with activity. why ah???

i guess it's cos when one person starts to post..the others will post somehow due to a sense of guilt or a renewed urge (or both). hai..whatever it is..everytime we post..out of 10 times, 9 is nothing good la. erm..i mean that is good..in a sense..cos it shows we share happiness when we get together and pen our troubles when we're at home? but it would be better if it were the other way round la u see.

ok..enough of luo suo-ing. got one more econs essay and 60 mcqs. mrs lee is really ambitious. oh by the way, my fav teacher is her! i figured mr ngoh would have enough supporters from my class la huh. oops. ok..i'll get on.

heyz kenny..wa i'm surprised sia..tt ur family is so closely-knit. as in..i can totally imagine the scene when ur dad gives u a strong pat on the shoulder and says, "wo ba zhe ge jia jiao gei ni le..ni yao hao hao zhao gu mama he didi.." hehe. erm ok..zheng jing yi dian. tdy abit hyper u see. but seriously la..this is one of the uncertainties of life lo i guess..determination of wages in the labour market! higher wages given to compensate a more difficult or unpleasant working condition. hmm as long as the 4 of u have each other in ur hearts..think it's not much of a problem cos absence makes the heart fonder rite. i'm sure u know tt very well by observing our dear mr tim. u'll learn to cherish the time u have together more. and not like he'll be there forever. maybe when u come out of ns and he comes back, the whole family will be a changed one in terms of bonding and all that. u know u have to overcome this so do it! very often ppl worry so much abt their ability to handle stuff tt they do not perform as well as they could have. haiz..this is something we shd learn from kids..and that is to be yi4 wu2 fan3 gu4..do what u're supposed to do, do it well, and dun hesitate..(like my brother..haiz..) hmm this is from experience wor. maybe can tell ur mum that. that the will to overcome any sadness or down feeling lies in u and u only..

was quite surprised tt aft so many posts..kiu has not replied!! what a determined mugger he is! haha ok fine i know only i am like me. the lazy bum. k la jus decided to add my $0.02's worth. yea..moment over. time to hit the books..and the sack..ZzZ..

Pebbles | 12:08 AM

hmm.. during gp we were toking abt li jiawei.. no surprise there.. but apart from the usual yada-yada (national pride, sportsmanship..) a classmate raised an interesting point. He said," Acty if Li Jia Wei were a true blue s'porean wld the expectations of her performance be lower? the fact that she has been talent scouted from china may have caused ppl to perceive her as having some kind of table tennis gene in her blood. if she were singapore-born den ppl mite tink that a 4th place finish is already commendable but not focus too much on the loss of the bronze." ehh food for thot for u guys la.. i tink it has an element of truth.. no doubt we tink of li jiawei as singaporean and feel proud of her achievements, but if she werent born in china, i really tink the pressure wld not haf been as intense.. but in any case, she still got chance. beijing 2008, watch out!! hehe.

was reading kenny's post.. i gt one fren whose dad oso went overseas to work and only came bacl like every 3 mths.. in fact my mom oso almost took up a job opportunity in shanghai too.. but in the end she didnt lar. kenny, i dun tink u really need to worry dat much.. statistics show that 40% of all our worries will nv happen.. serious! haha. i tink ur bro can take care of himself la. u shld sit down and haf a proper "man-to-man" tok wif ur bro. like tell him dat he oso haf a responsibility in the household when u and ur dad are away. im sure he's mature enuf to realise the seriousness of e situation. dun need to worry abt ur mom oso lar, she'd be strong enuf to handle it one, she was the one who brought u and ur bro up leh, give her more credit la, hehe. and during ns u'd be back on the wkends rite? juz haf to make sure u spend as much time as possible wif ur family and dat ur mom and bro are coping well.. since u can't possibly not go ns, and ur dad is keen on e job, the only way is to juz deal with the situation and not worry abt it too much, cos it wun help matters anyway.. ya, and in the end it'll all work out for e best. maybe ur bro will become mature, ur family wld haf a stable source of income, and maybe ur mum wld not be so disappointed in ur dad anymore.. yea, stay positive k? and anw u still got us, we'll help discipline ur bro if u need us to. muahaha.

oh yah, guys, i tink u'd all noe dat dos sat got z-pop concert.. but i dunno if u all wanna go anot. its 6pm at padang, and if u get ur tix from me the 10 bucks will be waived cos the Sun fan club will be sponsoring. me wanna go see F.I.R tuan zhang.. (hehe) i not sure got who but i tink u all shld noe la. so if wanna go rite, muz tell me so i can go get tix.. yep...

sigh, study hard every1. we can do it!!!

chan eng.charis | 9:59 PM

hmmm.. i watched de table tennis match too! quite disappointing... me and my bro.. both tot she wud win... until she started losing de 5th match... den eugene msged me... "oh my.. tis dun look good..".. and it really din turn out too good.. hehe.. btw.. when i 1st read de msg... i tot it was a Jk's post lor... de way kenny talk.. so similar lor! it was until de part kenny started talking bout NS... den i realised it was kenny dat was blogging.. haha.. i watched summer scent too! =P find de show kinda crap... hehe..

hmmm.. if i was kenny i wud be rather sad ba... not dat i can imagine how worried he is.. but can understand y he is feeling dat way.. dun worry ba.. things wud turn out right.. and maybe ur bro will grow up during dat period of time.. cos sometimes rebellion is to prove that they hav grown up.. and its a way to escape from control.. yupz.. my bro only P5 la.. already know to argue back at my mum... dunno wat got into him... nothing scares him.. tink de only way for him to grow up wud be to undergo some pain and suffering to make him understand dat de way he behaves can end up inviting trouble for himself..

hehe... guess wat.. i juz went to cut hotdogs... supposed to go and fry egg in a while.. after my mother finish hanging her clothes.. hehe.. btw.. i voted for my chem teacher as my fav tutor le! tink she deserves it la.. she is really good.. to be able to transform my class guys.. make their empty tutorial books full... and somemore is ahead of tutorial.. great achievement.. clap clap! kkz.. shall end here.. tatas!

shuqin | 1:47 PM

okie.. i'm guilty.. dun nag at me when u see tis post.. it's sat afternoon... 2.34pm.. and i hav not done much work.. wat is wrong with me?! been slacking de whole day.. maybe i shd hav gone out to study at bedok BK with chaneng and yt.. but haiz.. too late for regrets... i'm kinda stuck at home.. maybe i wud be going my sis's hse later... something to look forward to?

hmmm... lotsa hw tis weekend.. and i still haven plan my revision timetable.. stress is building up.. but body is not doing anything to be productive and counter de build up in stress.. tutors all starting revision for us.. but y am i still slacking?! pple are reducing the time they spend online... y am i still here blogging?!?! and i have been online for more den an hour now... argh! tis is bad.. really shd go do my hw and stuff after tis... no more reasons to slack... even though i feel as though i seriously lack sleep... head feels heavy.. kkz... tis are juz excuses! no more of them...

read thru yt's entry.. i guess it is de 1st time she told us so much bout her breakup with her ex... be brave gal! we will always be there for u.. juz like u guys hav been there for me when i'm feeling down and out.. de only person dat can help u get over it is urself.. as long as u still can't tink it thru.. it will always be there to bug u down.. i guess we are put thru all these to make us stronger... u might ask y do we need to be stronger? but tis is life..we hav no choice but to accept it...

acty there are things which i hav never told u pple.. feel kinda bad hiding it frm u guys.. sometimes really wish to tell u pple bout it.. but always end up keeping it to myself.. hmmm... yt's entry acty gave me de urge to want to go down to bedok bk to tell de 2 of them bout it.. but i guess i shall tell u pple about it next time... yupz... take care pple... dun fall sick.. eat more vitamin C... drink more water... see ya pple soon! =)

shuqin | 2:36 PM

k..since both sotongs have blogged and i'm escaping from my gp essay..shall blog sth. was quite sad for susilo..watched d last few minutes..can feel his frustration..jus keeps getting worse..keep giving points to his opponent..that kinda feeling is worse than when u know d points were acty scored by d opponent himself..cos tt's when u xin fu kou fu. but haiz..rules were imposed for difficulty..and w/o difficulty there can be no happiness[gp compre heh..]. but nvm! let's not give up hope on the other medallist hopefuls...table tennis womens! woohoo..jia you. we're all rooting for u.

ok..on to relevant stuff. this week was..ok lah. napfa was mediocre. but i passed i passed! haha big deal. realised my class girls all quite short. only 1 is above 1.65m..only she use d higher bar for inclined pullup. was then tt we realised how short our class girls are. oso..another thing learnt is how far u jump depends on how short u are :)

hmm..acty was quite down on monday(or it could be tuesday i forgot)..so..seeing my ex is online..i jus msged a hello are u free. and he ignored me. kaoz. i'm like fine la. frankly..didn't hope for too much la..cos he doesn't really respond much to me online. respond as in return d first hello. sms stil got reply. haiz..sometimes wonder whether he's avoiding me. but can't think of a reason to. so long alr lor..can't he just treat me like a fren like he said he wud. dunno la..maybe it's unintentional..but replying like 3 out of 10 hellos is saying something la. not like he's online v often anyway. point is..find tt ppl can really change alot..can totally turn their backs on u..ppl u'd never expect. sometimes wonder if i'm d victim. i never knew wad caused d breakup. we just..broke up. in 4 days. and within 2 weeks he's with another girl. k la acty i'm oso thinking now why am i thinking back abt all those shit..maybe cos i never really told u all abt this. anyway, tt time really felt like dying..within 4 days i've lost my pillar of strength..have to depend on myself for everything. haiz. ok..it's over. time really heals. anw..point is..sometimes even if it's not ur fault..u'll get hurt badly..wad's impt is u muz find a way to pick urself up..and know tt it's not ur fault..den u can carry on. yup..so fellow htg members..next time if life is mean to u, u mustn't be mean to urself further..muz encourage urself and go on with life..only u can help urself..

by the way, i'm going for grad nite. dunno if i'll regret later but heck la. ok..gg to watch sg idol liao..and do gp..tatas..

Pebbles | 7:49 PM

yoz pple! long time since i last blogged.. missed me?! =P
hmmm.. seriously lotsa things happened within tis week... i grew up quite abit.. but shall not blog it here.. will tell u pple next time when we meet up again... provided i can acty find de mood to tell u pple.. not exactly a very good week for me.. supposed to hav test almost everyday.. monday was chem remedial test, tues was phys diagnostic test + NAPFA.. haha... din realised JK was having it on de same day too.. until i read his msg after my test dat day.. hehe... so far i cleared all my 5 items.. tml is 2.4km run.. sianz.. someone provide me with de motivation to cont running de same route 6 times... how boring can life get...

hmmm... yest wed... had 2 maths test! can u imagine how dreadful that was! one was maths lect test for complex numbers.. den had maths remedial test on application of integration.. wow.. how wonderful.. den today.. had to be de worse day of all... 2 lect tests! not diagnostic or remedial wor... is LECTURE leh! anyway.. conclusion after de tests.. i gonna flop both.. left 1 whole qn of phys never do... 1st time in my tj life... sad case.. 10 marks flown away... haiz... wonder y i bothered to study... maybe it did make a difference... but not much i guess... kz.. tml's test... NAPFA again! de 1 i dread most.. haiz..

hmmm.. JK's blog kinda sentimental ah.. but its true la.. sometimes when life gets so terrible and miserable... de tots of de fun we had together... de pain dat it will bring shd anyone of us be gone.. juz provides de motivation for 1 to move on.. went swensens for ice-cream with my class guys today... had a good time with them.. was laughing at de jokes and stuff they say.. typical guys.. may be stressed bout prelims...but yet there's other things to their lives... totally no restriction... told them bout de prob i face in class... they are not as unfeeling as i tot them to be... they acty sympatise with me! de feeling is great.. when u find out dat someone acty understand how u feel... =D juz like how u pple always comfort me when i complain... thanks frens!

oh... chaneng! i watched de match yest too! so sad lor! wanted him to win... but haiz... next mountain higher den tis one.. tink he is more devastated den us.. but he played well la... applause for him!

oh yah.. confirmed le.. i'm not going for grad night... hehe.. sounds kinda AP ah.. but i really see no point in going... so ex.. and not like i really wish to see de whole sch pple dressed up for de last time.. tink i'm 1 of de 3 not going in my class.. de other 2 are guys.. surprisingly my class guys never pester me to go... luckily...

supposed to be doing my case study now... but i'm totally sianz at dat tot... hw seems neverending... eh.. i had tis crazy idea for tis past few days... anyone interested in going kbox tis sat? hehe.. somehow juz feel like finding an outlet to vent my unhappiness for tis few days... but since i blog only today... abit not possible hor.. but if u all see.. juz msg me if interested kz...

"Everyone fails. Champions pick up and begin again..."

shuqin | 6:00 PM

haha! hey good for u man!! didnt realise htg can be such a huge source of motivation.. heeheee. yea den we can haf full strength during dec. sigh, im already thinking abt wad we shld to relak and celebrate and enjoy ourselves.. but much as i dun wanna po1 leng3 shui3 fact is dat prelims are coming!!! and im really scared dis time.. got scolded like hell by my mum cos of bt 2 results and for the 1st life in my life she chup into my studies and arrange maths tuition for me. and only now den she finds out dat im doing maths c and not a maths, dat my class is 03S63, and dat i dropped physics. sigh but still, at least she is willing to get a tutor for me, dat im very thankful for.. sigh again. hope every1 can muster up the courage and find motivation like q..

and oh yah i watched badmintion olympics today.. susilo kena thrashed. bye bye medal..

chan eng.charis | 10:08 PM

whheee....haha....today was a v impt day to me...haha.....napfa retest!! haha...only ltg no that this cockster here failed napfa....haha...not once....but twice....haha....today was e final try le...hehe...and got reason why i decided to post smt as dumb as this 1....
scorching weather today @!$#!@$#!@ ....but still no choice....haha...den waited for like 2 hrs for it... another @^@^@!$%@ well.....haha...den when i finally went to the hall....tch tooked my card...saw fail pull up was e 1 i failed....not wat i wanted to attempt first....haha.....but no choice....saw a dunman friend of ours...newo mal....erm....zero pull ups...haha....stressed....but been pumping weights at home for this le....hehe...my driving force to train....to not get that 6 wks of NS phyiscal training....cos that'd mean i'd hafta enter ns in start of dec....which means cannot see htg le!! haha....seriously wor....that was my main concern....and it was this tat drove me to train v hard...wat eva it was....cleared pull-ups!! haha...finally!!
2nd obstacle...standing broadjump...1st jump 220.....2nd jump 216....tch started saying..."see la...that's what happens when ya dun train...." hmm...this mite sound weird....but i simply stepped aside....calm myself down for e final chance....den one way or another...images of htg popped into my mind....either consciously or sub-consciously....about how fun each other's company have always been....and if during dec i enter that dumb training programme...den i'd be leaving the fun times earlier den i'd have to(assuming dec would haf some nice outings...hehe...)....ya....well...motivational driving force found le....so went back to the "ring"...with a shout of ARRRRHHH.....just jumped as hard as i could....228!! napfa nightmare was over...

hmmm**sentimental mode on**.....well....just wanna thank ya guys.....when eva i needed a spark of fun into my otherwise rather sianz life....you guys haf been able to provide it in such an abundance that it was more than i could eva ask for....and even when in time of wat u mite call distress....you guys have unknowingly become what can drive me forward and that's prob smt none of my other friends haf been able to give me....today's napfa made me realised that totally....yepzz..that's all i've to say **sentimental mode off** WHEEE!!! no 6 wks....

alaka | 10:09 PM

whee..the whole htg is in timmy's hse now..using timmy's comp and watching timmy's tv. using timmy's toilet and playing timmy's piano. jus got a shock..cos my heart will go on is playing now. wahhh. so long ago siaaaa. "u have come to show you go on.."

so..why are we gathered here? cos we jus had our first ever bbq! mini one though. with alotof help from tim's family. thks so much! first time in a long long time i touch chicken wings. cos they look too yummy aredi. haha..had alotof music for entertainment. yc and kiu the posers were killers of the nite. haha. pic attached.

wah before that me ce and yc spent a vvvv long time in tt dvd rental shop..deciding which to rent. den..we went back ask for opinion. THENNN we decided no time to watch. so. haha we didn't rent any! to think the shopkeeper was like full of hope and everything haha. she shd kill us seriously.

tim is calling......U KNOW!!! haha..shhhh.

k la. i dunno wad to type aredi. til next time!

Pebbles | 10:09 PM

hmmm... dinner today was rather diastrous.. big things happen.. hearts broken... friendship ruined.. trust broken.. terrible right.. haiz.. i'm still trying to heal broken hearts.. mend ruined frenship.. find back de trust.. i'm guilty.. for not studying now.. but slacking now.. but if i dun clear this mess i hav now... dun tink i'll be able to study in peace also.. learnt something today.. nothing hurts more den being cheated by close frens... de pain is beyond description..

maybe i'm gullible.. believed de many times he said.. but not my own eyes and ears.. or is it juz bcos i refuse to face up to reality? i was living in disillusion.. hmmm... time to wake up.. get my priorities right.. move up.. i may be at my lowest point now.. but i'll climb.. and reach my peak during de As... htg... thanks... u pple were great help during de past 2 weeks.. gonna need much more help frm u pple for quite some time still... dun hav to do much... juz need to let me knoe there's always u pple i can turn to...

as of now.. i'm still waiting.. for explanation.. hope all doubts cleared tonight..
broken things would still hav cracks after mend... but hopefully they are mendable.. and dun hav to be discarded.. its fate that allowed us to be frens.. things dun hav to turn out tis way... if only we handled it de right way..

shuqin | 11:28 PM

that's the problem with htg blog la. either it's totally neglected, or it's constantly updated with activity. why ah???

i guess it's cos when one person starts to post..the others will post somehow due to a sense of guilt or a renewed urge (or both). hai..whatever it is..everytime we post..out of 10 times, 9 is nothing good la. erm..i mean that is good..in a sense..cos it shows we share happiness when we get together and pen our troubles when we're at home? but it would be better if it were the other way round la u see.

ok..enough of luo suo-ing. got one more econs essay and 60 mcqs. mrs lee is really ambitious. oh by the way, my fav teacher is her! i figured mr ngoh would have enough supporters from my class la huh. oops. ok..i'll get on.

heyz kenny..wa i'm surprised sia..tt ur family is so closely-knit. as in..i can totally imagine the scene when ur dad gives u a strong pat on the shoulder and says, "wo ba zhe ge jia jiao gei ni le..ni yao hao hao zhao gu mama he didi.." hehe. erm ok..zheng jing yi dian. tdy abit hyper u see. but seriously la..this is one of the uncertainties of life lo i guess..determination of wages in the labour market! higher wages given to compensate a more difficult or unpleasant working condition. hmm as long as the 4 of u have each other in ur hearts..think it's not much of a problem cos absence makes the heart fonder rite. i'm sure u know tt very well by observing our dear mr tim. u'll learn to cherish the time u have together more. and not like he'll be there forever. maybe when u come out of ns and he comes back, the whole family will be a changed one in terms of bonding and all that. u know u have to overcome this so do it! very often ppl worry so much abt their ability to handle stuff tt they do not perform as well as they could have. haiz..this is something we shd learn from kids..and that is to be yi4 wu2 fan3 gu4..do what u're supposed to do, do it well, and dun hesitate..(like my brother..haiz..) hmm this is from experience wor. maybe can tell ur mum that. that the will to overcome any sadness or down feeling lies in u and u only..

was quite surprised tt aft so many posts..kiu has not replied!! what a determined mugger he is! haha ok fine i know only i am like me. the lazy bum. k la jus decided to add my $0.02's worth. yea..moment over. time to hit the books..and the sack..ZzZ..

Pebbles | 12:08 AM

hmm.. during gp we were toking abt li jiawei.. no surprise there.. but apart from the usual yada-yada (national pride, sportsmanship..) a classmate raised an interesting point. He said," Acty if Li Jia Wei were a true blue s'porean wld the expectations of her performance be lower? the fact that she has been talent scouted from china may have caused ppl to perceive her as having some kind of table tennis gene in her blood. if she were singapore-born den ppl mite tink that a 4th place finish is already commendable but not focus too much on the loss of the bronze." ehh food for thot for u guys la.. i tink it has an element of truth.. no doubt we tink of li jiawei as singaporean and feel proud of her achievements, but if she werent born in china, i really tink the pressure wld not haf been as intense.. but in any case, she still got chance. beijing 2008, watch out!! hehe.

was reading kenny's post.. i gt one fren whose dad oso went overseas to work and only came bacl like every 3 mths.. in fact my mom oso almost took up a job opportunity in shanghai too.. but in the end she didnt lar. kenny, i dun tink u really need to worry dat much.. statistics show that 40% of all our worries will nv happen.. serious! haha. i tink ur bro can take care of himself la. u shld sit down and haf a proper "man-to-man" tok wif ur bro. like tell him dat he oso haf a responsibility in the household when u and ur dad are away. im sure he's mature enuf to realise the seriousness of e situation. dun need to worry abt ur mom oso lar, she'd be strong enuf to handle it one, she was the one who brought u and ur bro up leh, give her more credit la, hehe. and during ns u'd be back on the wkends rite? juz haf to make sure u spend as much time as possible wif ur family and dat ur mom and bro are coping well.. since u can't possibly not go ns, and ur dad is keen on e job, the only way is to juz deal with the situation and not worry abt it too much, cos it wun help matters anyway.. ya, and in the end it'll all work out for e best. maybe ur bro will become mature, ur family wld haf a stable source of income, and maybe ur mum wld not be so disappointed in ur dad anymore.. yea, stay positive k? and anw u still got us, we'll help discipline ur bro if u need us to. muahaha.

oh yah, guys, i tink u'd all noe dat dos sat got z-pop concert.. but i dunno if u all wanna go anot. its 6pm at padang, and if u get ur tix from me the 10 bucks will be waived cos the Sun fan club will be sponsoring. me wanna go see F.I.R tuan zhang.. (hehe) i not sure got who but i tink u all shld noe la. so if wanna go rite, muz tell me so i can go get tix.. yep...

sigh, study hard every1. we can do it!!!

chan eng.charis | 9:59 PM

hmmm.. i watched de table tennis match too! quite disappointing... me and my bro.. both tot she wud win... until she started losing de 5th match... den eugene msged me... "oh my.. tis dun look good..".. and it really din turn out too good.. hehe.. btw.. when i 1st read de msg... i tot it was a Jk's post lor... de way kenny talk.. so similar lor! it was until de part kenny started talking bout NS... den i realised it was kenny dat was blogging.. haha.. i watched summer scent too! =P find de show kinda crap... hehe..

hmmm.. if i was kenny i wud be rather sad ba... not dat i can imagine how worried he is.. but can understand y he is feeling dat way.. dun worry ba.. things wud turn out right.. and maybe ur bro will grow up during dat period of time.. cos sometimes rebellion is to prove that they hav grown up.. and its a way to escape from control.. yupz.. my bro only P5 la.. already know to argue back at my mum... dunno wat got into him... nothing scares him.. tink de only way for him to grow up wud be to undergo some pain and suffering to make him understand dat de way he behaves can end up inviting trouble for himself..

hehe... guess wat.. i juz went to cut hotdogs... supposed to go and fry egg in a while.. after my mother finish hanging her clothes.. hehe.. btw.. i voted for my chem teacher as my fav tutor le! tink she deserves it la.. she is really good.. to be able to transform my class guys.. make their empty tutorial books full... and somemore is ahead of tutorial.. great achievement.. clap clap! kkz.. shall end here.. tatas!

shuqin | 1:47 PM

okie.. i'm guilty.. dun nag at me when u see tis post.. it's sat afternoon... 2.34pm.. and i hav not done much work.. wat is wrong with me?! been slacking de whole day.. maybe i shd hav gone out to study at bedok BK with chaneng and yt.. but haiz.. too late for regrets... i'm kinda stuck at home.. maybe i wud be going my sis's hse later... something to look forward to?

hmmm... lotsa hw tis weekend.. and i still haven plan my revision timetable.. stress is building up.. but body is not doing anything to be productive and counter de build up in stress.. tutors all starting revision for us.. but y am i still slacking?! pple are reducing the time they spend online... y am i still here blogging?!?! and i have been online for more den an hour now... argh! tis is bad.. really shd go do my hw and stuff after tis... no more reasons to slack... even though i feel as though i seriously lack sleep... head feels heavy.. kkz... tis are juz excuses! no more of them...

read thru yt's entry.. i guess it is de 1st time she told us so much bout her breakup with her ex... be brave gal! we will always be there for u.. juz like u guys hav been there for me when i'm feeling down and out.. de only person dat can help u get over it is urself.. as long as u still can't tink it thru.. it will always be there to bug u down.. i guess we are put thru all these to make us stronger... u might ask y do we need to be stronger? but tis is life..we hav no choice but to accept it...

acty there are things which i hav never told u pple.. feel kinda bad hiding it frm u guys.. sometimes really wish to tell u pple bout it.. but always end up keeping it to myself.. hmmm... yt's entry acty gave me de urge to want to go down to bedok bk to tell de 2 of them bout it.. but i guess i shall tell u pple about it next time... yupz... take care pple... dun fall sick.. eat more vitamin C... drink more water... see ya pple soon! =)

shuqin | 2:36 PM

k..since both sotongs have blogged and i'm escaping from my gp essay..shall blog sth. was quite sad for susilo..watched d last few minutes..can feel his frustration..jus keeps getting worse..keep giving points to his opponent..that kinda feeling is worse than when u know d points were acty scored by d opponent himself..cos tt's when u xin fu kou fu. but haiz..rules were imposed for difficulty..and w/o difficulty there can be no happiness[gp compre heh..]. but nvm! let's not give up hope on the other medallist hopefuls...table tennis womens! woohoo..jia you. we're all rooting for u.

ok..on to relevant stuff. this week was..ok lah. napfa was mediocre. but i passed i passed! haha big deal. realised my class girls all quite short. only 1 is above 1.65m..only she use d higher bar for inclined pullup. was then tt we realised how short our class girls are. oso..another thing learnt is how far u jump depends on how short u are :)

hmm..acty was quite down on monday(or it could be tuesday i forgot)..so..seeing my ex is online..i jus msged a hello are u free. and he ignored me. kaoz. i'm like fine la. frankly..didn't hope for too much la..cos he doesn't really respond much to me online. respond as in return d first hello. sms stil got reply. haiz..sometimes wonder whether he's avoiding me. but can't think of a reason to. so long alr lor..can't he just treat me like a fren like he said he wud. dunno la..maybe it's unintentional..but replying like 3 out of 10 hellos is saying something la. not like he's online v often anyway. point is..find tt ppl can really change alot..can totally turn their backs on u..ppl u'd never expect. sometimes wonder if i'm d victim. i never knew wad caused d breakup. we just..broke up. in 4 days. and within 2 weeks he's with another girl. k la acty i'm oso thinking now why am i thinking back abt all those shit..maybe cos i never really told u all abt this. anyway, tt time really felt like dying..within 4 days i've lost my pillar of strength..have to depend on myself for everything. haiz. ok..it's over. time really heals. anw..point is..sometimes even if it's not ur fault..u'll get hurt badly..wad's impt is u muz find a way to pick urself up..and know tt it's not ur fault..den u can carry on. yup..so fellow htg members..next time if life is mean to u, u mustn't be mean to urself further..muz encourage urself and go on with life..only u can help urself..

by the way, i'm going for grad nite. dunno if i'll regret later but heck la. ok..gg to watch sg idol liao..and do gp..tatas..

Pebbles | 7:49 PM

yoz pple! long time since i last blogged.. missed me?! =P
hmmm.. seriously lotsa things happened within tis week... i grew up quite abit.. but shall not blog it here.. will tell u pple next time when we meet up again... provided i can acty find de mood to tell u pple.. not exactly a very good week for me.. supposed to hav test almost everyday.. monday was chem remedial test, tues was phys diagnostic test + NAPFA.. haha... din realised JK was having it on de same day too.. until i read his msg after my test dat day.. hehe... so far i cleared all my 5 items.. tml is 2.4km run.. sianz.. someone provide me with de motivation to cont running de same route 6 times... how boring can life get...

hmmm... yest wed... had 2 maths test! can u imagine how dreadful that was! one was maths lect test for complex numbers.. den had maths remedial test on application of integration.. wow.. how wonderful.. den today.. had to be de worse day of all... 2 lect tests! not diagnostic or remedial wor... is LECTURE leh! anyway.. conclusion after de tests.. i gonna flop both.. left 1 whole qn of phys never do... 1st time in my tj life... sad case.. 10 marks flown away... haiz... wonder y i bothered to study... maybe it did make a difference... but not much i guess... kz.. tml's test... NAPFA again! de 1 i dread most.. haiz..

hmmm.. JK's blog kinda sentimental ah.. but its true la.. sometimes when life gets so terrible and miserable... de tots of de fun we had together... de pain dat it will bring shd anyone of us be gone.. juz provides de motivation for 1 to move on.. went swensens for ice-cream with my class guys today... had a good time with them.. was laughing at de jokes and stuff they say.. typical guys.. may be stressed bout prelims...but yet there's other things to their lives... totally no restriction... told them bout de prob i face in class... they are not as unfeeling as i tot them to be... they acty sympatise with me! de feeling is great.. when u find out dat someone acty understand how u feel... =D juz like how u pple always comfort me when i complain... thanks frens!

oh... chaneng! i watched de match yest too! so sad lor! wanted him to win... but haiz... next mountain higher den tis one.. tink he is more devastated den us.. but he played well la... applause for him!

oh yah.. confirmed le.. i'm not going for grad night... hehe.. sounds kinda AP ah.. but i really see no point in going... so ex.. and not like i really wish to see de whole sch pple dressed up for de last time.. tink i'm 1 of de 3 not going in my class.. de other 2 are guys.. surprisingly my class guys never pester me to go... luckily...

supposed to be doing my case study now... but i'm totally sianz at dat tot... hw seems neverending... eh.. i had tis crazy idea for tis past few days... anyone interested in going kbox tis sat? hehe.. somehow juz feel like finding an outlet to vent my unhappiness for tis few days... but since i blog only today... abit not possible hor.. but if u all see.. juz msg me if interested kz...

"Everyone fails. Champions pick up and begin again..."

shuqin | 6:00 PM

haha! hey good for u man!! didnt realise htg can be such a huge source of motivation.. heeheee. yea den we can haf full strength during dec. sigh, im already thinking abt wad we shld to relak and celebrate and enjoy ourselves.. but much as i dun wanna po1 leng3 shui3 fact is dat prelims are coming!!! and im really scared dis time.. got scolded like hell by my mum cos of bt 2 results and for the 1st life in my life she chup into my studies and arrange maths tuition for me. and only now den she finds out dat im doing maths c and not a maths, dat my class is 03S63, and dat i dropped physics. sigh but still, at least she is willing to get a tutor for me, dat im very thankful for.. sigh again. hope every1 can muster up the courage and find motivation like q..

and oh yah i watched badmintion olympics today.. susilo kena thrashed. bye bye medal..

chan eng.charis | 10:08 PM

whheee....haha....today was a v impt day to me...haha.....napfa retest!! haha...only ltg no that this cockster here failed napfa....haha...not once....but twice....haha....today was e final try le...hehe...and got reason why i decided to post smt as dumb as this 1....
scorching weather today @!$#!@$#!@ ....but still no choice....haha...den waited for like 2 hrs for it... another @^@^@!$%@ well.....haha...den when i finally went to the hall....tch tooked my card...saw fail pull up was e 1 i failed....not wat i wanted to attempt first....haha.....but no choice....saw a dunman friend of ours...newo mal....erm....zero pull ups...haha....stressed....but been pumping weights at home for this le....hehe...my driving force to train....to not get that 6 wks of NS phyiscal training....cos that'd mean i'd hafta enter ns in start of dec....which means cannot see htg le!! haha....seriously wor....that was my main concern....and it was this tat drove me to train v hard...wat eva it was....cleared pull-ups!! haha...finally!!
2nd obstacle...standing broadjump...1st jump 220.....2nd jump 216....tch started saying..."see la...that's what happens when ya dun train...." hmm...this mite sound weird....but i simply stepped aside....calm myself down for e final chance....den one way or another...images of htg popped into my mind....either consciously or sub-consciously....about how fun each other's company have always been....and if during dec i enter that dumb training programme...den i'd be leaving the fun times earlier den i'd have to(assuming dec would haf some nice outings...hehe...)....ya....well...motivational driving force found le....so went back to the "ring"...with a shout of ARRRRHHH.....just jumped as hard as i could....228!! napfa nightmare was over...

hmmm**sentimental mode on**.....well....just wanna thank ya guys.....when eva i needed a spark of fun into my otherwise rather sianz life....you guys haf been able to provide it in such an abundance that it was more than i could eva ask for....and even when in time of wat u mite call distress....you guys have unknowingly become what can drive me forward and that's prob smt none of my other friends haf been able to give me....today's napfa made me realised that totally....yepzz..that's all i've to say **sentimental mode off** WHEEE!!! no 6 wks....

alaka | 10:09 PM

whee..the whole htg is in timmy's hse now..using timmy's comp and watching timmy's tv. using timmy's toilet and playing timmy's piano. jus got a shock..cos my heart will go on is playing now. wahhh. so long ago siaaaa. "u have come to show you go on.."

so..why are we gathered here? cos we jus had our first ever bbq! mini one though. with alotof help from tim's family. thks so much! first time in a long long time i touch chicken wings. cos they look too yummy aredi. haha..had alotof music for entertainment. yc and kiu the posers were killers of the nite. haha. pic attached.

wah before that me ce and yc spent a vvvv long time in tt dvd rental shop..deciding which to rent. den..we went back ask for opinion. THENNN we decided no time to watch. so. haha we didn't rent any! to think the shopkeeper was like full of hope and everything haha. she shd kill us seriously.

tim is calling......U KNOW!!! haha..shhhh.

k la. i dunno wad to type aredi. til next time!

Pebbles | 10:09 PM