hmmm.. shd update wor.. in case we all hav amnesia in future... and dun forget dat we ever went to kiu's hse to mug on 21 oct 2004! haha.. kkz... so now we'll all rmb... as long as tis blog stays.. we went kiu's hse to mug yest! tink his mama had a shock when stg went 1st.. 3 gals going his hse.. den luckily kenny came.. but still... we had to speak in english.. better still... standard and cheem english... so dat both his mum and bro wun understand..

haha.. wanted to wreck havoc in his kitchen by cooking our own instant noodles for dinner... but in de end... his mama took over.. mission failed... maybe we'll try again... but when his mum is not at home... lesson learnt.. cooking mission wud never be successful when de owner of de kitchen is at home.. anyway... had ice cream for dessert! wahz.. still tink dat's de best dessert.. never fails to give me a sense of satisfaction.. =)

hehe.. now having mass chat with kiu and yt.. topics really go frm 1 to another.. started with chalet.. now discussing bout wu zong xian... conclusion.. he's quite ke lian.. and u knoe wat.. within a min... we switched back to discussion on chalet again... tis is htg.. never run out of topics for discussion... good point of ours... applause! *clap clap clap*

aiya... wanted to blog for a reason 1... but now i forgot wat was de main thing i wanted to say... kkz... know wat u guys are tinking.. so typical of me... nothing to be amazed bout.. but u knoe... it gets veri irritating when u forget wat u wanna blog bout.. eh.. really dun remember le.. but it was supposed to be sth more impt den all de crap i juz said.. aiya.. forget it.. next time ba..

study hard pple! if not kenny gong gong will nag at us to be yong4 gong1..... =p see ya pple soon! in case i forget.. to timothy, kiu, yt... good luck for phys prac on monday! =)

shuqin | 11:16 PM

wahz.. u wun believe tis.. i typed a whole entry and its gone.. now i have to retype it all over again.. kz.. shall skip some of de non-impt part.. anyway.. yest was tj's farewell ceremony... kz.. did feel sad at some point of time... especially during de concerts.. all de singing performances manged to bring tears into my eyes.. but i never cry.. cos i can't..

kkz.. in response to kiu's post.. it's a perception prob.. it has always been tis way since a long long time ago.. guys are viewed to be stronger... and less emotional... of cos dat's not always true.. and i have seen exceptional cases myself.. u are probably 1 exceptional case urself... hehe... =p but i tink 1 thing most gals wud agree wud be dat although we view u guys to be emotionally stronger.. we will still welcome u pple to let down ur guard and be emotional in front of us.. we dun mind being dat pillar of support in times when u need it.. cos we understand de fact dat u are juz human.. and hav times when u will feel down too..

eh.. as i was reading thru kiu's entry ah... i tink i'm really more of a guy den a gal leh.. cos de things he say ah.. although mostly against gals.. i agree with him leh... i never tot dat it was anyone's fault if he happens to like 2 gals at de same time.. it juz means dat he is confused bout wat he wants himself.. not his fault.. no one can be clear bout his own goals all de time.. and i believe dat as time goes by.. he will come to realise wat is it dat he really wants.. tink wat pple can't accept is de fact dat he will end up hurting 1 party.. anyway... guys dun hav to put up with de wu2 li3 qu3 nao4 of gals all de time... not even if de gal is his gf and he likes her alot.. shd not zong4 rong2 de incorrect behaviour.. cannot always give in all de time.. hav abit more say in ur own lives! u dun belong to ur bf/gf... u can choose ur own frens and lead ur own lives..

haha.. i seems over agitated wor.. but aiya... sometimes see de guys ard me ah.. more of de victims.. are good guys meant to be bullied? poor thing lor.. but as usual.. we often dun cherish de pple ard us until they have left us.. and tis is de most impt lesson dat i've learnt tis yr.. all i want now.. is for those close to my heart to be happy... and that include U! yes u.. htg.. =)

let's jia you! A levels gonna come and go as a breeze for us ... yeah? =P

shuqin | 4:38 PM

wahh..really impressed by kiu. this teaches us that when the lao hu bu fa wei, bu yao ba ta dang bing mao! he has convinced me that i belong to the more understanding group of the female species. hahaha. yay. i have never called a guy a jerk, nor have i claimed to be in a state of psychological distress, cos i know and i tell ppl that i'm just plain pissed. ok, enough of myself.

ya i really agree with him. maybe it's cos all the guys i've met are good. but sometimes seeing them get bullied by girls whom i deem totally unworthy is quite sad. sigh. affecting their results and all. but when everything's cleared up they're so happy agn, like the prev few days were gone with the wind. sigh, guys are so simple sometimes. what an endearing quality. it seems to me that girls get very affected by unhappiness in the r/s, but it's the guys who are really shattered by an end of a r/s. this shows that guys cry too..no matter who initiated the breakup. just as it is hard to accept one, it may even be harder to initiate one. trying to leave someone who has become part of your life..can it ever be easy?

suddenly had deja vu while typing this..maybe i'd rehearsed this in my dreams before. haha. but well, guys or girls alike, we all have feelings and the only impt thing is to let go when u have to. sometimes it is not impt who's the jerk or who's the bitch. if we really uds the person, we'd know what's behind all the unhappiness. maybe they're in their darkest hour, and they need support. or they are indeed trying to break up..in a more subtle way. no one will hurt another person for no reason.

ok, such a post is sure uncomparable in terms of length to kiu's lah. but easier to digest perhaps :p acty i wanted to blog abt sthg else but i forgot. nvm! oh yea..notice the philosophical face of htg blog is back? :)

Pebbles | 10:49 PM

lalala....just played soccer for SO LONG just now man...suffering from effects of dehydration le...headache...n betta news...my toe is swollen...again....tonite nobody online xia...well...not evry1 is like me...haha...supposed to be doing econs mcq but....giving myself all the excuses in the world not to do...

suddenly got some gan2 chu4s so decided to blog...(eehhh...if at some pt in time this post evokes emotions of rebuttal...pls do not hesitate to stop reading)today angel told me bout her being pissed off with her guy friend whom sorta told her he like this gal now but still has some feelings for erm...a previous gal...hope ce can uds...haha....den my angel erm...gave her all guys r jerks verdict...cos it seemed like he likes 2 gals at the same time...n that just sparked 2 tots in my mind...firstly...is it really that sinful to at the same time like 2 person? isn't it human nature to be unsure of your true feelings for people at some point in time? and it doesn't always apply to guys only right? but e pt is why is it it is always the male counterpart of humans being attacked?? if a guy is unsure of who he exactly likes n actually speaks out his mind...e reaction incurred always seems to be attacking the guy for being frivolous(correct word not ar?) or smt of that sorts....n e other parties involved seem to always find it no problem to just accuse the guy of being erm....not being dedicated...and they haf evry right to pressure the guy to make a choice...conversely when the same situation happens for a gal...it seems that the guys involved haf to just bear with it and wait patiently...n agonisingly for the gal to make up her mind...if she eva does so....n it seems like she is the one that is in erm...psychological distress...n treated more like "the victim" in a sense...aren't the guys who are waiting supposed to be the victims to a ficke-minded person that they so happen to like? n the guys simply haf to either walk away in sorrow or just wait like dumb dorks(hmmm...not a v nice word)? think most us(eehh..our age 1 la...) haf been some pt in time a sorta counsellor to other pple b4...and may haf encountered such cases of being unable to make decisions....some of the people...or gals that we no even haf this totally bad impressions on the creature called guys...due to personal exp or having heard of real-life stories from other people...evrything from the v start...courtship has to be initiated by guys(e general behaviour n belief...not all...but most)...during quarrels the guy has to give in be it he is in the right or in the wrong...when the gal is feeling not happy she has evry right to show it to the guy....but when the guy is unhappy and he shows it out...he can easily be blamed for taking it out on the gal by the gal(lousy sentence structure?)...when a guy says some wrong words the gal can just choose to declare a cold war....but when the gal says smt wrongly the guy just has to live with it....got many more pts but dun wanna drag bout it...

coming to the main point...aren't females and males supposed to be equal?? why is it guys always haf to be blamed for being the evil creature?...not always i agree but most of the time??? guys r still humans not matter wat...guys do haf feelings n do feel emotions of remorse...sorrow...wu2 ke2 nai4 he2 de4 qing2 xu4...evry single emotion that a gal has guys haf an equal chance of having...but society shapes us such that we haf to appear as the more well...void of emotions...courage has to be mustered to express his feelings for some1...dignity has to be swallowed to avoid a conflict...sorrow has to be buried to ensure joy...and heartbeat has to be endured when rejected...and for the guys who haf initiated breakups...sometimes it hurts them more to say goodbye than for the other party to hear goodbye...guys r guys...guys haf been born to haf some characteristics of being guys...the same thing as gals being born to be the more emotional of the two(most of the time)...some of these characteristics may not the good...but it is just innate....but it isn't all the guys in the world who r totally overflowing with these behaviours all the time...in such matters of the heart guys too do haf to put it alot...besides rships...in normal day life as friends and as colleagues or as any with other interactions...alot of the good is overlooked and the negatives r almost without fail picked up n blames n curses r dealt out...so i just wanna say to well...hu eva hu reads this...b4 scolding any guys or cursing or throwing tantrum or anything...try thinking bout wat r the nice things that they haf done instead and see for yourselves which is the more overwhelming output by them...

haha..since this post is already sure to stir up some counter-attacks...i mite as well add this line...haha...a personal opinion i'd been wanting to declare for a long time...abit no link to paste here.....but yeah....(not directed to any1....esp qianzzz) thou only 18(n adults of cos deem this age too young)...but haf seen a few cases of pple fearing to accept others or even others a chance...cos of previous failures and/or the failures of those ard them...even cases where the person does have feelings for the other...but wat i want to say is that by protecting ourselves from being hurt simply by inflicting the pain on others when we cease to try....we r not just being selfish....we r being unfeelings...we are all humans...the distinguishing factor of us from animals is the ability to have feelings...recognise our feelings...develop our feelings...and by refusing to recognise our feelings...we render ourselves unfeeling creatures...which degrades us to the very top of our evolutionary chain...back to the unfeeling primates that we now see at the zoo...so to all those pple...take the next few yrs to grow up.....

ta-da....wah....like q long le....pt 2 next time den say...if i can rmb wat it is....and to pple who see this post...(acty h u else besides the 5 of us will see this? hmmm...) but anw...neva write essay plan la....so damn no organisation...den e pts oso like q rubbish sometimes...haha....that's just the way i blog...off to meet erm...qiu1 gong1....(-_-)zZzZ

alaka | 2:15 AM

oh wow... today was last day of sch... tj's open house.. lessons went on as usual for year 2s... everything seems more relaxed and slack... but sadly.. there was no feeling dat it was de last day of sch.. my class pple din go ard taking photos... our lunch outing was only successful considering de fact that there were representatives frm each group within my class.. wat does it says? de fact dat my class is segregated..

sort of glad dat 2 years of toture is coming to an end.. not much memories to bring away frm these 2 years.. as for those dat i'll keep... it's a mixture of good and bad times.. i guess it is always during tis time of de year that we start getting emotional and sentimental... pondered over tis qn for de past few days.. will i still be keeping in contact with my class pple after As? with de fact dat i was closer to de guys den de gals.. and sadly.. they hav to go NS.. really wonder..

watched de results show for singapore idol juz now.. felt anxious when i knew slyvester was one of de unsafe 1.. was so glad when he returned to de sofa.. when i realised it was left with leandra and jerry.. i felt excitement.. for de fact dat jerry might be kicked out afterall... when he was eliminated... i felt happy.. but juz for dat moment.. when i watched his video and performance.. i pitied and admired him... it's not easy.. to hav come so far in de competition.. with de constant bombardment of criticism frm de public and media every week.. he never had de recognition dat he needed.. i tink he's grateful to his fans... juz like i'm grateful to u guys... for de same simple reason... dat u pple were always there to provide support and encouragement when it seems as though de whole world is against u..

now dat sch has officially ended.. i'm still clueless bout how i shd go about with my revision for A levels.. do papers in tys? read thru notes again? but its boring.. haiz.. acty really feel kinda drained now... dunno y.. even feel like crying out loud.. too much emotions bottled up.. wanna share some of my tots.. but dun tink pple wud be able to understand.. wanna let go of some things... but i juz can't bear to.. haiz... i hate de 2nd half of tis yr.. one of de most terrible time in my entire life so far... luckily there was always u pple to make things better with de outings...

shuqin | 10:44 PM

hey leader! yep..totally agree with the point that perception of ppl change. know that only too well. but anyway, esp perception of htg members! hehe. shd i elaborate? nahh..shall go on with my main point. watched 7pm channel u show..and the only thing i picked up from tdy's ep was one line: "ni men gan shuo ni men zhe yi bei zi mei you wu hui guo bie ren ma" (dare you all say you've never misunderstood someone before) doesn't it sound natural. it's true what. nobody's fault..just different thinking. maybe they didn't mean it, but we just misunderstood them anyway. we dunno how we fare in other ppl's impressions of us, so what right do we have to judge them? during hustings, everyone really got bashed like siao..and they claimed they were lenient alr..last yr was more hen3. but it was during then tt i realised our one action has many implications. on ppl's impression of you. oh well.

haha, farewell concert. my physics teacher even had to personally plead with us to go, saying that it'd only be a few hrs and that we need to get our results slip anyway. and the physics dept had to lure us there with the personalised present they promised. what does that say abt the average tjc-ian? haha. but it does show that our tutors know us too well. that's why they're our tutors. frankly, i dunno if i've any feelings for the class. or if anyone does. my class rep was saying we'll go clubbing after prom. like everyone else. but..ya rite! no one will turn up! like every outing ever organised. we dun mind getting together and having fun. but away from each other, i dun think any of us thinks of each other for even a moment. sigh, such a pity. we were on the verge of bonding last yr..but dec hols thwarted everything. haha, how ironic rite. so u see! the moment we dun meet, we forget abt each other! huff puff. okok..shall stop ranting. so point is..yep i'll rmb them but there's nothing abt them to miss. so there. applies to tutors too. seeing less of them nowadays. think they very sian of us alr oso. no response whatsoever to everything they do. sigh..think sometimes my class just cruelly disregards fellow human beings. oh well. nothing's gonna change in 2 months, let me assure you.

wow, so much for nothing. well, thks to htg, my 18yr-old days are very happy! and i dun think of unhappy stuff most of the time now. the outings helped alot. all the nonsense, yet all the concern and attention. from everyone to everyone. :) wow, and to think htg is just abt one yr old only! so young! but so strong. and so cuuuute! haha, but i digressed. but if it weren't for you all, i'd be missing a big part of my life! thks guys :)

Pebbles | 10:28 PM

hehe.. i can still blog.. and i'm so thankful for dat.. maybe we will only learn to appreciate de small and simple things after we lost it once.. juz like wat i'm feeling now.. for being able to blog again.. hehe..

anyway.. really had fun on last sat and tues.. kbox was fun.. we enjoyed ourselves.. and i had nice ice-cream... hmmm.. feel quite sorry for kenny bout him losing his wallet.. but den again.. tink he gained some impt lesson frm it too.. haha.. tues was not bad.. i did managed to do some work.. and i had nice gelare ice-cream... haha.. y do i bother writing all these here.. when u pple were there experiencing de fun i had too.. i bet u pple felt de same way as i did.. really grateful dat i found u pple as frens... =D

tml is officially de last day of sch for tj year twos(dat's excluding de farewell concert on monday)... if today was de farewell concert.. i might hav cried.. not sure if i wud on monday... used to tink dat i din really hav any feelings for my class pple or de sch... but today during chem lect.. when i saw my chem tutor.. de yi1 yi1 bu4 she3 feeling juz came over me.. i realised acty i will miss some of them... really grateful to some of my tutors.. without them.. i probably wud not hav found de motivation to work hard at certain subjects... tutors like mr ngoh, mrs noordin and mrs wee.. they are great tutors.. but sadly.. my class was not de best students.. hope they wud be conforted in knowing dat we really did put in efforts for this prelims... although our results din show much improvement.. i hav faith in my class.. tink we will do better.. if we cont striving..

haha.. suddenly all these feelings juz came over me.. i acty do feel dat i might miss some of my classmates too.. of cos there are some nasty pple in class... but i've found some frens worth keeping too.. i'm thankful to pple like eugene.. he really provided a lot of support for me.. esp during de pre-prelims period.. he's blur la.. dun tink he'll ever knoe y i'm grateful to him.. haha... dun get de wrong idea.. to me.. he's juz a great fren.. no special feelings.. and his heart with some gal too.. =p well.. some pple have hurt me in these 2 years.. some created wounds so deep.. i'm still trying to heal them... but den again.. without these pple.. i might not hav grown stronger.. i've lost my independence once.. but now.. i tink i've grown even more independent.. realised perception of pple do change.. used to hav quite a bad impression of joanna.. but now.. after i got to knoe her.. she's not dat bad afterall... another lesson learnt.. if we are willing to spend dat bit more time to share and let pple into our heart.. we might find out new things bout them.. impressions of pple will change.. but den again.. by opening up.. we are exposing ourselves to hurt.. guess dat's juz part of growing up..

hmmm.. quite abit of sentimental talk here.. wonder if i will still keep in contact with my class pple after de As.. 1 month more.. let's juz wait and see.. for now.. i'll go watch my idol! slyvester rocks! =)

shuqin | 7:50 PM

happy bdae kenny! hmm abt 90 mins left.. hehe. u 18 le wor. means im officially the youngest in htg. urgh. cant wait for my own bdae to come. but it can only come after A's. and i dowan A's to come!!!!!! sobz. but if As dun come bdae wun come. and after dat us gals can go work! financial independence! woo hoo cant wait to experience dat. yea well den guys will haf NS. hey u all aim for high ranks and big posts den confirm will earn more den us. sigh cant wait for life after jc. looking back on these 2 yrs, wad memories can i bring wif me to the next phase in life? sadly, nothing of substance. they made us watch a dvd made of the last 30 yrs in HC. hwachong was made to move out of the sch compound in 1986 cos got building defects. the sch really bonded over dat. and the hwachong spirit aint juz empty words, it was almost tangible back then. but now? sigh. prob all ill get from hc are getting As in a levels. (hopefully) oh well.

chan eng.charis | 10:36 PM

happy birthday kennyyyyyy!!! ;)

Pebbles | 10:44 PM

Artist: Rembrandts Lyrics
Song: I'll Be There For You

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even
your year, but

{Chorus}

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great
Your mama warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees, and

{Chorus}

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Since you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the best with
Someone who always laughs at
Even when I'm at my worst, I'm best with you
Yeah!

{Chorus}

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

alaka | 1:17 AM

yooooooo peeps. oooh! i just discovered the hello service. the one that lets you post pictures just like that. haha, ok..not that i've solved my prob of not being able to transfer my pictures from phone to com. arr..early in the morning and i'm talking rubbish.

firstly, to everyone, thank you! yesterday was fun. but just one wet blanket towards the end. oh well, no one expected it. at least we were happy while it lasted. hmm..cheer up kenny! :)

and congrats sq! on being able to blog, agn! and yup we all sense ur ecstasy. :D :D and by the way, glad tt ya all like the earrings :)

so chunping didn't come yesterday. dun we all feel abit guilty? sigh, the feeling of isolation. does no one feel like going anywhere with us and us only nowadays? maybe we're too much, i dunno. and maybe chunping was just busy, period. but we all know that wasn't the first time already. i do feel kinda guilty. when will the class ever have a dinner agn? once a's are over..ppl will be going places and it's going to be hard..even harder as time passes. well..i guess ppl will be counting on us to organise stuff, rite? so we have a big responsibility. and of cos, i wonder too many times the real reason ppl cannot make it. maybe our effort in making any dinner or outing possible just isn't impt enough for some. k, let me make things clear..not referring to anyone in particular, esp htg. so yea..relax.

well..good luck for a's. and ns. and work. and varsity. :)

Pebbles | 11:57 AM

yeah! finally i can blog again! oh my! dun ask me wat i did to my com.. i am juz able to blog again! hooray! oh yeah! =D =D =D finally! u pple can see my name on htg blog again! not juz under de tagboard.. woahahaha! realise how happy and hyper i am.. my previous sentences all ends with exclamation marks.. and tis wud be no diff! hahaha...

we are going kbox today! we're going to sing.. hehe.. oh my.. why are we behaving as though de prelims are de last papers we hav to take before de gals get 7 months of break and de guys go NS for 2 years.. but again.. who cares.. it's for a good valid reason dat we are going kbox today.. hehe.. dun tink kenny will get to read tis b4 he meets us today.. so doesn't really matter right?! :p

tinking bout yest ah.. wahz.. was really quite sianz on my way to de place where i did all de funny things.. but u pple ah.. never fail to make me laugh and forget de unhappy things.. hehe.. great frens u pple are! anyway.. thanks yt! for de earrings.. but still not use to seeing myself with earrings.. after so long of not wearing.. but i'll wear it today.. dun worry.. :)

lalala... i had a good start today (except for de part where i woke up at 6..or is dat a good start too?).. tink it will be a happy day.. see ya pple later.. yeah! :D

shuqin | 8:34 AM

SweDiSh MeAtBaLLs RoX~ hehe.. umm i realised dats all i can say without arousing too much suspicion abt wad we sought to accomplish today? and the beautifully enacted scene of *ahem. and shuqin's jumping feat.. oh but she only jumped once, technically. squatted on e bed for most of e time.. nvm its all recorded in yt's fone. plus dat controversial and provocative scene. hahaha..yt i realised if u lose ur fone all e memories will be gone too! so u have much responsibilty in ur hands.. with great power comes great responsibilty.. yay we can be like friends next time and live next to each other! haha q already put e song on e blog. we've established dat yc is joey in friends. *shortcut to cafe! shortcut to cafe!* and q is ross. spouting weird theories all e time.. and umm kenny is chandler. the lame one.. sigh sadly the girls dun really fit huh? apart from yt wanting to be phoebe.. well anw, i wonder how close will we be to living next to one another? never, i tink. cos s'pore housing policy so screwed. stuff like only married couples can apply for hdb and only singles above 35 can apply, or sth liddat. so unless we go find private housing, the fantasy will nv be realised huh? nevertheless its still too early to say.. it'll be qt fun tho. ltg with their mental institution room with padded walls and no glassware so they can kick the ball ard and q can scream at the rest if they kick it outside the room. den stg will fight over toilet. haha okie okie shall shuddup now. seeya guys tml~

chan eng.charis | 9:45 PM

lalala...was blogging halfway yday den doze off le...hehe...prelim over le...now is promos...haha...none of my business 1...until i made a bet with my angel...if my prelim win her....she'll accept her "bro"...if her promos win me...i gotta find a gf.. (-_-)""" haha...i no is total rubbish....but the bet on treating lunch din seem to haf any effect at all...haha...e main thing is her bro already biao bai to her n stuff le...den she oso like....so abit dotz rite? well...dunno nian2 qing1 ren2 zai4 xiang3 shen2 me4.....there goes another chu1 lian4....haha...when's mine gonna come??? hmmm...this really is a rubbish entry...just feeling sian n dun wanna study yet...later go where eat ar??? long time not eaten smt really nice le....EH!!! why dun haf doraemon le...damn it...dun haf anything else to write le...next time den cont....

alaka | 10:16 AM

hmmm.. shd update wor.. in case we all hav amnesia in future... and dun forget dat we ever went to kiu's hse to mug on 21 oct 2004! haha.. kkz... so now we'll all rmb... as long as tis blog stays.. we went kiu's hse to mug yest! tink his mama had a shock when stg went 1st.. 3 gals going his hse.. den luckily kenny came.. but still... we had to speak in english.. better still... standard and cheem english... so dat both his mum and bro wun understand..

haha.. wanted to wreck havoc in his kitchen by cooking our own instant noodles for dinner... but in de end... his mama took over.. mission failed... maybe we'll try again... but when his mum is not at home... lesson learnt.. cooking mission wud never be successful when de owner of de kitchen is at home.. anyway... had ice cream for dessert! wahz.. still tink dat's de best dessert.. never fails to give me a sense of satisfaction.. =)

hehe.. now having mass chat with kiu and yt.. topics really go frm 1 to another.. started with chalet.. now discussing bout wu zong xian... conclusion.. he's quite ke lian.. and u knoe wat.. within a min... we switched back to discussion on chalet again... tis is htg.. never run out of topics for discussion... good point of ours... applause! *clap clap clap*

aiya... wanted to blog for a reason 1... but now i forgot wat was de main thing i wanted to say... kkz... know wat u guys are tinking.. so typical of me... nothing to be amazed bout.. but u knoe... it gets veri irritating when u forget wat u wanna blog bout.. eh.. really dun remember le.. but it was supposed to be sth more impt den all de crap i juz said.. aiya.. forget it.. next time ba..

study hard pple! if not kenny gong gong will nag at us to be yong4 gong1..... =p see ya pple soon! in case i forget.. to timothy, kiu, yt... good luck for phys prac on monday! =)

shuqin | 11:16 PM

wahz.. u wun believe tis.. i typed a whole entry and its gone.. now i have to retype it all over again.. kz.. shall skip some of de non-impt part.. anyway.. yest was tj's farewell ceremony... kz.. did feel sad at some point of time... especially during de concerts.. all de singing performances manged to bring tears into my eyes.. but i never cry.. cos i can't..

kkz.. in response to kiu's post.. it's a perception prob.. it has always been tis way since a long long time ago.. guys are viewed to be stronger... and less emotional... of cos dat's not always true.. and i have seen exceptional cases myself.. u are probably 1 exceptional case urself... hehe... =p but i tink 1 thing most gals wud agree wud be dat although we view u guys to be emotionally stronger.. we will still welcome u pple to let down ur guard and be emotional in front of us.. we dun mind being dat pillar of support in times when u need it.. cos we understand de fact dat u are juz human.. and hav times when u will feel down too..

eh.. as i was reading thru kiu's entry ah... i tink i'm really more of a guy den a gal leh.. cos de things he say ah.. although mostly against gals.. i agree with him leh... i never tot dat it was anyone's fault if he happens to like 2 gals at de same time.. it juz means dat he is confused bout wat he wants himself.. not his fault.. no one can be clear bout his own goals all de time.. and i believe dat as time goes by.. he will come to realise wat is it dat he really wants.. tink wat pple can't accept is de fact dat he will end up hurting 1 party.. anyway... guys dun hav to put up with de wu2 li3 qu3 nao4 of gals all de time... not even if de gal is his gf and he likes her alot.. shd not zong4 rong2 de incorrect behaviour.. cannot always give in all de time.. hav abit more say in ur own lives! u dun belong to ur bf/gf... u can choose ur own frens and lead ur own lives..

haha.. i seems over agitated wor.. but aiya... sometimes see de guys ard me ah.. more of de victims.. are good guys meant to be bullied? poor thing lor.. but as usual.. we often dun cherish de pple ard us until they have left us.. and tis is de most impt lesson dat i've learnt tis yr.. all i want now.. is for those close to my heart to be happy... and that include U! yes u.. htg.. =)

let's jia you! A levels gonna come and go as a breeze for us ... yeah? =P

shuqin | 4:38 PM

wahh..really impressed by kiu. this teaches us that when the lao hu bu fa wei, bu yao ba ta dang bing mao! he has convinced me that i belong to the more understanding group of the female species. hahaha. yay. i have never called a guy a jerk, nor have i claimed to be in a state of psychological distress, cos i know and i tell ppl that i'm just plain pissed. ok, enough of myself.

ya i really agree with him. maybe it's cos all the guys i've met are good. but sometimes seeing them get bullied by girls whom i deem totally unworthy is quite sad. sigh. affecting their results and all. but when everything's cleared up they're so happy agn, like the prev few days were gone with the wind. sigh, guys are so simple sometimes. what an endearing quality. it seems to me that girls get very affected by unhappiness in the r/s, but it's the guys who are really shattered by an end of a r/s. this shows that guys cry too..no matter who initiated the breakup. just as it is hard to accept one, it may even be harder to initiate one. trying to leave someone who has become part of your life..can it ever be easy?

suddenly had deja vu while typing this..maybe i'd rehearsed this in my dreams before. haha. but well, guys or girls alike, we all have feelings and the only impt thing is to let go when u have to. sometimes it is not impt who's the jerk or who's the bitch. if we really uds the person, we'd know what's behind all the unhappiness. maybe they're in their darkest hour, and they need support. or they are indeed trying to break up..in a more subtle way. no one will hurt another person for no reason.

ok, such a post is sure uncomparable in terms of length to kiu's lah. but easier to digest perhaps :p acty i wanted to blog abt sthg else but i forgot. nvm! oh yea..notice the philosophical face of htg blog is back? :)

Pebbles | 10:49 PM

lalala....just played soccer for SO LONG just now man...suffering from effects of dehydration le...headache...n betta news...my toe is swollen...again....tonite nobody online xia...well...not evry1 is like me...haha...supposed to be doing econs mcq but....giving myself all the excuses in the world not to do...

suddenly got some gan2 chu4s so decided to blog...(eehhh...if at some pt in time this post evokes emotions of rebuttal...pls do not hesitate to stop reading)today angel told me bout her being pissed off with her guy friend whom sorta told her he like this gal now but still has some feelings for erm...a previous gal...hope ce can uds...haha....den my angel erm...gave her all guys r jerks verdict...cos it seemed like he likes 2 gals at the same time...n that just sparked 2 tots in my mind...firstly...is it really that sinful to at the same time like 2 person? isn't it human nature to be unsure of your true feelings for people at some point in time? and it doesn't always apply to guys only right? but e pt is why is it it is always the male counterpart of humans being attacked?? if a guy is unsure of who he exactly likes n actually speaks out his mind...e reaction incurred always seems to be attacking the guy for being frivolous(correct word not ar?) or smt of that sorts....n e other parties involved seem to always find it no problem to just accuse the guy of being erm....not being dedicated...and they haf evry right to pressure the guy to make a choice...conversely when the same situation happens for a gal...it seems that the guys involved haf to just bear with it and wait patiently...n agonisingly for the gal to make up her mind...if she eva does so....n it seems like she is the one that is in erm...psychological distress...n treated more like "the victim" in a sense...aren't the guys who are waiting supposed to be the victims to a ficke-minded person that they so happen to like? n the guys simply haf to either walk away in sorrow or just wait like dumb dorks(hmmm...not a v nice word)? think most us(eehh..our age 1 la...) haf been some pt in time a sorta counsellor to other pple b4...and may haf encountered such cases of being unable to make decisions....some of the people...or gals that we no even haf this totally bad impressions on the creature called guys...due to personal exp or having heard of real-life stories from other people...evrything from the v start...courtship has to be initiated by guys(e general behaviour n belief...not all...but most)...during quarrels the guy has to give in be it he is in the right or in the wrong...when the gal is feeling not happy she has evry right to show it to the guy....but when the guy is unhappy and he shows it out...he can easily be blamed for taking it out on the gal by the gal(lousy sentence structure?)...when a guy says some wrong words the gal can just choose to declare a cold war....but when the gal says smt wrongly the guy just has to live with it....got many more pts but dun wanna drag bout it...

coming to the main point...aren't females and males supposed to be equal?? why is it guys always haf to be blamed for being the evil creature?...not always i agree but most of the time??? guys r still humans not matter wat...guys do haf feelings n do feel emotions of remorse...sorrow...wu2 ke2 nai4 he2 de4 qing2 xu4...evry single emotion that a gal has guys haf an equal chance of having...but society shapes us such that we haf to appear as the more well...void of emotions...courage has to be mustered to express his feelings for some1...dignity has to be swallowed to avoid a conflict...sorrow has to be buried to ensure joy...and heartbeat has to be endured when rejected...and for the guys who haf initiated breakups...sometimes it hurts them more to say goodbye than for the other party to hear goodbye...guys r guys...guys haf been born to haf some characteristics of being guys...the same thing as gals being born to be the more emotional of the two(most of the time)...some of these characteristics may not the good...but it is just innate....but it isn't all the guys in the world who r totally overflowing with these behaviours all the time...in such matters of the heart guys too do haf to put it alot...besides rships...in normal day life as friends and as colleagues or as any with other interactions...alot of the good is overlooked and the negatives r almost without fail picked up n blames n curses r dealt out...so i just wanna say to well...hu eva hu reads this...b4 scolding any guys or cursing or throwing tantrum or anything...try thinking bout wat r the nice things that they haf done instead and see for yourselves which is the more overwhelming output by them...

haha..since this post is already sure to stir up some counter-attacks...i mite as well add this line...haha...a personal opinion i'd been wanting to declare for a long time...abit no link to paste here.....but yeah....(not directed to any1....esp qianzzz) thou only 18(n adults of cos deem this age too young)...but haf seen a few cases of pple fearing to accept others or even others a chance...cos of previous failures and/or the failures of those ard them...even cases where the person does have feelings for the other...but wat i want to say is that by protecting ourselves from being hurt simply by inflicting the pain on others when we cease to try....we r not just being selfish....we r being unfeelings...we are all humans...the distinguishing factor of us from animals is the ability to have feelings...recognise our feelings...develop our feelings...and by refusing to recognise our feelings...we render ourselves unfeeling creatures...which degrades us to the very top of our evolutionary chain...back to the unfeeling primates that we now see at the zoo...so to all those pple...take the next few yrs to grow up.....

ta-da....wah....like q long le....pt 2 next time den say...if i can rmb wat it is....and to pple who see this post...(acty h u else besides the 5 of us will see this? hmmm...) but anw...neva write essay plan la....so damn no organisation...den e pts oso like q rubbish sometimes...haha....that's just the way i blog...off to meet erm...qiu1 gong1....(-_-)zZzZ

alaka | 2:15 AM

oh wow... today was last day of sch... tj's open house.. lessons went on as usual for year 2s... everything seems more relaxed and slack... but sadly.. there was no feeling dat it was de last day of sch.. my class pple din go ard taking photos... our lunch outing was only successful considering de fact that there were representatives frm each group within my class.. wat does it says? de fact dat my class is segregated..

sort of glad dat 2 years of toture is coming to an end.. not much memories to bring away frm these 2 years.. as for those dat i'll keep... it's a mixture of good and bad times.. i guess it is always during tis time of de year that we start getting emotional and sentimental... pondered over tis qn for de past few days.. will i still be keeping in contact with my class pple after As? with de fact dat i was closer to de guys den de gals.. and sadly.. they hav to go NS.. really wonder..

watched de results show for singapore idol juz now.. felt anxious when i knew slyvester was one of de unsafe 1.. was so glad when he returned to de sofa.. when i realised it was left with leandra and jerry.. i felt excitement.. for de fact dat jerry might be kicked out afterall... when he was eliminated... i felt happy.. but juz for dat moment.. when i watched his video and performance.. i pitied and admired him... it's not easy.. to hav come so far in de competition.. with de constant bombardment of criticism frm de public and media every week.. he never had de recognition dat he needed.. i tink he's grateful to his fans... juz like i'm grateful to u guys... for de same simple reason... dat u pple were always there to provide support and encouragement when it seems as though de whole world is against u..

now dat sch has officially ended.. i'm still clueless bout how i shd go about with my revision for A levels.. do papers in tys? read thru notes again? but its boring.. haiz.. acty really feel kinda drained now... dunno y.. even feel like crying out loud.. too much emotions bottled up.. wanna share some of my tots.. but dun tink pple wud be able to understand.. wanna let go of some things... but i juz can't bear to.. haiz... i hate de 2nd half of tis yr.. one of de most terrible time in my entire life so far... luckily there was always u pple to make things better with de outings...

shuqin | 10:44 PM

hey leader! yep..totally agree with the point that perception of ppl change. know that only too well. but anyway, esp perception of htg members! hehe. shd i elaborate? nahh..shall go on with my main point. watched 7pm channel u show..and the only thing i picked up from tdy's ep was one line: "ni men gan shuo ni men zhe yi bei zi mei you wu hui guo bie ren ma" (dare you all say you've never misunderstood someone before) doesn't it sound natural. it's true what. nobody's fault..just different thinking. maybe they didn't mean it, but we just misunderstood them anyway. we dunno how we fare in other ppl's impressions of us, so what right do we have to judge them? during hustings, everyone really got bashed like siao..and they claimed they were lenient alr..last yr was more hen3. but it was during then tt i realised our one action has many implications. on ppl's impression of you. oh well.

haha, farewell concert. my physics teacher even had to personally plead with us to go, saying that it'd only be a few hrs and that we need to get our results slip anyway. and the physics dept had to lure us there with the personalised present they promised. what does that say abt the average tjc-ian? haha. but it does show that our tutors know us too well. that's why they're our tutors. frankly, i dunno if i've any feelings for the class. or if anyone does. my class rep was saying we'll go clubbing after prom. like everyone else. but..ya rite! no one will turn up! like every outing ever organised. we dun mind getting together and having fun. but away from each other, i dun think any of us thinks of each other for even a moment. sigh, such a pity. we were on the verge of bonding last yr..but dec hols thwarted everything. haha, how ironic rite. so u see! the moment we dun meet, we forget abt each other! huff puff. okok..shall stop ranting. so point is..yep i'll rmb them but there's nothing abt them to miss. so there. applies to tutors too. seeing less of them nowadays. think they very sian of us alr oso. no response whatsoever to everything they do. sigh..think sometimes my class just cruelly disregards fellow human beings. oh well. nothing's gonna change in 2 months, let me assure you.

wow, so much for nothing. well, thks to htg, my 18yr-old days are very happy! and i dun think of unhappy stuff most of the time now. the outings helped alot. all the nonsense, yet all the concern and attention. from everyone to everyone. :) wow, and to think htg is just abt one yr old only! so young! but so strong. and so cuuuute! haha, but i digressed. but if it weren't for you all, i'd be missing a big part of my life! thks guys :)

Pebbles | 10:28 PM

hehe.. i can still blog.. and i'm so thankful for dat.. maybe we will only learn to appreciate de small and simple things after we lost it once.. juz like wat i'm feeling now.. for being able to blog again.. hehe..

anyway.. really had fun on last sat and tues.. kbox was fun.. we enjoyed ourselves.. and i had nice ice-cream... hmmm.. feel quite sorry for kenny bout him losing his wallet.. but den again.. tink he gained some impt lesson frm it too.. haha.. tues was not bad.. i did managed to do some work.. and i had nice gelare ice-cream... haha.. y do i bother writing all these here.. when u pple were there experiencing de fun i had too.. i bet u pple felt de same way as i did.. really grateful dat i found u pple as frens... =D

tml is officially de last day of sch for tj year twos(dat's excluding de farewell concert on monday)... if today was de farewell concert.. i might hav cried.. not sure if i wud on monday... used to tink dat i din really hav any feelings for my class pple or de sch... but today during chem lect.. when i saw my chem tutor.. de yi1 yi1 bu4 she3 feeling juz came over me.. i realised acty i will miss some of them... really grateful to some of my tutors.. without them.. i probably wud not hav found de motivation to work hard at certain subjects... tutors like mr ngoh, mrs noordin and mrs wee.. they are great tutors.. but sadly.. my class was not de best students.. hope they wud be conforted in knowing dat we really did put in efforts for this prelims... although our results din show much improvement.. i hav faith in my class.. tink we will do better.. if we cont striving..

haha.. suddenly all these feelings juz came over me.. i acty do feel dat i might miss some of my classmates too.. of cos there are some nasty pple in class... but i've found some frens worth keeping too.. i'm thankful to pple like eugene.. he really provided a lot of support for me.. esp during de pre-prelims period.. he's blur la.. dun tink he'll ever knoe y i'm grateful to him.. haha... dun get de wrong idea.. to me.. he's juz a great fren.. no special feelings.. and his heart with some gal too.. =p well.. some pple have hurt me in these 2 years.. some created wounds so deep.. i'm still trying to heal them... but den again.. without these pple.. i might not hav grown stronger.. i've lost my independence once.. but now.. i tink i've grown even more independent.. realised perception of pple do change.. used to hav quite a bad impression of joanna.. but now.. after i got to knoe her.. she's not dat bad afterall... another lesson learnt.. if we are willing to spend dat bit more time to share and let pple into our heart.. we might find out new things bout them.. impressions of pple will change.. but den again.. by opening up.. we are exposing ourselves to hurt.. guess dat's juz part of growing up..

hmmm.. quite abit of sentimental talk here.. wonder if i will still keep in contact with my class pple after de As.. 1 month more.. let's juz wait and see.. for now.. i'll go watch my idol! slyvester rocks! =)

shuqin | 7:50 PM

happy bdae kenny! hmm abt 90 mins left.. hehe. u 18 le wor. means im officially the youngest in htg. urgh. cant wait for my own bdae to come. but it can only come after A's. and i dowan A's to come!!!!!! sobz. but if As dun come bdae wun come. and after dat us gals can go work! financial independence! woo hoo cant wait to experience dat. yea well den guys will haf NS. hey u all aim for high ranks and big posts den confirm will earn more den us. sigh cant wait for life after jc. looking back on these 2 yrs, wad memories can i bring wif me to the next phase in life? sadly, nothing of substance. they made us watch a dvd made of the last 30 yrs in HC. hwachong was made to move out of the sch compound in 1986 cos got building defects. the sch really bonded over dat. and the hwachong spirit aint juz empty words, it was almost tangible back then. but now? sigh. prob all ill get from hc are getting As in a levels. (hopefully) oh well.

chan eng.charis | 10:36 PM

happy birthday kennyyyyyy!!! ;)

Pebbles | 10:44 PM

Artist: Rembrandts Lyrics
Song: I'll Be There For You

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even
your year, but

{Chorus}

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great
Your mama warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees, and

{Chorus}

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Since you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the best with
Someone who always laughs at
Even when I'm at my worst, I'm best with you
Yeah!

{Chorus}

I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me too

alaka | 1:17 AM

yooooooo peeps. oooh! i just discovered the hello service. the one that lets you post pictures just like that. haha, ok..not that i've solved my prob of not being able to transfer my pictures from phone to com. arr..early in the morning and i'm talking rubbish.

firstly, to everyone, thank you! yesterday was fun. but just one wet blanket towards the end. oh well, no one expected it. at least we were happy while it lasted. hmm..cheer up kenny! :)

and congrats sq! on being able to blog, agn! and yup we all sense ur ecstasy. :D :D and by the way, glad tt ya all like the earrings :)

so chunping didn't come yesterday. dun we all feel abit guilty? sigh, the feeling of isolation. does no one feel like going anywhere with us and us only nowadays? maybe we're too much, i dunno. and maybe chunping was just busy, period. but we all know that wasn't the first time already. i do feel kinda guilty. when will the class ever have a dinner agn? once a's are over..ppl will be going places and it's going to be hard..even harder as time passes. well..i guess ppl will be counting on us to organise stuff, rite? so we have a big responsibility. and of cos, i wonder too many times the real reason ppl cannot make it. maybe our effort in making any dinner or outing possible just isn't impt enough for some. k, let me make things clear..not referring to anyone in particular, esp htg. so yea..relax.

well..good luck for a's. and ns. and work. and varsity. :)

Pebbles | 11:57 AM

yeah! finally i can blog again! oh my! dun ask me wat i did to my com.. i am juz able to blog again! hooray! oh yeah! =D =D =D finally! u pple can see my name on htg blog again! not juz under de tagboard.. woahahaha! realise how happy and hyper i am.. my previous sentences all ends with exclamation marks.. and tis wud be no diff! hahaha...

we are going kbox today! we're going to sing.. hehe.. oh my.. why are we behaving as though de prelims are de last papers we hav to take before de gals get 7 months of break and de guys go NS for 2 years.. but again.. who cares.. it's for a good valid reason dat we are going kbox today.. hehe.. dun tink kenny will get to read tis b4 he meets us today.. so doesn't really matter right?! :p

tinking bout yest ah.. wahz.. was really quite sianz on my way to de place where i did all de funny things.. but u pple ah.. never fail to make me laugh and forget de unhappy things.. hehe.. great frens u pple are! anyway.. thanks yt! for de earrings.. but still not use to seeing myself with earrings.. after so long of not wearing.. but i'll wear it today.. dun worry.. :)

lalala... i had a good start today (except for de part where i woke up at 6..or is dat a good start too?).. tink it will be a happy day.. see ya pple later.. yeah! :D

shuqin | 8:34 AM

SweDiSh MeAtBaLLs RoX~ hehe.. umm i realised dats all i can say without arousing too much suspicion abt wad we sought to accomplish today? and the beautifully enacted scene of *ahem. and shuqin's jumping feat.. oh but she only jumped once, technically. squatted on e bed for most of e time.. nvm its all recorded in yt's fone. plus dat controversial and provocative scene. hahaha..yt i realised if u lose ur fone all e memories will be gone too! so u have much responsibilty in ur hands.. with great power comes great responsibilty.. yay we can be like friends next time and live next to each other! haha q already put e song on e blog. we've established dat yc is joey in friends. *shortcut to cafe! shortcut to cafe!* and q is ross. spouting weird theories all e time.. and umm kenny is chandler. the lame one.. sigh sadly the girls dun really fit huh? apart from yt wanting to be phoebe.. well anw, i wonder how close will we be to living next to one another? never, i tink. cos s'pore housing policy so screwed. stuff like only married couples can apply for hdb and only singles above 35 can apply, or sth liddat. so unless we go find private housing, the fantasy will nv be realised huh? nevertheless its still too early to say.. it'll be qt fun tho. ltg with their mental institution room with padded walls and no glassware so they can kick the ball ard and q can scream at the rest if they kick it outside the room. den stg will fight over toilet. haha okie okie shall shuddup now. seeya guys tml~

chan eng.charis | 9:45 PM

lalala...was blogging halfway yday den doze off le...hehe...prelim over le...now is promos...haha...none of my business 1...until i made a bet with my angel...if my prelim win her....she'll accept her "bro"...if her promos win me...i gotta find a gf.. (-_-)""" haha...i no is total rubbish....but the bet on treating lunch din seem to haf any effect at all...haha...e main thing is her bro already biao bai to her n stuff le...den she oso like....so abit dotz rite? well...dunno nian2 qing1 ren2 zai4 xiang3 shen2 me4.....there goes another chu1 lian4....haha...when's mine gonna come??? hmmm...this really is a rubbish entry...just feeling sian n dun wanna study yet...later go where eat ar??? long time not eaten smt really nice le....EH!!! why dun haf doraemon le...damn it...dun haf anything else to write le...next time den cont....

alaka | 10:16 AM