thk u thk u..yep..3rd oldest htg member turning 18..scary sia..the aging process.

in reply to sq's post..it is possible. cos if u really like someone, u'd want him to be happy. cos he happy, u happy. happiness is not the possession of it or the state of being happy..but rather the process of achieving it..like this quote appropriately puts it.."whatever else happiness may be, it is neither in having nor in being, but in becoming." taken from gp compre. haha.

1hr+ left.. :(

Pebbles | 10:32 PM

eh.. got a qn leh.. if u dun get jealous when u see de person u like with another person.. does it means u dun like de person enough? haha.. weird qn hor.. was juz pondering over it... realised veri diff to find de balance.. how much jealousy is justifed before it becomes over-possesive?? some things are not to share.. but isn't it veri selfish if u dun let de person go care for another person?

let's say A gal likes B guy.. den C gal is sad.. and B always succeed in cheering C up.. A shd encourage B to go right.. it's only right wat.. who wants to see their fren sad ah.. haha.. nvm if u dun get wat i'm toking bout la.. juz some of my tots..

sometimes i really think it is amazing.. at how some pple can be so big-hearted.. hehe.. direct translation.. not veri accurate.. but if u are as sotong as me... or on same frequency as me.. u will knoe wat i'm toking bout.. i mean so willing to let de person they like go care for another person... even if it means they themselves will get jealous and hurt when they see it.. how bout telling de person u like info bout de person they like.. is dat even more amazing.. haha.. i dunno.. i wonder if tis kinda behaviour means they dun like de person enough.. or juz it means they are too kind..

shuqin | 6:44 PM

Hey guys! *another rare entry from st 2, as a result of poning sch today* eh but i dun feel guilty abt dat, tink i wld accomplish much more at home. but anw, st 3's bday is tml!! hehe.. gal cheer up lar, its ur bday, nothing wld go wrong.. if u wait ard expecting sth bad to happen, believe me it will happen. somehow ur sub conscious will direct u towards dat.. so.. dun suffer as a result of ur imagination! yup.. its ur bday, gif urself a break from ur own mind (thots that are unpleasant and damaging, not a break from sanity, mind you) and juz try to enjoy urself, and our company! =) and realli hope u can spend more time wif us, but if u got oth commitments, we wld understand dat too.. juz as u guys haf been understanding abt me alw not being dere on sat nites... =p and yea, hope u realli realli wld haf fun tml k? last day being 17 today, being free of the responsibilty of turning 18 (M18 movies, being able to get driver's license, clubbing, drinking, gambling..).. so treasure it! *grinz*

chan eng.charis | 10:41 AM

haha... i realised 1 simple post can result in many replies wor.. haha.. kenny can qualify to be a philosopher le.. so many philosophies bout life.. hmmm.. Q.. dat was a veri nice passage.. veri true... so teach u not to anyhow say i love u.. not to anyhow say forever.. sth everyone shd learn.. cos tis are some of de things dat hurt if said without meaning them..

okie.. i tink i going crazy today.. dunno y also.. waiting for myself to get super hyper.. hehe.. i wondered leh.. how will pple react if i suddenly become uncontactable one day... as in off my hp.. and juz cut myself off frm de world.. really feel like trying sometimes.. when things get so complicated i dun wanna tink bout them..

okie... i'm glad i hav mood swings.. hehe... cos at least it show i am human.. today GP juz saw tis video clip.. den they were saying they found de gene responsible for making a person happy.. diff variation of de gene determines how optimistic a person wud be... hmmm... i tink i hav more of de optimistic genes.. if not den i hav lotsa nice pple as my frens..

shd teach myself to tink less.. den learn to avoid wat i dun wanna see.. so i wun get depressed by pple and things.. okie.. i'm sleepy.. but it is only 7.25pm! oh my.. kkz.. i go watch tv 1st... byez!

shuqin | 7:18 PM

haha....y our blog so serious 1 ar?? haha...e initial lame haven was wrong 1....hmmm....mayb it's just me trying not to grow up so quickly....as sq n ken said....think simple...dun think too much....relaxing....that's e word... :p

haha...bout mouth being foul n cruel or having all e wrong words coming outta ya mouth....haha...i no i'm one of e culprits...hehe....morning dun brush my teeth thoroughly la...so it still stinks thru e day...i can say i'll try to improve n change on that....but put it frankly...that's smt that makes me me....so i no that will stay with me for some time to come.....

i like e pt bout being concerned for some1 cos u care for a person....firstly...who'd be obliged to care for some1 else....unless some1 pays ya to do so....or threatens u with smt....it all does come naturally outta e heart....ur brain dun really work anymore during these pts of time...n u find urself doing all sorts of things...mayb even saying things that ya neva tot u would....got 1 pt in time i oso tot caring too much for other pple is really too much of a strain on ur own life n evrything.....but this kinda concern really not say u tell urself to stop n u will stop...ya....that's when it becums a big burden i guess....n it's all up to the individual when he/she feels it's time to reduce that concern for others.....totally no caring is impossible....reducing is hard....so ya...haha...this 1 i wun argue with st 1....CONFUSED!! but just to all htg pple....got problems we can all try to share....not evry problem has a solution..but sharing e problem divides e pain done unto urself...suo3 wei4 huan4 nan4 jian4 zhen1 qing2....haha..this is my idealistic world la....

haha...emotionally active at least means that u r still human...if eva a pt in time u find ur heart beat always beats at a constant rate n neva eva fastens or slows down...go c a psychatrist....haha....but dun think that applies to us...eh...i no i got say i think i matured abit la...haha...but dun hafta put it on blog rite...haha....sounds so bhb..
('o') but nowadays is i go n tell pple to take it easy n not e other way round..not bad le la...hehe....hu doesn't get depressed once in a while rite....

our life has only been 18 yrs long at most...n we already so much gan3 kai4 le...we've not seen anything yet....so if we take life so tough now.....next time we mite find ourselves needing to nong4 bia4(knock our heads in the wall) q often.....just to wake up our ideas....dun hafta worry bout abusing e blog rite?? haha...cos i think i abuse it even more lo...so much cock on it like post for myself to read 1...hehe....lastly....bout ltg's recent giggling amongst ourselves n all that...haha....rite now we haf action from
of cos tim n ken....as for mi leh...haha....as sq said...believe me....my b'day wish i decided le...haha....haf fun for e coming yr n get 4As....HERE I COME ECONS!!!

a short passage which i've always q liked.....

Never say I love you
If you really don't care
Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you're going to break my heart
Never say you're going to
If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie
Never say hello
If you really mean goobye
Never say forever
If you aren't going to try
Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry...........

alaka | 11:11 PM

hmmm... feeling kinda sad now leh.. dunno why also.. u pple know wat.. de posts juz proves my point.. they are de best evidence of our growing process.. eh.. simplicity has always been nice la.. complex juz gives me headaches.. but we are sort of unfortunate.. cos somehow pple juz choose to be complex.. trying to cover up de real them.. cos they fear getting hurt.. i tink we all fear that.. but maybe getting hurt is also part of de process of growing up? dat's y if given a choice.. i wanna be a child forever.. l like being protected.. de carefree and simple mindset.. one dat has not yet been polluted...

i wonder leh.. how can pple be so cruel... okie.. maybe sometimes it is unintentional.. but we shd all learn to tink b4 we speak... no matter whether we mean it or not.. cos some words do hurt.. maybe shou1 zhe3 wu2 xin1.. ting1 zhe3 you3 yi4..but once said.. somethings juz cannot be taken back.. damage once done.. will show lines of cracks even after mend.. it wun be de same again..

i hav always tot no one is obliged to cheer others up.. someone tried changing dat mindset of mine yest.. de person said.. when u care for a person.. de concern comes naturally.. and dat's when u will do all u can to cheer de person up when he/she is sad.. bcos u care.. so it is no longer an obligation or burden.. it comes naturally.. sometimes wonder if we shd juz care less.. i mean not everyone will be willing to accept wat u are willing to give.. wat happens when ur care gets rejected? u juz get dejected.. so many examples ard me recently.. dunno wat to tell those pple also.. tell them to give up hope? or encourage them to cont cos it gives them hope? i'm confused..

pple been asking me bout opinions bout them... dat's probably one of de reasons dat set me thinking bout how u pple hav matured.. done so much assessment bout others.. started to assess myself... wondered to myself if i am one dat is easily emotionally provoked.. i guess so ba.. i get gan3 dong4 easily i tink.. juz a few nice words when i'm down and i probably can be moved to tears.. and when i am feeling happy.. all it needs to make me sad.. can be sth as simple as seeing others sad.. hav no idea if this is good or bad.. watever.. haha.. sometimes wonder if i am born optimistic.. or am i a fake optimist?

okz.. tis is another chunk of wat's going thru my brain.. hehe.. may not make much sense.. sometimes tink i am abusing tis blog.. hehe.. sorry pple! i shall go do my newspaper article now.. byez!

shuqin | 2:48 PM

firstly..in reply to sq's post. hmm..thks..didn't know i'm xiao sa and strong..really. i guess when u've survived the biggest blow in ur life(til now), u find that alotof nitty gritty stuff that once made u worried, are just no big deal. just..dun treat life so seriously. whatever attitude u take, life goes on. why choose to get strangled by worthless events around u. :/

woah..kenny..long essay on the summary of the meaning of life sia. but then..i agree with ya! i've long decided that well..everything's tangled up and useless to comprehend..maybe we ought to return to our original form and learn civilisation all over again. makes one wonder isn't it? ppl become bad cos of other ppl..so who's the first bad person then? like a baby is so simple, so innocent..but under the influence of ppl ard him, he becomes just another adult..not retaining any childlike attributes he once had. k..one book which would really reflect my feelings abt this would be the little prince. the most meaningful lessons one can ever learn is from children..

to be continued..

Pebbles | 9:30 AM

hmmm... was tinking whether to wish JK happy birthday... but i see no meaning.. since it will be belated.. and i did wish him yest.. haha... but still... ''HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!" hmmm... was tinking today.. we hav all grown up.. matured in thinking le.. although behaviour can still be quite childish at times.. but tinking wise.. we hav really grown...

chaneng has found her wat she really want in her life.. more focused le.. really glad for her.. although it may mean less time for us.. hmmm.. muz say i feel rather guilty after reading her blog... i'm sorry gal.. will tink b4 i tok in future.. she found her goal and we shd be happy for her.. yt leh.. although she dun really share.. but i tink de many events in tis past 1 yr hav really made her more matured ba.. maybe she hav always been so xiao1 sa3... but it was really tis yr dat i realised maybe she is de strongest among de 3 stg members.. in my memory.. haven seen her breakdown b4.. but juz wanna tell u.. it's okie to let ur emotions take control and cry when u really feels like it.. we may not knoe how to handle it.. but if it makes u feel better.. juz do it.. hehe.. maybe i am juz tinking too much...

eh... LTG leh.. somehow also see u all mature.. YC.. may still look as carefree.. but i'm sure he has learn more bout how to care and show concern for others.. how to be more tolerant... and since he needs to be there for her.. to be stronger too.. JK.. he himself say he matured le.. but i tink somehow he toned down alot le.. not as crazy.. not sure if it is good.. but as long as u dun get too stressed.. dun get depressed easily.. i tink there's no harm in getting more serious.. eh.. ur relationship ah.. i also dunno wat to say.. so ambiguous.. but i tink we shd learn to believe u..

timothy.. acty i tink he is happier now.. less serious.. which is good.. he has always been focused.. den care and concern.. i tink he learnt it long ago.. wat he has learnt is probably determination ba.. jia you wor... all de way! kenny ah.. know of times when he been depressed.. due to stress ba.. but it was last yr things.. tis yr leh.. still got his own prob.. but i guess not as serious.. same as timothy.. jia you ba!

bout myself.. in tis past 1+ yr.. i been thru wat i wud say is more den wat i ever been thru in my 18 yrs of life.. de ups and downs.. as of now.. i tink if one of de highest peak ba.. past my lowest point earlier tis yr.. but haiz.. i still feel quite helpless at time.. especially when i see my frens down.. yet there's nth i can do.. i dun ask for much.. juz for all my frens to be happy.. but i guess dat's rather diff..

a lot of things in life is about choices.. once made.. let's hope we never hav to regret..

shuqin | 8:15 PM

half an hour left..treasure it wor! officially 18 liaoz..maybe can start thinking of the things u wanna do, out of those that u can. drive? drink? passion of the christ? heh.

hApPy BiRtHdAy KiU~~

Pebbles | 11:30 PM

HaPpy BdAy Q!! 2nd time im saying dat today.. hopefully to lessen e guilt im feeling rite now. sigh.. well, hope u guys enjoy urselves today and dun forget to update me on everything yea? =)

chan eng.charis | 4:04 PM

yikes....i'm awake....got woken up by my phone.....n this has stirred up a tot in me.....y is it that at diff times....sounds has a different effect on pple...cos it's like my phone kept ringing regularly from 11.50 till 1.30...but i only got woken up by it at 1.30....hmmmm....mayb my brain not working that well now....dunno wat crap i'm toking...or mayb it's just typical my kinda tok.....ce can uds wat i saying?? haha....suddenly miss ya guys.....wahaha...mayb it's cos yday got recalled back by my mum when i hadn't even warmed my seat at bugis......wat if next time i wake up in the middle of e nite during ns think of ya guys??? haha....wat a farnie tot....think e heat turning me nuts le...where got pple 1.30am sweat so much 1....on aircon go study le...3am man utd match.....betta dun lose xia....

alaka | 1:49 AM

hmmm... okie.. not dat de topic was not interesting or we din give it a tot.. tink it was more of i forgot to reply to it.. cos tot JK reply le den no need for me to.. eh.. i wud tink man ba..

tougher in de sense of more diff right.. yah.. i mean although gals hav to go thru labour which is one of de major reason to support y women are tougher to be.. but i tink guys more ke lian.. they hav to be tough.. and it is not easy.. they hav to meet standards set for them by de society.. such as not being able to cry in public.. cos it will make them look like weaklings.. normally they dun share when they meet with setbacks.. cos they are percieved to be able to handle probs on their own.. the need to support a family.. whereas a gal can always look for a rich guy to marry off if she wants a good life but is unable to support herself on such a lifestyle.. guys also bear the responsibilty to protect their country.. singaporean guys worse.. got NS.. yupz.. acty i tink got other reasons.. juz dat i can't tink of them now.. okie... not dat i am saying it is easy to be a woman.. i tink i shd justify in next entry... cos now brain shutting down.. wat i write may thus not make sense..

hmmm... came online bcos i had tis tot today.. "we do hav a choice as to wat kinda life we want to lead.. it really depends alot on our attitude towards life.. if we choose to face it with a smile.. high possibility it will reflect back positively at us... de same if we choose to frown.. it will juz invite retaliation frm others.." tink this few weeks has been quite good for me.. i'm grateful for them.. hope it last... even if it doesn't.. i'm glad i enjoyed tis part of my JC life.. =) as to whether i want to drop subject.. i still considering.. but high possibilty i will hold on.. yupz.. guess it is my mentality dat does not allow me to drop..

shuqin | 12:19 AM

nkf show was great..if u dun have a complicated mind..unlike some ppl..must challenge everything they do. "-6868 line engaged is fake one..telecom can have 100 lines if they want..they jus want ppl to call -6855", "keep emphasizing -6855 is so misleading, so wrong of them to do tt", "why dun d vip themselves donate? goh chok tong gets $1m a month" i mean..of cos any of these comments can be true..but so what? can u ever find out? can u stop them? and in case anyone hasn't experienced it before, having to hear such opposing views thruout d show is qt irritating. why can't ppl just watch a charity show innocently? adults shd really read the little prince..to understand what are the real matters of consequence.

k enough of letting out steam. hmm..seems like my qn was left hanging in d air. but nvm..i think u all never really thot abt it before so dun have alotof things to say. yep..so i'll just close the case here. just wanted to know how u all feel abt it.

abt dropping subs..seriously i think it'd be good..i mean isn't tt wad d principal has been trying to say ever since last yr. like how many ppl can be really sure of getting 4 dist at dis point of time. sq if u really want biz admin, ur chem won't really matter rite. or phys, for that matter. or u could like..think of other alternatives..like engineering? d 4-choose-3-best-subs ppl are either (1)confirmed 4- or 3-dist material or (2)those who are unsure of their goal. yup..if u wanna drop..muz faster drop liaoz..time is running out..

yay glad tt kiu appreciated our efforts..muz put appreciation into action k?? next time muz wear let us see! haha..

Pebbles | 11:00 PM

hmmm... long time since i last came to blog... JK say blog fever dying le.. i hope it is not true.. but am trying my best to do my duty to tis blog.. but sorry ah.. sumtimes really caught up with work.. if not den too tired.. so never really get the chance to blog.. hmm.. acty shd be can tell.. when i blog.. is always after 11.. cos dat is when i am free.. and if i am still awake and energetic.. i try to blog le..

kkz.. today was a test of my physical & mental.. slept 4+ hrs since last night.. and lasted till now.. quite amazing.. had a busy day.. but it was a fulfilling 1.. de best had to be getting JK pres.. but aiya.. how could i hav forgotten dat he once said he wanted bright colour clothes.. sorry ah.. next time ba.. hope u really mean it when u say u appreciate de pres.. hope u really put them to use too.. anyway.. sorry ah.. dun mean to argue with u 1.. juz dunno y.. habit le la.. like picking on u lor.. sumtimes after dat feel quite guilty also.. sorry ah..

hmmm.. haha.. maybe i am not fated to watch soccer match at JK's hse.. next time i wun go le... hehe.. maybe ask me along when it is some big sucky teams dat are playing and u want them to lose.. eh.. had a lot of fun and laughter when JK opened de pres.. laughed till limit.. silent laughter le.. haha.. if only yt and chaneng was there too.. found out quite abit of things too.. can call tis achievement day le...

now.. only qn in my head.. shd i drop any subjects? haiz...

shuqin | 12:06 AM

haha....can't believe right after you all left i got into a small bad mood....cos my bro hog e com till i almost threw my dumbbells at him....haha...but i finally win after some shouting....haha.....

yepzz....first and foremost of cos must thank all members of htg for remembering my b'day and getting a present this yr....haha.....appreciate it alot....haha....cos last yr ar...haha...i was teeny wee bit sad...haha...cos i totally din get any pres......haha....den i kept thinking....wo3 de4 ren2 ji4 guan1 xi1 zhen1 de4 zhe4 yang4 cha1 mah? haha....ya....as for e spike hair leh....haha....ltg 1 day grab me to cut hair or smt la....haha....i too lazy to go myself to do such stuff...i'll just say....jian2 duan3....haha....pple keep friday free k...haha...i dun wanna spend it gu1 ling1 ling1 yi4 ge4 ren2....some more is sports day xia....haha....kidding la....i no tim gotta spend more time with doraemon....

today leh...haha....very uneventful...not much seriously...hehe.....dunno y today st 1 mouth like v yang3...i din even niao her much today den i kena attack so much..haha....st 3 left home early...haha...in fear of being grounded....haha...my house was hot....now is like....wah....**sweats profusely** haha...discovered my tv ba1 zi4 n htg's ba1 zi4 bu4 he2....cannot watch soccer in my house 1...haha....den of cos was e "opening ceremony"....haha....toe socks....ankle socks....socks that i've not shown my mum yet in fear she thinks i've got screws loose all of a sudden...esp e toe socks...trying to spike my hair....haha...which was a total failure...haha...my hair oso v traditional 1 la...it dun wanna try something modern 1...hehe...

end of blog for me....time to go rest....watch some tv mayb.....today din do anw work...haha....die...got maths test leh....

alaka | 10:48 PM

oops..i meant whose role is harder to fulfil, a man's or a woman's. erm..cos last time watch fei chang nan nu..den they asked "nan2 ren2 nan2 wei2 hai2 shi4 nv3 ren2 nan2 wei2"..den d ppl are supposed to give their reasons to support their stand. for me i think a guy's life is more difficult ba..cos generally guys have higher social standards set for them. acty no time now next time den elaborate. wah kiu's essay so pro sia! haha..k lar gif u distinction..

Pebbles | 10:16 PM

wah....din get to reply yt's post....anw...i would say is guy ba4....i mean physically...on a general level u can say it is guys rite?? haha....thou there are some totally extraordinary gals who are like super fit...n pple like me hu is starting to find trouble with tight pants **unbuckles pants b4 e buckle breaks**

emotionally leh...i myself find that it is prob guys la...to quote e most common area amongst young pple now...relationships...guys are able to take stir ups in the relationship betta....if e relationship dun work out....e guy can prob take e break up much betta....haha...mayb cos i've heard of too many gals hu like wanna commit suicide after each relationship problem....yep..

but treating it as a gp qn...must provide counter arguments!!!... thus my pt would be that the threshold of pain for women is 3(or cannot rmb wat) times higher den men's....so women are able to tahan pain betta.....and emotionally it is cos women express themselves when they r feeling not too gd...giving e impression they are not so strong...but being able to express themselves freely...they may recover faster n actually face up to the realities betta den keeping to themselves n nei4 shang1-ing...

CONCLUSION!!! as we proceed into the new millenium...guys nowadays alot getting more nua3(soft...weak...gu1 niang1) as can be seen from the poor fitness of many guys(uh-hum)....den gals r taking more active roles in the positions and areas which require greater strength both mentally n physically...eg in the military n senior positions in corporations which require high ability to handle stress n pressure....thus...i would say that the qn of which gender being tougher will no longer be applicable in the near future....

TA-DA...hmm...q satisfied with essay....members of e panell....pls judge my essay....dun hesitate to give distinction.... :p n as i'm supposed to be nan ren zhong de nv ren rite?? so i'm e toughest of them all.....WAHAHAHA...... ***wat eva*** **LaMeZ**

alaka | 8:18 PM

haha..jus to make this short..got a burning qn for u all..

who is tougher, a man or a woman? justify.

haha it's not some gp qn but it could be! anywayz jus wanna know wad u all think.

Pebbles | 8:14 PM

vj won again...but i was kinda bored by e match...but just c e stats..5 goals scored so far...andy scored 2...assist 3....kinda like henry...haizzz....nvm la...qualify le can liaozz...haha....caas scholarship each yr only give out 3-5....cool xia...okie....reply bout e content of our current discussion.....

NS...sianzz...haha....mayb it is more interesting den schooling...haha...that's y got so much things to talk bout when e Nsmen come out...but oso will be q tough...haha...i oso dunno...just no my fitness now like shit...haha.....if dun buck up sure die le....and from wat i no ar....i think got reception...oso got socket...but e pt is...haha..can only use at nite..and u wun get to use much oso....haha...if inspection time ur hp ring ar....U R DEAD....

haha...pessimist ar...got..me lo....hehe...but i improve liao leh...last time is one piece of paper fall from sky i will think is sky is collapsing le...oh NO!!! just drove my chair ard knock down my fan....

tonite gonna listen to yin yue ri ji man...this whole wk not a day i sleep after 11....mostly by 10 K.O. le....hmmm....explains y today neva doze off in lect...oh ya....next fri sucks!!! sports day!!! $#^@$^%....dun think can come sch le...should haf security guard once e sports day starts....madness....evry1 in e sch must take part in smt....hmmm...just came up with smt today...chemistry means chem-is-try....so when ya cannot do any qn...just keep trying..... :p this goes out to all except tim......

alaka | 7:40 PM

heyz pple! i'm back! haha... 1stly.. thanks! for wat leh.. for answering to my lame qn bout whether guys are allowed to bring hp to NS.. haha.. u pple made me realised dat there really might not be any power socket there.. and worse still no reception.. haha.. but still wondering leh.. let's say got reception.. how will de battery last for so long ah?! no need say 3 mths.. maybe 1 week can la.. since they will be using so little of it...

hmmm.. both yt and kenny tinks dat de blog says alot bout us... good i wud say.. it shows we dun hide feelings.. show wat we tink.. no hypocrites in HTG..kenny said in every grp... there shd be optimists and pessimists.. frm wat i see leh.. we are all optimists leh.. den ocassionally turn into pessimists.. tis is good wor.. there will always be someone there for others to depend on.. tong2 gan1 gong4 ku3.. oh yeah.. we're simply too great!

for once.. in dunno how many days.. i finally listened to yin yue ri ji and paid attention to it.. i like de shou shou er yi! de stories during shou shou er yi seems nicer at times leh.. today 1 was super sweet! it juz proves de point dat a hug speaks a thousand words.. but haiz... it is juz so diff for us to put down our face( translate into chi kz).. to express our care and concern for another person by giving them a hug.. as of now... hey all HTG pple look out! *Hug Attack*!!!! hehe.. juz wanted to show how much i treasure u pple.. yupz.. thanks for being u!

shuqin | 11:31 PM

kz. i'm here to say wad ce didn't say. heh. we oso said tt this blog got v high efficiency. like we'll generate so many posts in just a short time. yup so to prove this point, i'm here! haha.

haha..whether stg will drift apart..well it's hard to tell lar. cos..if we can't meet as reg as before..why not? erm..just showing another side of it..none of this rep my ge4 ren2 li4 chang3[heyhey..me using chinese again..]..yup cos it's natural tt ppl drift apart after long periods of u know..not meeting. it's not like couples u know.."absence makes the heart fonder" or sth lidat..quoted from somewhere within this blog..hint hint. haha k lar of cos i hope when we grad from jc..go uni..will stil find time to get together once in a while..laugh for hours..talk abt stuff..lunch together..create bloopers along d way and laff our heads off..again..and again..yar..just thinking abt it feels so nice aredi rite? hee.

acty..i dun think we need to worry so much lar. cos it's not like they go army will fan1 lian3 bu ren4 ren2..htg will stil be in their hearts wad..rite? we'll stil be able to meet up once in a while..jus tt we gotta better cherish whatever little time we have together! hmm..ya lor..abt them getting attached..den i got nothing to say lar. haha but it won't be totally a gone case either. cos..erm..tho it's not v persuasive..jus look at yc! he does make time for us rite? hehe.

dun u think this blog says alot abt us? like a visitor will know alot abt wads gg on in htg lor..haha k nvm. listening to yin yue ri ji now. qt a depressing story. haiz.

Pebbles | 11:14 PM

Haha. sq tok abt NS as if its on another planet.. "Got power socket meh??" hehe.. i tink maybe its BMT cannot use ba.. in tekong.... no reception shld be e prob instead.. noe dat M1 provides 100% coverage on the main island, but it nv cover offshore islands wad.. hmm, tink they already wld haf a lot of things to occupy their minds.. no nid hps le.. until they come back to civilisation after 3 mths, dat is.. okie, i shld quit niaoing them lar.. i mean, this is a REAL nitemare.. hehe.. like i nv see the chi high guys in my class so pia for napfa b4.. but they are realli #$@!#@$ cmi when it comes to physical stuff.. well, guess it acty forces guys to go to all sorts of lenths to aviod 2 more mths in BMT..

hmm regarding the future of htg (we're toking abt dis again, no surprise dere), i dun dare to speculate leh.. i mean, we cannot be too sure abt e future i guess.. i do agree wif sq dat stg will not drift apart... it does feel like we're not e sort to get attached in e near future.. and we do haf more time to hang out n stuff, after As.. for guys it'll be diff lar.. NS takes up so much time.. and it may somehow accelerate the process of finding a mate cos NS wld prob make them feel lonely or sth.. haha, okie dat was a sweeping statement, sorry..

hehe, suddenly rem yest yt and i were discussing dat all of us haf diff writing styles.. like, sq types like she toks.. can imagine her speaking when u read her entries.. q's entries forever punctuated wif millions of dots.. most of the time his entry starts wif "heizzzz................" and proceeds to switch topic abt a million times.. ok, im forever the one who doesnt get wads he's trying to say one lar.. and kenny wld alw haf uplifting, positive statements one.. will def haf sth to e tune of "long live htg!!!" or sth liddat... haha, for me, i dunno.. maybe i juz sound sarca.. and yt will haf a lot of chi terms, dis one i notice cos i dun bother trying to decipher them.. hhehe.. oops... okie crap entry...

chan eng.charis | 7:09 PM

hey peeps.. hmmm.. regarding de NKF show.. i only started watching after Sun's performance was over.. hmmm.. okie.. maybe de performance is cool.. but i tink there is no need to torture herself over a charity event.. i'm quite sure it is real.. i mean her back was bleeding lor.. eh.. somehow i juz dun understand y we muz go so far to raise funds.. maybe it is more effective.. but haiz.. watever la..

hmmm.. i'm rather sure Q was not in de best of mood when he typed dat entry.. haha.. toking bout NS.. was juz discussing with my fren dat day.. got a qn to ask.. can u guys bring hp to NS? bring le can use? den if bring means need to bring charger too lor.. got power socket meh?!?! seriously i tink our frenship can last.. true.. future is unpredictable.. but i doubt big changes will take place.. hmmm.. Q is tinking abit far ah.. i mean other den timothy.. doesn't seem like anyone else is getting attached in near future leh.. 5 mths.. seems like a long time.. but i tink it will pass sooner den we expect.. drift apart ah.. maybe.. but i'm rather sure STG will remain veri much intact.. eh.. sotongs.. u all agree? i mean we will still get to see each other.. unlike meeting up with de guys la.. which is impossible during BMT.. den during weekend.. true.. they probably go home sleep.. but i tink we can at least meet up for meals b4 they go home sleep right?

recently heard alot of discussion bout BGR.. hmmm.. juz heard a debate in class today bout whether dating shd be encouraged at an early age.. my conclusion.. why not... provided both parties are matured enough to face any problems that come their way.. everything has its pros and cons.. relationship is no exception.. it all boils down to individuals.. so yupz.. April is a busy mth.. for me is really 1 b'day celebration every week lor.. going broke...

shuqin | 12:25 AM

wah sun's stunt has lifted some prejudice off me. maybe i shd be neutral towards her now.

hmm..i think u mean bing bian..but in d frenship sense. sure can last one lar..but is how close only. i mean frenships will fade but they won't end..unless, of cos, u end it urself lar. hmm..regarding d getting attached part..it wun affect me lar. cos i wanna remain single..crazy thot i know. but ya..i'm serious..i'd choose to remain single for as long as i can. cos..sometimes..gives u more trouble than happiness in ur life. and even this is assuming i can get attached. if u know wad i mean. hmm..yup. so i guess..d reason for drifting apart is d disparity between single and attached ppl ba. but this is zai suo nan mian so ya..we'll jus take it as it goes. it's d natural course of things..qiang qiu shi mei you yong de. k so let's all listen to kiu's advice and..make d most of d 5 mths..

tdy was online, sleep, online, tv, online. an obviously unproductive day. wake up!!

Pebbles | 11:44 PM

wahaha...be it a false alarm or anything.....at least it goes to show that htg all nice ppl....haha...finally done with e ns check up thing....pengz man...troublesome shit..wah...nkf this yr ar....oso as mad as any yr....reach target liaozz still extend e show...n wah....for once i think sun is cool.....darts in her back!!! my friend say looks fake....but....haha...i shall choose to think is real....so it's damn cool....haha...

n realised smt...haha...can l or s or htg last beyond our ns? haha...a rather far tot...a rather -ve tot too....but seems like a more logical ans...n that is no...haha....cos pple will get attached...mayb work...guys serve ns....weekend either kena kept back or go home sleep...hehe....so it means wat....mayb got 5 more mths left? excluding prelims n As la...so even thou tests n hw r impt....should learn to try harder to make e most of e 5 mths..for ltg la....haha....wait....do i make sense?? hehe....today in un-normal jeremy q mode....incurred by sudden tots yday nite...haha....off i go to c song1 long2 zi3..... **ulcer on tonuge....ouch....**

alaka | 10:12 PM

hmm.. acty also not veri sure if u were toking bout us.. juz felt dat it could hav been.. okie.. it's sunday.. easter day.. hope everyone is having a good day.. preferably after a good sleep.. they say sleep helps.. it does for me.. u pple leh?

shuqin | 1:37 PM

are u talking abt me? dun worry i'm ok. jus not having a good day. yup dun blame urself over anything. k. i'm fine.

Pebbles | 2:14 AM

hmmm... okie.. feeling super super guilty now.. did observed something was not quite right.. but din expect it to be so serious.. kenny juz proven de point even further.. haiz.. we shd hav been more considerate.. st 2.. i'm sorry.. tink we all are.. even though u said nothing.. but ur nick and blog entry says it all.. tink we went abit over at times.. will try our best to choose common topic next time.. it does make a diff.. things wud be diff without u ard today.. u r not non-existence.. it was more of negligence on our part.. tink it's juz dat i hav known LTG members for a longer time den u.. dat's y i was able to understand wat they were toking bout.. sorry dat sometimes i dun share things with u or tell u wat i knoe.. cos afterall it is not my own story.. doesn't feel quite right to tell u.. juz feel dat i need to seek their consent bout those more private issues.. promise to be more open.. tink all htg members shd be.. not here of cos.. but at least share more when we meet next time..

hmmm.. probably 1st major internal prob that HTG face.. acty.. dun tink it juz surfaced.. been ard for quite awhile.. tink u felt tis way for quite some time le.. i understand de feeling.. it dun feel good.. de feeling of not being acknowledged.. so next time got any unhappiness juz voice it out kz.. like we said.. it is unlikely dat we will fan1 lian3.. so comments and complains will only further strengthen our frenship.. yupz.

shuqin | 1:02 AM

heyz.. today went for dinner with yt and 3/4 LTG.. yc went for vj's musicfest... hmmm.. went shopping at suntec for timothy's pres.. had an idea of wat we wanna get.. a bright orange tee.. hehe.. and we got 1.. with a cool design.. frm OP.. not bad wor... gotta say LTG really knoe each other well.. cos they even knoe wat size he wears.. yupz.. hehe.. wear it on next outing kz.. onz la..

anyway.. LTG was trying to be lame during dinner juz now.. heyz.. i not dat dumb la.. knoe wat u pple were getting at.. timothy.. dun be spastic.. y not debbie? u knoe wat i toking bout.. so dun act blur.. kenny ah.. u even join him to niao.. aiyo.. hmmm.. diff pple hav diff priorities mah.. haha.. i knoe wat u all toking bout le.. so its no longer a secret.. u can say it out loud next time.. i dun really care la.. come on.. we are so close as a grp.. nothing really matters.. at most juz kena a few whacks frm me... =p

hmmm... really amazed by de power of love.. makes a person willing to sacrifice so much.. tink someone busy making egg now.. probably wun be sleeping tonight le.. hmmm... jia you wor.. good leh.. to see timothy so open bout it.. ans all qns we ask.. tok bout her so openly.. tink tis is de way things shd be lor.. as in within HTG.. not juz within LTG.. hmm.. toking bout it.. feels quite bad.. STG is still not as open with things as LTG is.. maybe we shd really hav a sleepover 1 of these days.. den share all secrets like they do.. will we ever be as open as them? let's try kz.. =)

easy to say.. diff to do.. most of the time de nicer a person is to us.. de more we take them for granted.. isn't dat de case with how we treat our parents.. sometimes tink of it ah.. i feel veri guilty.. but haiz.. things done cannot be undone.. juz hope my attitude will change.. moreover it is so diff to open our mouths to tell them how much we love and appreciate wat they hav done for us.. at least dat's de case for me.. hmmm.. tink i shd juz try to be more guai1..

yupz.. tml is easter day.. not really much meaning for me.. but i knoe it holds great meaning for timothy and chaneng.. anyway.. to everyone.. happy easter! =)

shuqin | 11:04 PM

heyheyz.. u pple are super efficient leh..2 posts within an afternoon.. within 3 hrs i shd say.. all LTG members are at timothy's hse now... supposed to be his b'day bbq.. haha.. but where got pple bbq so early end ah?! now not even 11 lor.. hmmm.. wat st 2 said is true.. pple are unpredictable.. den sometimes they say is for ur own good.. but whether they really mean it or is it they wanna gain something frm it.. we also wun be able to tell.. juz dun believe pple totally.. wonder if de most trustworthy person is really ourselves.. anw dun understand de 2nd paragraph of yt's entry.. wat 9 yr frenship? i count here count there also dun understand.. hehe..

anyway i tink tis phrase i heard frm "big women small women" is veri true.. "it is those things that are not within our reach that we will find more precious.. treasure more and miss more dearly... " so kenny.. wat u said is true.. we shd learn to let go at appropriate time.. but dat's not a excuse for us to give up easily whenever we meet with difficulties.. haha.. remind me of wat timothy juz said.. de bad thing bout hols... cos cannot go sch.. den cannot see u-knoe-whu.. hehe...

we are all in hyped mood i tink.. having a mad htg chat now.. too bad chaneng not here.. if not den will hav full HTG attendance online.. rare leh! if ever post de chat here ah.. pple reading it probably wun get wat we are toking bout
cos there is so no link between de diff coversations.. hehe... tink i shd concentrate on de chat.. so tis shall be it for now.. byez! =)

shuqin | 10:18 PM

wow..this is like..how amazing..came here n saw so many entries..hmm..not bad not bad. haha last nite kinda no time to finish typing wad i wanna say. so here goes..

to st2: hmm dun gek abt this kinda ppl. ppl are selfish one..like some ppl will always do or say things in d name of doing it for ur good..but acty if u think further..it is for their own selfish reasons as well..this i witnessed it happen before..so jus let it go lar. u can't stop or change how they think rite. haiz my class is really a whole spectrum of ppl..like everyone is so different..so ar..sometimes alotof things is si kong jian guan aredi..can't really tell if they got kind intentions for u or not lor. ya so u did d right thing..dun care abt wad ppl say abt ur actions..jus do wad ur mind or heart tells u.

to kenny: woohoo great tt u did overcome all d difficulties in d end. hmm so muz treasure d time u have with everyone lor..not jus family cos everyone always tells everyone else tt they shd not take things for granted..but exactly how many ppl out of everyone acty do tt? k at least ling zhi always says cannot take things for granted. like u can't jus say a 9-yr frenship will never burn out jus like tt..cos if both ppl jus go abt their own lives n not taking some time to ask abt d other, why wldn't it fade? so ar..hehe..muz zhen1 xi1 yan3 qian2 ren2..htg is always here! *hint hint* haha..

k lar..good friday to everyone!! and i've completed my puzzle whee!!

Pebbles | 4:35 PM

wahaha.. juz read 4 entries at 1 go.. took me rather long.. 15 mins.. hehe.. can imagine de speed of reading.. hmmm... 1stly.. although wished le.. tink shd still say again.. happy belated b'day timothy! saw u walking ard with a big plastic bag yest.. pres frm who ah.. hehe.. hmm.. reading thru de longest entry by kenny.. tink he really did undergo sth terrible during his early teenage yrs.. but i feel glad for him.. he has managed to overcome watever de probs were.. and walked out as a stronger person.. applause!!

wahz.. it really tempt me to drop sub la.. pple ard me are dropping subs.. although there are also those trying their best to hold on to 4 subs.. guess it really requires a lot of self-discipline and determination to hold on to 4 subs.. nope.. kenny din tell us u dropped phys.. or maybe he did but i juz dun remember.. registered for As le.. so i guess it is a bit late to wanna drop also.. since i tink if i drop i still need to pay for de papers of de sub i dropped right.. hmmm.. shall jian1 chi2 dao4 di3.. i tink u pple veri brave.. to acty be so sure of wat u all want.. to pluck up de courage to do wat u want.. it means i shd jia you le.. since i made de decision.. i shd do my best to ensure i dun regret it when i recieve de results..

hmmm.. realised it wud be quite hard to hav full HTG meeting again.. unless during de hols.. cos now normally is meet on sat.. if not den is meet after sch.. meet on sat wun hav chaneng.. meet after sch most prob dun hav yc.. wonder if he even reads the blog.. eh.. if u saw tis.. pls tag to indicate ur presence.. yeah?

yup.. feel rather at peace now.. haha.. not in hyper mood.. not in low spirits.. quite rare.. maybe cos it is Good Friday.. haha.. kkz.. i go see wat else i can do.. byez.. take care peeps! =)

shuqin | 10:23 AM

hmmm...no 1 online...just type some crap....sorry e 2 st i din go to find u all...n esp to st 1 for wasting so many sms...hehe...NICE SONG ON 933 NOW...SI1 NIANG2...long time no heard le...anw....din go s paper today...took a super long internal struggle b4 i decided not to go...haha....u all give e pres so fast??!!! i was thinking u all go another day or smt....haha....i din get to c e pres....wasted....u all make it sound so fun...hmm...2 ppl in stg got 3 subs le....but dun really matter...being happy most impt.... ;) long time in a while since i went town n not many pple....n i finally realised how farnie it can get when women buy clothes....WAHAHAHAHA....think bout it now i wanna laugh....if not scared of shopkeeper stare at me i sure laugh there le....n i realised my taste in zar bor clothes not bad...haha.....at least i think...n my vj class e bo liao guy gang did it again as they tried hunting me down in town.....dotzzz...that's about all...haha...this is htg blog not my personal blog....this kinda narrative totally no link with e philosophical theme of this blog...haha.....NIty NitEz to htg.... (-_-)zZz

alaka | 12:18 AM

hehe..got 1 achievement tdy wor..went suntec and got ching's prez! not only tt, we went over to her place and gave it to her! woohoo. cos d poor girl is down with flu. ya so nv go sch. anw, she was so surprised and happy when she saw d badge maker. guess it's wad she's always wanted. haha. yay. anything to make u happy, girl. ;)

d badge maker was like..how fun. and cute. now i've my very own stg badge..haha..it's really cool. and we even thot of a business associated with it. haha..theory of production and cost sia.

hmm..jus watched some liu xing hua yuan..and it sucks. oh man..totally a bimbotic show..so i wasn't wrong when i said it can't make it before i even watched it.

back to my 1000pc puzzle..tatas!

Pebbles | 11:05 PM

Hey guys!!!!!!! i'm finally online after sooooooo long... think its one week.. well dat seems like an eternity cos i go online almost daily one... well, all i can say is. realli can bai4 my bro liao.... made my mom so pissed off dat she plucked the modem out of e com to prevent him from gluing to e com..... and forced him NOT to go to sch, until he finally wake up from his slacking..... zai rite? dats my mom... i like to tink dat i take after her.. but yah, the consequence of dat is dat i dun get to go online too..... well, past one week, qt a lot of things happened ah.. i mean, i spent e last 30 mins reading ur blog entries, realising how much i missed out on..

1stly, happi burfdae tim!! hehe, luckily im not late... may ya go to the next level in ur spiritual walk wif God, and may u noe e Lord and His calling for u! 18 yrs ago on this day the heavens celebrated cos the Lord created you, yup so love the Lord ur God wif all ur heart, ur might, and ur mind!

ehh next, realli realli sorry abt not goin for e previous outings..(again) ehh i mite haf a higher chance of goin if its not sat *winkz* yup but i noe its diff to org outings on oth days one lar.. hai, apart from dat day where i went crazy laffing wif stg, realli miss crapping n stuff wif u guys.....

hmm, oh yah, and i dropped physics liao.. like officially.. tink kenny mite haf told u all liaoz.. acty wanna share some of my thots abt it here, cant write it on my blog cos a lot of my classmates read it.. yup dropping physics is liberating man!! muahaha... im realli glad abt my decision, cos i noe for sure i dun nid physics le, and im goin smu aniwae.. it means dat i haf to take physics again as part of the general education course over dere, but frankly i tink it wun be as taxing as taking it now.. like, opportunity cost? hehe. now got lots more time to focus on my oth 3 subs so its loads better.. and initially while i was deciding to drop a lot of my classmates tried to dissuade me agst it lar. acty i was tinking abt it for qt some time le den when my ct gave us e form to reg for As i voiced out dat i wanna drop.. tink it shocked every1 lar cos every1 thot my phy is ok one.. acty comparatively my phy is qt on par wif others.. so like every1 was telling me how its very wasted to study it for more den 1 yr den drop now.. but deep in my heart, i was very very sure i wanted to drop it le.. sometimes i feel dat my frens were more like trying to themselves dat its a wrong choice to drop phy, rather den trying to convince me. at hc, the kiasu culture is so freaking scary. dropping a sub is not usually sth dat one chooses to do, normally one is juz forced by e sch to drop it.. i feel like they noe it themselves dat i've made e rite decision for myself, but they're irked at my nerve to do sth agst convention, to do sth rite, as opposed to doin wad every1 else is doing.. it was realli getting to me.. all the barbs, criticism.. "u realli shldnt drop lor.. wad abt scholarship.. no more 4 As.. blah blah blah... i've already got it figured out, and not getting 4 As dun matter to me lor... i noe for sure i wun ace my phy anw... arghhh.... cant stand hc ppl sometimes.. they're so... uptight.. and when my tcher returned a phy lect test i took b4 i dropped, turned out i got one of e highest.. and they were pissed off at me leh.. can u imagine? pissed off cos i dropped a sub dat altho i may haf done okay in, i chose to drop it instead... and they cant stop ribbing me dat my timetable veri slack, get to go home early and all dat.. like they bu shuang juz bcos i got a slack timetable.. arggghh, dun understand!!!! sigh........

hmm ok finished ranting, feel much better, hehe.... acty my classmates are not so bad lar, its juz some aspects of them juz make me go bonkers sometimes... yup, and was reading thru all e evaluation n stuff.. feel ashamed dat i wrote so little, as compared to like yt or tim, realli not write essays lar.. hehe, yah u guys are qt on e spot abt me, hehe, seems like the conclusion from sq's "experiment" is dat we noe qt a lot abt each other after all! *applause* hehe yup.. dis frenship can go a looong way.......

okie, finished updating here liao, shall go update my blog next.. the last entry was like march?? cmi... yea hope to see u guys soon!!

chan eng.charis | 4:47 PM

EASY ....... DIFFICULT
Easy is to get a place is someone's address book.
Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart.

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes

Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound...

Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness

Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them...

Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream...

Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity...

Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult to see the other side...

Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up...

Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult to give its real value...

Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise...

Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day...

Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself...

Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them...

Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it.

Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action...

Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt...

Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give

Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings.

Easy is to make a mistake
Difficult is to pluck up courage to say 'I'm Sorry'

shuqin | 6:05 PM

hmmm.. hehe.. gonna rain le.. sky black black.. hope no one is having black face.. hmm.. realised long ago.. but den felt strongly bout it again today.. some things really not within our control.. haiz.. feel so helpless when things go beyond my control.. den realised it is not possible to please everyone all de time..1 wrong sentence may juz ruin de day for someone and my own day.. hmm.. tink i shd learn to let go la huh? i mean it's better to be truthful den lie juz to please someone.. hehe.. these tots not provoked my my clique pple.. in case u pple are tinking..

hmm... my life ah.. i wud say it is rather complete le.. true.. there may be things that i want to do but hav not done yet.. pple i wanna meet but they hav not appear yet.. budden.. i tink my past 17+ yrs hav not been in vain.. i've met diff kind of pple.. experienced many kinds of emotions.. some may not be nice.. but they add to my memory.. i'm thankful for de pple that has made my life a fulfilling 1.. but i am not satisfied.. if possible.. i want to hav better interpersonal skills.. de ability to knoe wat someone else is tinking.. to be able to knoe wat to say at wat time.. dun wanna say de wrong things again.. i regret some things too.. regret not grabbing de chances when they arrive.. maybe chance really come knocking once.. de next time it comes again.. it will never be the same again..

i'm contented ba.. at least at present.. i got nice frens.. my family.. my nephew and niece.. wat else can i ask for.. good A level results? tink shd juz live each day to de fullest.. cope with troubles as they come...

shuqin | 5:35 PM

woohoo! way to go. great start. yay! let's all welcome long-lost timothy!! *wild applause*

1stly..have to say..u really dun sound like urself. hmm..but ppl shd always give ppl d benefit of doubt rite. haha..so u'd be glad to know tt i believe wad u say lar..hehe. hey no need to apologise lar. heh now i really believe love can change a person..kaka.

hmm..been eating qt little these few days..dunno why..jus dun feel hungry. how ar. jia lat.

hey ppl..are u content with ur life now? do u feel it's complete? cos at dis pt of time..i think i aredi have wad i shd..and tt's enough. results n all tt are not tt impt lor..it's jus a small part of ur entire life..wad we shd rmb and wad shd matter to us is wad we'll take with us for d rest of our lives. i have a complete family..my best frens..my clique..my aquaintances..and i think i got no enemy ba..hmm..ya lor..that's enough for me..at least i know i matter to someone on dis planet..yup. n i'm qt sure i've made ppl's lives happier..at least tt's wad they told me..so i guess i stil dui de qi my frens ba. i dun feel tt i lack anything now..so my conclusion..my life is complete! at dis point of time lar.. :)

Pebbles | 11:17 PM

hmmm.. no idea wat really pissed JK off.. but shd be sth big.. so big dat he acty need to write it down to get it off his chest.. heyz.. relax fren.. some pple are immature.. or juz needs to be disillusioned.. let them be.. they will wake up when they finally think it thru.. =)

hehe.. distracted halfway.. cos timothy finally posted sth! clap clap!! =D not bad.. muz thank u pple leh.. sumtimes even if i start sth and u all dun cont.. my post will hav no effect also.. but u pple are supportive.. always try ur best to contribute.. hehe.. 1 big big thanks!

hmmm.. finally got to see my niece yest! she is so tiny.. and she will be called adelle.. nice name? hehe.. my nephew fell sick yest le.. wonder how is he now.. realised sumtimes life can really be made better if i choose to face it with a smile.. realised these 2 days of de week had been nice for me.. last week too i tink.. achievement! hope tis will last.. i like it tis way.. and will try my best to maintain things as they are now..

hmmm... wanted to write sth 1 i tink.. but forget le.. cham.. eyelids getting heavy le.. oh yah.. remember le.. i tink my CT is brave.. Ms Lim.. she is so optimistic! i tink i wud never be as brave as her.. she contracted cancer.. but good news is.. she underwent surgery and is fully recovered now.. tink wat she and mrs noordin say are veri true.. hers was a battle of life and death.. our battle with exams seems nothing compared to hers.. if she can do it.. there shd be nothing we can't do.. not dat i am a veri religious person.. but i tink wat mrs noordin said is veri true.. God wud not give u more than wat u can take.. so pple.. let's jia you! we can all do it.. all hav come tis far.. no reason for us to give up now.. take care! =)

shuqin | 10:49 PM

screw today..seriously....v long not in such a pissed off mood...haha...i was like telling e ppl i no to stay away from me in case i decide to whack smt....some pple r just so immature n do e stupidest things la...shall not elaborate on it.....but cannot stand it when pple cannot wake up their idea....physics prac neva went so bad b4.....haha....e whole classs almost no 1 did e expt correctly at all...but managed to fake out my readings....tomolo got gp test after sch...no early day for me.....n i dun understand y oso...cos my tch just din wanna tell us whether it was gonna be compre or compo....cos only 1.5 hrs e test...heard is only compre...means really got this chance can fail....need essay to pull myself up 1.....fail oso nvm...main thing is gotta get into remedial...which i think wun make much use....den pe...kaozz...it rained...tj pple happy i guess...but i had to stay in hall do circuit....wah sian...basically....it's been a sucky day where many small sucky things n 1 big sucky thing add together to make me damn sian diao....no hw gonna be done today le....ciao.....if only i haf punching bag at home.......

alaka | 9:56 PM

hehe.. cos i realised dat after u changed de skin.. it no longer appears as shuqin mah.. den i see le also wanna laugh.. so change lor.. hmm.. most of the time.. pple try to suppress and deny their own feelings.. self-denial i tink.. cos we are afraid to face de truth.. especially if there is a chance that de truth is sth we wud not want to hear.. nobody's fault ba.. it's juz how we behave..

haha.. i seriously dun see anything nice bout orchard.. really puzzle me y pple like to go orchard so much.. is it bcos i dunno how to shop.. or issit pple are living in self-denial.. cos it is a trend to go orchard.. so we muz go orchard.. can't be bothered.. but i conclude 1 thing.. i seriously hate crowd.. u really need de patience and determination if u want to walk about in orchard road.. crazy..

hmm.. yest dinner was quite pathetic la.. but it was nice.. dun u agree? it may juz be de 4 of us.. but we did enjoy de meal.. acty i tink de guys were not full.. too little food for them le.. i liked de ice-cream best.. yum yum.. hehe.. can't really remember wat we did at de grass patch le.. only rmb flipping thru vj's yrbook.. den we probably tok a bit of crap as usual.. really been quite long since we went there to sit le.. hope we will hav more complete htg outings.. hint hint ah.. those who see tis.. pls pls try to keep urself free next sat..

sianz.. haven study for my econs test.. suddenly i dun feel like studying econs le.. even feel like dropping de subject lor.. stupid MCT's fault.. hmm.. no matter how i dislike it.. i tink i better go study later.. haiz.. up to now still haven seen my niece.. when will i get to see her?!?!?!

shuqin | 6:45 PM

sq..finally changed ur username..and d blog doesn't show up when clicked on..weird. blogger can be really irritating sometimes. sigh can't do anything abt it now oso. jus wait n see. n erm..sq..it's qt hard to change d size of d image n everything..so can u erm..change ur resolution instead. hehe.

v fan ar..feels like it's even a luxury to shop..life is jus too busy..too stressed to let anyone spend a minute worry-free. ever since mct..i'm like totally deflated..dunno wad to do..partly oso christine's call..made me think abt wad i'd do if my grades in d end stil cannot make it..acty..i oso dunno how i made it in 'o' levels..shd be tyco..like me n my frens always conclude on..cos we really jus can't understand why we're doing worse than wad we shd have done..maybe d 2nd intake curse got sth to do with it oso..like all 2nd intakers are fated to be worse off than 1st intakers..haiz why why..

watched a little of winter sonata jus now..and sth in it was abt wad u'd do if u're not supposed to look a person up..wld u suppress ur urge to see tt person or wld u jus go n see d person..well it made me ponder for awhile..but acty dun need lar cos i know since a v long time tt i'd always choose to suppress my urge..cos in some cases..going against things will hurt u in d end..

wad a depressing entry..but wadever..sums up my mood totally. thks kiu kenny n sq for ur company tdy :)

Pebbles | 1:35 AM

hmmm.. hehe.. yt got half de story correct la.. but i shan't elaborate or correct her story.. not impt anyway.. hehe.. JK say i got endless things to write.. can even hav my own blog le.. but i rather not.. i tink i hav lotsa guardian angels too.. really nice pple.. includes all of HTG! =) a million thanks can't express my gratitude for de appearance of these pple in my life.. hmm.. acty i also dunno whether i am anyone's angel.. maybe maybe not.. hehe.. juz know i love my nephew and niece!! hehe.. =p

love or be loved.. haha.. wat a profound topic we started on.. someone said gals shd be loved.. guys shd love.. hmmm.. maybe.. too profound le.. like yt says.. no right or wrong ans.. and jk's nick... watever la..

oh yah! my niece was born yest.. at time 1616.. cool... hehe.. weighs 2868g.. haha.. frm wat i hear.. small chio bu.. haha.. resembles her bro.. ah.. haven get de chance to see her yet.. wanted to go find her today 1.. budden supposed to buy pres and hav dinner.. so dun tink can le.. hehe.. hope pple only read tis at night after dinner.. veri tempted to pao1 qi4 u pple for my niece.. but cannot.. cos u pple are juz as impt.. and promises shd not be broken easily.. yeah..

p/s: st 2! de new blog skin is nice! unique to us and only us.. budden i tink abit diff to read.. den can change to resolution 600x800? cos now need to scroll left and right.. quite mafan.. hehe.. juz suggesting..

shuqin | 2:15 PM

i think i kinda know wad u mean lar. jus tt i dunno who's A and B. u and A are sms-ing each other..and A is telling u how much he/she likes B..den u wondering if B ever gets to read those, wld he/she have changed his/her mind abt accepting A..sth lidat..is it?

hmm..acty..d debate over bei ai or ai ren more xing fu got no answer one lar..i mean isn't it obvious..it all depends on who u're talking abt. in both cases, only when both care for each other den it's xing fu..rite? one-sided affairs can never be xing fu..like even if someone doesn't mind loving another person for d rest of his/her life, it doesn't mean tt the person being loved won't mind rite? i think being loved by someone u dun want or loving someone who doesn't want it is both a burden and a waste of time..cos u're not making anybody's lives happier. in fact i think it's a scary thing hearing someone, whom u dun like, gao bai to u..cos it's so bad to reject somebody..and so hard to shuo chu kou. tt is my thinking lar..i think most ppl wld be happy to hear ppl's gao bai cos it's like real sweet and everything. haiz..but then..has anyone thot of d stress it will bring to d person hearing it?

acty..i dun think a couple who loves each other to d same extent will last forever. rather, it's a couple where one prefers loving ppl and the other prefers being loved. in all relationships..there will be surely be an imbalance between d guy and d girl..cos it's a way for both to learn to cherish each other..yup.

hmm..i think i got qt alotof guardian angels..got alotof names i'd put under d "frens for life" section..yup..really grateful to them for all tt they've done along d way..tt incl htg!! hehe big thank you to everyone. hopefully i'm oso a guardian angel to someone..cos er..i really dunno who i'm guarding over..hehe..i mean i jus help whoever i know needs help..hehe..yup..

Pebbles | 12:08 PM

hmmm.. acty chatting with htg pple now.. in MSN.. i feeling rather bad mood... but i dun tink they knoe.. cos i dun show it in de way i speak ba.. wat they juz chatted bout and the story on yin1 yue4 ri4 ji4 really link with my tots for tonight.. is being loved really xing4 fu2? when i was out juz now.. and as i was replying smses.. i really tot dat way.. de loved shd be glad.. shd feel fortunate.. but if de one loving does not recieve de same reciprocated love.. shd he/she still cont loving? haha.. if i am not wrong.. u pple shd be tinking abit far-fetched le.. hmmm.. wat provoked tis tots were things i heard frm person A bout de love for person B.. if B ever gets to read de smses i recieved.. i wonder wat will be de response.. will A love still go unreciprocated? u pple may not understand wat i am toking bout.. but it's okie.. juz needed a channel to sort out my tots.. and it juz happen dat i tot of de blog as an outlet..

will love really become a burden when de love u recieve is frm someone u dun hav de special feeling for? if u dun like de person but de person likes u veri much.. to de extend.. it is their belief u will be de last stead of theirs.. shd a chance be given to tis poor souls since pple say bei4 ai4 shi4 xing4 fu2? shd tis poor souls give up trying.. and look for another one meant for them... but if de 1 u like so much is whom u percieved as de special one.. will u still be able to find another only one? if found.. does it juz destroy ur own stand dat de special one is de only one.. haha.. pple are juz contradicting at times.. stubborn too.. will there really be a case when both parties are both givers and recievers to de same extent? if there really is.. i believe they will last forever.. nothing will break them apart le..

hmmm.. some pple are juz meant to be others' guardian angels for life.. juz be there to give support when their mortal is down.. these guardian angels are de ones dat are willing to go dat extra mile.. juz for that mortal of theirs.. but normally.. angels' presence are neglected.. their efforts are taken for granted and care go unreciprocated.. tolerance for their mortal unreasonable behaviour is higher than those for others.. and it may even seem irrational.. to all that haven found ur guardian angel.. look ard.. he/she may juz be ard.. be kind to those dat are kind to u.. dun let them feel that their efforts are gonna be wasted.. to those who hav found their angels.. be glad for their presence! to all guardian angels out there.. dun feel down even when ur presence is not acknowledged.. ur mortal may knoe of ur presence.. juz dat they dunno how to reciprocated ur kindness.. hao3 ren2 you3 hao3 bao4.. bu4 shi4 bu4 bao4.. zhi3 shi4 shi2 jian1 wei4 dao4... =) i tink all angels are great.. the amt they are willing to give.. we shd all learn to give without expecting returns.. learn to believe that human is born good-natured..

haha.. i juz wrote some crap.. and u are reading tis sentence.. u probably read some crap too.. hehe.. smilez pple... stay happy! =D

shuqin | 11:33 PM

kkk..indra rocks indra rocks.. -______-

hmm..only 1day nv come online..but once i come..WOAH!! everyone chu1 kou3 cheng2 zhang1..entries all so long..k i shall do long entries too..now is 10:45..shall gif myself half an hr..later finish blogging den put down d time again. that is if my browser doesn't hang. if it hangs before my last word i'm gonna hang myself too..hmm so i'm gonna periodically copy wadever i've typed..to precaution against such er..gek events.

so. guess d main motive is to say wad we think abt other ppl lar huh..but a pity yc or maybe tim will nv get to read this haha..hear that yc/tim??? if u're really finally reading this pls tag..k. yup..start w stg 1st lar huh..

st1: cheerful girl..sensitive and considerate to others..that's why so affected by those who not only dun reciprocate, but en1 jiang1 chou2 bao4..k lar maybe not so serious..but well maybe now u know tt not all ppl appreciate d concern n welfare u have in mind for them. a girl whose mouth works faster than her mind haha..that's why sometimes say stuff tt she ownself will peng at..but it's a good thing! say wad u think ma..that's wad's crucial to avoiding misunderstandings..budden..next time go to work cannot so easily let ppl know wad u're thinking..if not they can easily backstab u. heh k..maybe u dun need this advice yet. eh..wad else..erm someone who knows how to fa xie..which is good..cos sth my fren said makes sense lar..he said ppl who look like they kan de kai is acty those tt are d most kan bu kai..and vice versa. cos ppl who complain all d time look like they kan bu kai..tt's why so zai yi wad happens to them..but acty they're fa xie-ing..ya..sth like u la..get v gek abt ppl..den u'll kb kb..den aft tt feel better le rite? :) oh how could i forget..this girl likes to dan1 tiao1!!! hahaha..jus recall d times she utters "wa wo hen xiang da ta..." hehheh..sth like tt..haha..why u so emotional one ar..haha..and sometimes u see mei nu oso like u dun believe lidat..haha..hmm k i guess tt's jus u..no reason..redundant to ask why. k i can only think of one last trait..and tt is..she's d blur-est!! among d 3 of us..but have u noticed..she's d only one who stil has d sotong with her..and somewhat intact lar huh..so wad does show?? hehe yup she's v xi xin..not d careless kind of sotong..k let's move on to st2..

twin!! haha our mo qi not qt there aredi ar..but den we influenced sq ar..now d 3 of us qt synchronised at times..hehe. u're d busiest of us..wonder where u find d time to do all d things u gotta do. v passionate abt religion too..we can aredi tell u devote a big part of ur life to it..but i'm sure u enjoy it rite..all d trips to boonlay..meals at jp..hahaha..no lar seriously..i'm sure u have fun at it..and everyone's gotta find their path in life someday..ya..so now u've aredi found where u belong lor.. :) wah i can never forget all d 2000+ hrs we spent together..and stil counting! yup i think we got record aredi lar..everyday sure laff until peng..cos u know..we're in a v strategic position..can see all d happening spots in class..kk..back to u. haha. u're really independent..got ur own thinking..and u influence those ard u. luckily it's all good lar. haha. hmm that's partly wad makes u stand out from the rest ba..that's wad makes u cool! think u oso got ur own way of dealing with problems in life..u seem to treat all events equally..like they're really not more impt than others..haha..like sometimes hear u kb..can even make a joke out of it. but ya i guess if u can't do much abt it den jus heck care lor. u're a great pal! you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang. i think i'l nv forget d day at mac lar. haha. yea u can cheer ppl up effectively..heh thks for tt few hrs tt day. and..nice phone. haha. yup..can cheer ppl up..can listen to ppl..tt's why ur frenships all v lasting ba. :) so..stg will last v long too rite. yea.

myself..erm..ya wad u all said qt true..so wad else can i say..haha it's aredi 11:26..spent almost 45 mins until here le..see how yong xin i am? k lar..on to ltg..alphabetical order..

kiu! haha..nan ren zhong de nu ren..tt's wad he seems like..aft i heard he's d sole survivor frm d shopping trip with ltg..den he v zai with all d handicrafts oso lar..ya..all d stars..stil rmb..haha. v generous guy..willing to spend on frens..resourceful oso..always can find out wad he wans to..and oso always finds out wad ppl need to know. got qt a warped family life..haha maybe tt's wad shaped him..v expressive..haha..dunno good or bad oso..always has funny poses or actions tt render him less human..erm..ya. haha. incoherent speech is acty improving..but den d ridiculous style of blogging needs to be improved..u realise half d time ce doesn't get d slightest hint wad u trying to say?? haha k lar needless to say d prev entry was interrupted by snippets of indra guy..ya..tt tickled me..haha..tt song! wonder where u always get ur inspiration for all those crap from. hmm..a guy tt can be classified as a sensitive new age guy. yup.

kenny. ah gong..freelance stg..considerate. u shy meh? ok lar. hmm..yup capable guy..responsible and true to his frens as well. always turning up for htg meetings no matter where it is..poor guy..spend half his life on mrt..haha..but it's all cos u wanna see frens more often rite?? heh. oh..k lar ^5 to u. another thing to ^5 abt..tt time i typed one whole load of stuff here oso..den browser hang..den all gone..ya..so i know how u feel. he gives d impression of a sweet n shen cang bu lou person..handles stress well..smarty pants oso..k..so now u know ar..heaven is unfair cos of ppl like u!! haha k no lar jus jk. are u stil as black? or is it we all xi guan le. but bai tuo bai tuo dun get any blacker liao..if not next time cannot go out at nite. typical guy..goes crazy over soccer..always has new paper with him except when ppl really need it for other sections..like movie listings..haha. hardworking..knows wad to do at different situations..yup can go play survivor liao. fellow all in buff!! yea!! hehe..all in all, a sensitive new age guy too.

tim..lamest among ltg. haha k lar dun really know wad goes on in ur mind and life..so maybe i dun understand wad u do cos i wasn't there like d others when u needed frens. :/ anyway, another staunch christian..always using nicks to further state d obvious. v motivated and directional guy..knows wad he wants and goes out to do it. but of cos he can lar..so smart..u wld have taken f maths 's' paper rite. haha. that's abt all i can type..haha..sorry lar..

yc..erm..guilty to say..maybe even less to say abt him than tim's. heh. outgoing! that's wad pops up in ppl when they see him..rite? hmm..i'm sure his carefree and easygoing image has got sth to do with him being able to see things differently from others and turning crisis into opportunity..rite? real sporty guy..if he's not with her, he's playing some games. hmm..why all vj ppl dun need to study one ar??? haha. k generalising. yup someone who will always bring laughter to ppl wherever he goes.

k! done!time..erm..11:59..haha cos browser hang for awhile jus now..

Pebbles | 11:51 PM

INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA
woah man he totally rox my sox lar.. he rocked the whole of s'pore dats for sure!! woo hoo! scored agst man u, scored agst japan.... woah man.. incredible.. and he wears the coveted no. 10 shirt! lives up to the names of those who wear no.10 man.. muahaha... i expected to ultra disappointed by s'pore tonite, but i am contented... there is hope for s'pore yet! bwahahaa

ok, ill try to do the individual evaluation thingy... but den i acty dunno much lar.. will try to add my 2 cents worth.

st1: laffs a lot.. ok redundant point, we ALL laff a lot.. haha, common trait dat binds us together.. hmm, can sometimes get qt affected by ppl ard her, but she cannot stay depressed for too long, hehe... cos there's alw us to cheer up her.. or rather her to cheer us up.. argh it works both ways lar ah? hmm, she's alw ready to organise outing.. enthu! she can lend a listening ear as well, and doesnt reveal things dat she noes she cant reveal.. at least dat is e impression i get lar..

st3: hi there pal.. haha, u can design damn well, good wif fonts n colors.. crazy fetish wif fishes.. stupid fish joke in my head now.. argh.. acty ur qt a private person, keep a lot to urself... eh, u shld share more wif us u noe... yep.. and matured in thinking too.. noe how to look beyond the surface of things..

hmm ltg... ehh for q rite.. he seems to haf a lot of non-male traits... for one he can understand girls qt well.. and he cant stand any form of slackness... thot most guys wld wanna slack to a certain extent one.. ehh he's oso loud... expresses himself well in hokkien... and expresses his frenship wif tim in the art of violence too.. ehh shoot me getting into lame mode again.. and he sings well too! (duh) yah and he can be qt perceptive n sensitive to ppl's feelings.. rite next....

kenny.. ur chem is like how zai can?? haha.. hmm, e onli 2 hc ppl.. alw moan to each other abt the pressure and madness in hc.. qt caring lar.. alw seen making comments such as "cannot dun eat leh, stomach will pain one..." yah, and veri hardworking oso... which is reflected in his results.. responsible guy too.. alw turning up for band..

tim.. fellow bro in Christ hehe.. but hardly see him ard one.. hai.. super mugger.. msn nick was once sth like "mugging is good for u" or wadeva.. definitely got a screw loose dere.. budden dropped s papers le, mite haf restored some semblance of sanity, but maybe u drop to take up oth "s papers"? hehe...

ehh yc... dunno whther he even noes abt e existence of our blog anot.. hehe.. dat guy seems like he's in a world of his own, wif someone else of cos.. hehe, but got make effort to ju4 ju4 wif us oso lar, so dats gd.. ermm, yah and i echo the sentiment dat he alw seems trouble-free.. seems like the onli troubles he has are finding a limitless source of food to supply his bottomless pit...

ran out of things to say le..
later 2.30 am still got england sweden, no nid to slp liao...................
well, see ya guys!

chan eng.charis | 12:15 AM

thk u thk u..yep..3rd oldest htg member turning 18..scary sia..the aging process.

in reply to sq's post..it is possible. cos if u really like someone, u'd want him to be happy. cos he happy, u happy. happiness is not the possession of it or the state of being happy..but rather the process of achieving it..like this quote appropriately puts it.."whatever else happiness may be, it is neither in having nor in being, but in becoming." taken from gp compre. haha.

1hr+ left.. :(

Pebbles | 10:32 PM

eh.. got a qn leh.. if u dun get jealous when u see de person u like with another person.. does it means u dun like de person enough? haha.. weird qn hor.. was juz pondering over it... realised veri diff to find de balance.. how much jealousy is justifed before it becomes over-possesive?? some things are not to share.. but isn't it veri selfish if u dun let de person go care for another person?

let's say A gal likes B guy.. den C gal is sad.. and B always succeed in cheering C up.. A shd encourage B to go right.. it's only right wat.. who wants to see their fren sad ah.. haha.. nvm if u dun get wat i'm toking bout la.. juz some of my tots..

sometimes i really think it is amazing.. at how some pple can be so big-hearted.. hehe.. direct translation.. not veri accurate.. but if u are as sotong as me... or on same frequency as me.. u will knoe wat i'm toking bout.. i mean so willing to let de person they like go care for another person... even if it means they themselves will get jealous and hurt when they see it.. how bout telling de person u like info bout de person they like.. is dat even more amazing.. haha.. i dunno.. i wonder if tis kinda behaviour means they dun like de person enough.. or juz it means they are too kind..

shuqin | 6:44 PM

Hey guys! *another rare entry from st 2, as a result of poning sch today* eh but i dun feel guilty abt dat, tink i wld accomplish much more at home. but anw, st 3's bday is tml!! hehe.. gal cheer up lar, its ur bday, nothing wld go wrong.. if u wait ard expecting sth bad to happen, believe me it will happen. somehow ur sub conscious will direct u towards dat.. so.. dun suffer as a result of ur imagination! yup.. its ur bday, gif urself a break from ur own mind (thots that are unpleasant and damaging, not a break from sanity, mind you) and juz try to enjoy urself, and our company! =) and realli hope u can spend more time wif us, but if u got oth commitments, we wld understand dat too.. juz as u guys haf been understanding abt me alw not being dere on sat nites... =p and yea, hope u realli realli wld haf fun tml k? last day being 17 today, being free of the responsibilty of turning 18 (M18 movies, being able to get driver's license, clubbing, drinking, gambling..).. so treasure it! *grinz*

chan eng.charis | 10:41 AM

haha... i realised 1 simple post can result in many replies wor.. haha.. kenny can qualify to be a philosopher le.. so many philosophies bout life.. hmmm.. Q.. dat was a veri nice passage.. veri true... so teach u not to anyhow say i love u.. not to anyhow say forever.. sth everyone shd learn.. cos tis are some of de things dat hurt if said without meaning them..

okie.. i tink i going crazy today.. dunno y also.. waiting for myself to get super hyper.. hehe.. i wondered leh.. how will pple react if i suddenly become uncontactable one day... as in off my hp.. and juz cut myself off frm de world.. really feel like trying sometimes.. when things get so complicated i dun wanna tink bout them..

okie... i'm glad i hav mood swings.. hehe... cos at least it show i am human.. today GP juz saw tis video clip.. den they were saying they found de gene responsible for making a person happy.. diff variation of de gene determines how optimistic a person wud be... hmmm... i tink i hav more of de optimistic genes.. if not den i hav lotsa nice pple as my frens..

shd teach myself to tink less.. den learn to avoid wat i dun wanna see.. so i wun get depressed by pple and things.. okie.. i'm sleepy.. but it is only 7.25pm! oh my.. kkz.. i go watch tv 1st... byez!

shuqin | 7:18 PM

haha....y our blog so serious 1 ar?? haha...e initial lame haven was wrong 1....hmmm....mayb it's just me trying not to grow up so quickly....as sq n ken said....think simple...dun think too much....relaxing....that's e word... :p

haha...bout mouth being foul n cruel or having all e wrong words coming outta ya mouth....haha...i no i'm one of e culprits...hehe....morning dun brush my teeth thoroughly la...so it still stinks thru e day...i can say i'll try to improve n change on that....but put it frankly...that's smt that makes me me....so i no that will stay with me for some time to come.....

i like e pt bout being concerned for some1 cos u care for a person....firstly...who'd be obliged to care for some1 else....unless some1 pays ya to do so....or threatens u with smt....it all does come naturally outta e heart....ur brain dun really work anymore during these pts of time...n u find urself doing all sorts of things...mayb even saying things that ya neva tot u would....got 1 pt in time i oso tot caring too much for other pple is really too much of a strain on ur own life n evrything.....but this kinda concern really not say u tell urself to stop n u will stop...ya....that's when it becums a big burden i guess....n it's all up to the individual when he/she feels it's time to reduce that concern for others.....totally no caring is impossible....reducing is hard....so ya...haha...this 1 i wun argue with st 1....CONFUSED!! but just to all htg pple....got problems we can all try to share....not evry problem has a solution..but sharing e problem divides e pain done unto urself...suo3 wei4 huan4 nan4 jian4 zhen1 qing2....haha..this is my idealistic world la....

haha...emotionally active at least means that u r still human...if eva a pt in time u find ur heart beat always beats at a constant rate n neva eva fastens or slows down...go c a psychatrist....haha....but dun think that applies to us...eh...i no i got say i think i matured abit la...haha...but dun hafta put it on blog rite...haha....sounds so bhb..
('o') but nowadays is i go n tell pple to take it easy n not e other way round..not bad le la...hehe....hu doesn't get depressed once in a while rite....

our life has only been 18 yrs long at most...n we already so much gan3 kai4 le...we've not seen anything yet....so if we take life so tough now.....next time we mite find ourselves needing to nong4 bia4(knock our heads in the wall) q often.....just to wake up our ideas....dun hafta worry bout abusing e blog rite?? haha...cos i think i abuse it even more lo...so much cock on it like post for myself to read 1...hehe....lastly....bout ltg's recent giggling amongst ourselves n all that...haha....rite now we haf action from
of cos tim n ken....as for mi leh...haha....as sq said...believe me....my b'day wish i decided le...haha....haf fun for e coming yr n get 4As....HERE I COME ECONS!!!

a short passage which i've always q liked.....

Never say I love you
If you really don't care
Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you're going to break my heart
Never say you're going to
If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie
Never say hello
If you really mean goobye
Never say forever
If you aren't going to try
Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry...........

alaka | 11:11 PM

hmmm... feeling kinda sad now leh.. dunno why also.. u pple know wat.. de posts juz proves my point.. they are de best evidence of our growing process.. eh.. simplicity has always been nice la.. complex juz gives me headaches.. but we are sort of unfortunate.. cos somehow pple juz choose to be complex.. trying to cover up de real them.. cos they fear getting hurt.. i tink we all fear that.. but maybe getting hurt is also part of de process of growing up? dat's y if given a choice.. i wanna be a child forever.. l like being protected.. de carefree and simple mindset.. one dat has not yet been polluted...

i wonder leh.. how can pple be so cruel... okie.. maybe sometimes it is unintentional.. but we shd all learn to tink b4 we speak... no matter whether we mean it or not.. cos some words do hurt.. maybe shou1 zhe3 wu2 xin1.. ting1 zhe3 you3 yi4..but once said.. somethings juz cannot be taken back.. damage once done.. will show lines of cracks even after mend.. it wun be de same again..

i hav always tot no one is obliged to cheer others up.. someone tried changing dat mindset of mine yest.. de person said.. when u care for a person.. de concern comes naturally.. and dat's when u will do all u can to cheer de person up when he/she is sad.. bcos u care.. so it is no longer an obligation or burden.. it comes naturally.. sometimes wonder if we shd juz care less.. i mean not everyone will be willing to accept wat u are willing to give.. wat happens when ur care gets rejected? u juz get dejected.. so many examples ard me recently.. dunno wat to tell those pple also.. tell them to give up hope? or encourage them to cont cos it gives them hope? i'm confused..

pple been asking me bout opinions bout them... dat's probably one of de reasons dat set me thinking bout how u pple hav matured.. done so much assessment bout others.. started to assess myself... wondered to myself if i am one dat is easily emotionally provoked.. i guess so ba.. i get gan3 dong4 easily i tink.. juz a few nice words when i'm down and i probably can be moved to tears.. and when i am feeling happy.. all it needs to make me sad.. can be sth as simple as seeing others sad.. hav no idea if this is good or bad.. watever.. haha.. sometimes wonder if i am born optimistic.. or am i a fake optimist?

okz.. tis is another chunk of wat's going thru my brain.. hehe.. may not make much sense.. sometimes tink i am abusing tis blog.. hehe.. sorry pple! i shall go do my newspaper article now.. byez!

shuqin | 2:48 PM

firstly..in reply to sq's post. hmm..thks..didn't know i'm xiao sa and strong..really. i guess when u've survived the biggest blow in ur life(til now), u find that alotof nitty gritty stuff that once made u worried, are just no big deal. just..dun treat life so seriously. whatever attitude u take, life goes on. why choose to get strangled by worthless events around u. :/

woah..kenny..long essay on the summary of the meaning of life sia. but then..i agree with ya! i've long decided that well..everything's tangled up and useless to comprehend..maybe we ought to return to our original form and learn civilisation all over again. makes one wonder isn't it? ppl become bad cos of other ppl..so who's the first bad person then? like a baby is so simple, so innocent..but under the influence of ppl ard him, he becomes just another adult..not retaining any childlike attributes he once had. k..one book which would really reflect my feelings abt this would be the little prince. the most meaningful lessons one can ever learn is from children..

to be continued..

Pebbles | 9:30 AM

hmmm... was tinking whether to wish JK happy birthday... but i see no meaning.. since it will be belated.. and i did wish him yest.. haha... but still... ''HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!" hmmm... was tinking today.. we hav all grown up.. matured in thinking le.. although behaviour can still be quite childish at times.. but tinking wise.. we hav really grown...

chaneng has found her wat she really want in her life.. more focused le.. really glad for her.. although it may mean less time for us.. hmmm.. muz say i feel rather guilty after reading her blog... i'm sorry gal.. will tink b4 i tok in future.. she found her goal and we shd be happy for her.. yt leh.. although she dun really share.. but i tink de many events in tis past 1 yr hav really made her more matured ba.. maybe she hav always been so xiao1 sa3... but it was really tis yr dat i realised maybe she is de strongest among de 3 stg members.. in my memory.. haven seen her breakdown b4.. but juz wanna tell u.. it's okie to let ur emotions take control and cry when u really feels like it.. we may not knoe how to handle it.. but if it makes u feel better.. juz do it.. hehe.. maybe i am juz tinking too much...

eh... LTG leh.. somehow also see u all mature.. YC.. may still look as carefree.. but i'm sure he has learn more bout how to care and show concern for others.. how to be more tolerant... and since he needs to be there for her.. to be stronger too.. JK.. he himself say he matured le.. but i tink somehow he toned down alot le.. not as crazy.. not sure if it is good.. but as long as u dun get too stressed.. dun get depressed easily.. i tink there's no harm in getting more serious.. eh.. ur relationship ah.. i also dunno wat to say.. so ambiguous.. but i tink we shd learn to believe u..

timothy.. acty i tink he is happier now.. less serious.. which is good.. he has always been focused.. den care and concern.. i tink he learnt it long ago.. wat he has learnt is probably determination ba.. jia you wor... all de way! kenny ah.. know of times when he been depressed.. due to stress ba.. but it was last yr things.. tis yr leh.. still got his own prob.. but i guess not as serious.. same as timothy.. jia you ba!

bout myself.. in tis past 1+ yr.. i been thru wat i wud say is more den wat i ever been thru in my 18 yrs of life.. de ups and downs.. as of now.. i tink if one of de highest peak ba.. past my lowest point earlier tis yr.. but haiz.. i still feel quite helpless at time.. especially when i see my frens down.. yet there's nth i can do.. i dun ask for much.. juz for all my frens to be happy.. but i guess dat's rather diff..

a lot of things in life is about choices.. once made.. let's hope we never hav to regret..

shuqin | 8:15 PM

half an hour left..treasure it wor! officially 18 liaoz..maybe can start thinking of the things u wanna do, out of those that u can. drive? drink? passion of the christ? heh.

hApPy BiRtHdAy KiU~~

Pebbles | 11:30 PM

HaPpy BdAy Q!! 2nd time im saying dat today.. hopefully to lessen e guilt im feeling rite now. sigh.. well, hope u guys enjoy urselves today and dun forget to update me on everything yea? =)

chan eng.charis | 4:04 PM

yikes....i'm awake....got woken up by my phone.....n this has stirred up a tot in me.....y is it that at diff times....sounds has a different effect on pple...cos it's like my phone kept ringing regularly from 11.50 till 1.30...but i only got woken up by it at 1.30....hmmmm....mayb my brain not working that well now....dunno wat crap i'm toking...or mayb it's just typical my kinda tok.....ce can uds wat i saying?? haha....suddenly miss ya guys.....wahaha...mayb it's cos yday got recalled back by my mum when i hadn't even warmed my seat at bugis......wat if next time i wake up in the middle of e nite during ns think of ya guys??? haha....wat a farnie tot....think e heat turning me nuts le...where got pple 1.30am sweat so much 1....on aircon go study le...3am man utd match.....betta dun lose xia....

alaka | 1:49 AM

hmmm... okie.. not dat de topic was not interesting or we din give it a tot.. tink it was more of i forgot to reply to it.. cos tot JK reply le den no need for me to.. eh.. i wud tink man ba..

tougher in de sense of more diff right.. yah.. i mean although gals hav to go thru labour which is one of de major reason to support y women are tougher to be.. but i tink guys more ke lian.. they hav to be tough.. and it is not easy.. they hav to meet standards set for them by de society.. such as not being able to cry in public.. cos it will make them look like weaklings.. normally they dun share when they meet with setbacks.. cos they are percieved to be able to handle probs on their own.. the need to support a family.. whereas a gal can always look for a rich guy to marry off if she wants a good life but is unable to support herself on such a lifestyle.. guys also bear the responsibilty to protect their country.. singaporean guys worse.. got NS.. yupz.. acty i tink got other reasons.. juz dat i can't tink of them now.. okie... not dat i am saying it is easy to be a woman.. i tink i shd justify in next entry... cos now brain shutting down.. wat i write may thus not make sense..

hmmm... came online bcos i had tis tot today.. "we do hav a choice as to wat kinda life we want to lead.. it really depends alot on our attitude towards life.. if we choose to face it with a smile.. high possibility it will reflect back positively at us... de same if we choose to frown.. it will juz invite retaliation frm others.." tink this few weeks has been quite good for me.. i'm grateful for them.. hope it last... even if it doesn't.. i'm glad i enjoyed tis part of my JC life.. =) as to whether i want to drop subject.. i still considering.. but high possibilty i will hold on.. yupz.. guess it is my mentality dat does not allow me to drop..

shuqin | 12:19 AM

nkf show was great..if u dun have a complicated mind..unlike some ppl..must challenge everything they do. "-6868 line engaged is fake one..telecom can have 100 lines if they want..they jus want ppl to call -6855", "keep emphasizing -6855 is so misleading, so wrong of them to do tt", "why dun d vip themselves donate? goh chok tong gets $1m a month" i mean..of cos any of these comments can be true..but so what? can u ever find out? can u stop them? and in case anyone hasn't experienced it before, having to hear such opposing views thruout d show is qt irritating. why can't ppl just watch a charity show innocently? adults shd really read the little prince..to understand what are the real matters of consequence.

k enough of letting out steam. hmm..seems like my qn was left hanging in d air. but nvm..i think u all never really thot abt it before so dun have alotof things to say. yep..so i'll just close the case here. just wanted to know how u all feel abt it.

abt dropping subs..seriously i think it'd be good..i mean isn't tt wad d principal has been trying to say ever since last yr. like how many ppl can be really sure of getting 4 dist at dis point of time. sq if u really want biz admin, ur chem won't really matter rite. or phys, for that matter. or u could like..think of other alternatives..like engineering? d 4-choose-3-best-subs ppl are either (1)confirmed 4- or 3-dist material or (2)those who are unsure of their goal. yup..if u wanna drop..muz faster drop liaoz..time is running out..

yay glad tt kiu appreciated our efforts..muz put appreciation into action k?? next time muz wear let us see! haha..

Pebbles | 11:00 PM

hmmm... long time since i last came to blog... JK say blog fever dying le.. i hope it is not true.. but am trying my best to do my duty to tis blog.. but sorry ah.. sumtimes really caught up with work.. if not den too tired.. so never really get the chance to blog.. hmm.. acty shd be can tell.. when i blog.. is always after 11.. cos dat is when i am free.. and if i am still awake and energetic.. i try to blog le..

kkz.. today was a test of my physical & mental.. slept 4+ hrs since last night.. and lasted till now.. quite amazing.. had a busy day.. but it was a fulfilling 1.. de best had to be getting JK pres.. but aiya.. how could i hav forgotten dat he once said he wanted bright colour clothes.. sorry ah.. next time ba.. hope u really mean it when u say u appreciate de pres.. hope u really put them to use too.. anyway.. sorry ah.. dun mean to argue with u 1.. juz dunno y.. habit le la.. like picking on u lor.. sumtimes after dat feel quite guilty also.. sorry ah..

hmmm.. haha.. maybe i am not fated to watch soccer match at JK's hse.. next time i wun go le... hehe.. maybe ask me along when it is some big sucky teams dat are playing and u want them to lose.. eh.. had a lot of fun and laughter when JK opened de pres.. laughed till limit.. silent laughter le.. haha.. if only yt and chaneng was there too.. found out quite abit of things too.. can call tis achievement day le...

now.. only qn in my head.. shd i drop any subjects? haiz...

shuqin | 12:06 AM

haha....can't believe right after you all left i got into a small bad mood....cos my bro hog e com till i almost threw my dumbbells at him....haha...but i finally win after some shouting....haha.....

yepzz....first and foremost of cos must thank all members of htg for remembering my b'day and getting a present this yr....haha.....appreciate it alot....haha....cos last yr ar...haha...i was teeny wee bit sad...haha...cos i totally din get any pres......haha....den i kept thinking....wo3 de4 ren2 ji4 guan1 xi1 zhen1 de4 zhe4 yang4 cha1 mah? haha....ya....as for e spike hair leh....haha....ltg 1 day grab me to cut hair or smt la....haha....i too lazy to go myself to do such stuff...i'll just say....jian2 duan3....haha....pple keep friday free k...haha...i dun wanna spend it gu1 ling1 ling1 yi4 ge4 ren2....some more is sports day xia....haha....kidding la....i no tim gotta spend more time with doraemon....

today leh...haha....very uneventful...not much seriously...hehe.....dunno y today st 1 mouth like v yang3...i din even niao her much today den i kena attack so much..haha....st 3 left home early...haha...in fear of being grounded....haha...my house was hot....now is like....wah....**sweats profusely** haha...discovered my tv ba1 zi4 n htg's ba1 zi4 bu4 he2....cannot watch soccer in my house 1...haha....den of cos was e "opening ceremony"....haha....toe socks....ankle socks....socks that i've not shown my mum yet in fear she thinks i've got screws loose all of a sudden...esp e toe socks...trying to spike my hair....haha...which was a total failure...haha...my hair oso v traditional 1 la...it dun wanna try something modern 1...hehe...

end of blog for me....time to go rest....watch some tv mayb.....today din do anw work...haha....die...got maths test leh....

alaka | 10:48 PM

oops..i meant whose role is harder to fulfil, a man's or a woman's. erm..cos last time watch fei chang nan nu..den they asked "nan2 ren2 nan2 wei2 hai2 shi4 nv3 ren2 nan2 wei2"..den d ppl are supposed to give their reasons to support their stand. for me i think a guy's life is more difficult ba..cos generally guys have higher social standards set for them. acty no time now next time den elaborate. wah kiu's essay so pro sia! haha..k lar gif u distinction..

Pebbles | 10:16 PM

wah....din get to reply yt's post....anw...i would say is guy ba4....i mean physically...on a general level u can say it is guys rite?? haha....thou there are some totally extraordinary gals who are like super fit...n pple like me hu is starting to find trouble with tight pants **unbuckles pants b4 e buckle breaks**

emotionally leh...i myself find that it is prob guys la...to quote e most common area amongst young pple now...relationships...guys are able to take stir ups in the relationship betta....if e relationship dun work out....e guy can prob take e break up much betta....haha...mayb cos i've heard of too many gals hu like wanna commit suicide after each relationship problem....yep..

but treating it as a gp qn...must provide counter arguments!!!... thus my pt would be that the threshold of pain for women is 3(or cannot rmb wat) times higher den men's....so women are able to tahan pain betta.....and emotionally it is cos women express themselves when they r feeling not too gd...giving e impression they are not so strong...but being able to express themselves freely...they may recover faster n actually face up to the realities betta den keeping to themselves n nei4 shang1-ing...

CONCLUSION!!! as we proceed into the new millenium...guys nowadays alot getting more nua3(soft...weak...gu1 niang1) as can be seen from the poor fitness of many guys(uh-hum)....den gals r taking more active roles in the positions and areas which require greater strength both mentally n physically...eg in the military n senior positions in corporations which require high ability to handle stress n pressure....thus...i would say that the qn of which gender being tougher will no longer be applicable in the near future....

TA-DA...hmm...q satisfied with essay....members of e panell....pls judge my essay....dun hesitate to give distinction.... :p n as i'm supposed to be nan ren zhong de nv ren rite?? so i'm e toughest of them all.....WAHAHAHA...... ***wat eva*** **LaMeZ**

alaka | 8:18 PM

haha..jus to make this short..got a burning qn for u all..

who is tougher, a man or a woman? justify.

haha it's not some gp qn but it could be! anywayz jus wanna know wad u all think.

Pebbles | 8:14 PM

vj won again...but i was kinda bored by e match...but just c e stats..5 goals scored so far...andy scored 2...assist 3....kinda like henry...haizzz....nvm la...qualify le can liaozz...haha....caas scholarship each yr only give out 3-5....cool xia...okie....reply bout e content of our current discussion.....

NS...sianzz...haha....mayb it is more interesting den schooling...haha...that's y got so much things to talk bout when e Nsmen come out...but oso will be q tough...haha...i oso dunno...just no my fitness now like shit...haha.....if dun buck up sure die le....and from wat i no ar....i think got reception...oso got socket...but e pt is...haha..can only use at nite..and u wun get to use much oso....haha...if inspection time ur hp ring ar....U R DEAD....

haha...pessimist ar...got..me lo....hehe...but i improve liao leh...last time is one piece of paper fall from sky i will think is sky is collapsing le...oh NO!!! just drove my chair ard knock down my fan....

tonite gonna listen to yin yue ri ji man...this whole wk not a day i sleep after 11....mostly by 10 K.O. le....hmmm....explains y today neva doze off in lect...oh ya....next fri sucks!!! sports day!!! $#^@$^%....dun think can come sch le...should haf security guard once e sports day starts....madness....evry1 in e sch must take part in smt....hmmm...just came up with smt today...chemistry means chem-is-try....so when ya cannot do any qn...just keep trying..... :p this goes out to all except tim......

alaka | 7:40 PM

heyz pple! i'm back! haha... 1stly.. thanks! for wat leh.. for answering to my lame qn bout whether guys are allowed to bring hp to NS.. haha.. u pple made me realised dat there really might not be any power socket there.. and worse still no reception.. haha.. but still wondering leh.. let's say got reception.. how will de battery last for so long ah?! no need say 3 mths.. maybe 1 week can la.. since they will be using so little of it...

hmmm.. both yt and kenny tinks dat de blog says alot bout us... good i wud say.. it shows we dun hide feelings.. show wat we tink.. no hypocrites in HTG..kenny said in every grp... there shd be optimists and pessimists.. frm wat i see leh.. we are all optimists leh.. den ocassionally turn into pessimists.. tis is good wor.. there will always be someone there for others to depend on.. tong2 gan1 gong4 ku3.. oh yeah.. we're simply too great!

for once.. in dunno how many days.. i finally listened to yin yue ri ji and paid attention to it.. i like de shou shou er yi! de stories during shou shou er yi seems nicer at times leh.. today 1 was super sweet! it juz proves de point dat a hug speaks a thousand words.. but haiz... it is juz so diff for us to put down our face( translate into chi kz).. to express our care and concern for another person by giving them a hug.. as of now... hey all HTG pple look out! *Hug Attack*!!!! hehe.. juz wanted to show how much i treasure u pple.. yupz.. thanks for being u!

shuqin | 11:31 PM

kz. i'm here to say wad ce didn't say. heh. we oso said tt this blog got v high efficiency. like we'll generate so many posts in just a short time. yup so to prove this point, i'm here! haha.

haha..whether stg will drift apart..well it's hard to tell lar. cos..if we can't meet as reg as before..why not? erm..just showing another side of it..none of this rep my ge4 ren2 li4 chang3[heyhey..me using chinese again..]..yup cos it's natural tt ppl drift apart after long periods of u know..not meeting. it's not like couples u know.."absence makes the heart fonder" or sth lidat..quoted from somewhere within this blog..hint hint. haha k lar of cos i hope when we grad from jc..go uni..will stil find time to get together once in a while..laugh for hours..talk abt stuff..lunch together..create bloopers along d way and laff our heads off..again..and again..yar..just thinking abt it feels so nice aredi rite? hee.

acty..i dun think we need to worry so much lar. cos it's not like they go army will fan1 lian3 bu ren4 ren2..htg will stil be in their hearts wad..rite? we'll stil be able to meet up once in a while..jus tt we gotta better cherish whatever little time we have together! hmm..ya lor..abt them getting attached..den i got nothing to say lar. haha but it won't be totally a gone case either. cos..erm..tho it's not v persuasive..jus look at yc! he does make time for us rite? hehe.

dun u think this blog says alot abt us? like a visitor will know alot abt wads gg on in htg lor..haha k nvm. listening to yin yue ri ji now. qt a depressing story. haiz.

Pebbles | 11:14 PM

Haha. sq tok abt NS as if its on another planet.. "Got power socket meh??" hehe.. i tink maybe its BMT cannot use ba.. in tekong.... no reception shld be e prob instead.. noe dat M1 provides 100% coverage on the main island, but it nv cover offshore islands wad.. hmm, tink they already wld haf a lot of things to occupy their minds.. no nid hps le.. until they come back to civilisation after 3 mths, dat is.. okie, i shld quit niaoing them lar.. i mean, this is a REAL nitemare.. hehe.. like i nv see the chi high guys in my class so pia for napfa b4.. but they are realli #$@!#@$ cmi when it comes to physical stuff.. well, guess it acty forces guys to go to all sorts of lenths to aviod 2 more mths in BMT..

hmm regarding the future of htg (we're toking abt dis again, no surprise dere), i dun dare to speculate leh.. i mean, we cannot be too sure abt e future i guess.. i do agree wif sq dat stg will not drift apart... it does feel like we're not e sort to get attached in e near future.. and we do haf more time to hang out n stuff, after As.. for guys it'll be diff lar.. NS takes up so much time.. and it may somehow accelerate the process of finding a mate cos NS wld prob make them feel lonely or sth.. haha, okie dat was a sweeping statement, sorry..

hehe, suddenly rem yest yt and i were discussing dat all of us haf diff writing styles.. like, sq types like she toks.. can imagine her speaking when u read her entries.. q's entries forever punctuated wif millions of dots.. most of the time his entry starts wif "heizzzz................" and proceeds to switch topic abt a million times.. ok, im forever the one who doesnt get wads he's trying to say one lar.. and kenny wld alw haf uplifting, positive statements one.. will def haf sth to e tune of "long live htg!!!" or sth liddat... haha, for me, i dunno.. maybe i juz sound sarca.. and yt will haf a lot of chi terms, dis one i notice cos i dun bother trying to decipher them.. hhehe.. oops... okie crap entry...

chan eng.charis | 7:09 PM

hey peeps.. hmmm.. regarding de NKF show.. i only started watching after Sun's performance was over.. hmmm.. okie.. maybe de performance is cool.. but i tink there is no need to torture herself over a charity event.. i'm quite sure it is real.. i mean her back was bleeding lor.. eh.. somehow i juz dun understand y we muz go so far to raise funds.. maybe it is more effective.. but haiz.. watever la..

hmmm.. i'm rather sure Q was not in de best of mood when he typed dat entry.. haha.. toking bout NS.. was juz discussing with my fren dat day.. got a qn to ask.. can u guys bring hp to NS? bring le can use? den if bring means need to bring charger too lor.. got power socket meh?!?! seriously i tink our frenship can last.. true.. future is unpredictable.. but i doubt big changes will take place.. hmmm.. Q is tinking abit far ah.. i mean other den timothy.. doesn't seem like anyone else is getting attached in near future leh.. 5 mths.. seems like a long time.. but i tink it will pass sooner den we expect.. drift apart ah.. maybe.. but i'm rather sure STG will remain veri much intact.. eh.. sotongs.. u all agree? i mean we will still get to see each other.. unlike meeting up with de guys la.. which is impossible during BMT.. den during weekend.. true.. they probably go home sleep.. but i tink we can at least meet up for meals b4 they go home sleep right?

recently heard alot of discussion bout BGR.. hmmm.. juz heard a debate in class today bout whether dating shd be encouraged at an early age.. my conclusion.. why not... provided both parties are matured enough to face any problems that come their way.. everything has its pros and cons.. relationship is no exception.. it all boils down to individuals.. so yupz.. April is a busy mth.. for me is really 1 b'day celebration every week lor.. going broke...

shuqin | 12:25 AM

wah sun's stunt has lifted some prejudice off me. maybe i shd be neutral towards her now.

hmm..i think u mean bing bian..but in d frenship sense. sure can last one lar..but is how close only. i mean frenships will fade but they won't end..unless, of cos, u end it urself lar. hmm..regarding d getting attached part..it wun affect me lar. cos i wanna remain single..crazy thot i know. but ya..i'm serious..i'd choose to remain single for as long as i can. cos..sometimes..gives u more trouble than happiness in ur life. and even this is assuming i can get attached. if u know wad i mean. hmm..yup. so i guess..d reason for drifting apart is d disparity between single and attached ppl ba. but this is zai suo nan mian so ya..we'll jus take it as it goes. it's d natural course of things..qiang qiu shi mei you yong de. k so let's all listen to kiu's advice and..make d most of d 5 mths..

tdy was online, sleep, online, tv, online. an obviously unproductive day. wake up!!

Pebbles | 11:44 PM

wahaha...be it a false alarm or anything.....at least it goes to show that htg all nice ppl....haha...finally done with e ns check up thing....pengz man...troublesome shit..wah...nkf this yr ar....oso as mad as any yr....reach target liaozz still extend e show...n wah....for once i think sun is cool.....darts in her back!!! my friend say looks fake....but....haha...i shall choose to think is real....so it's damn cool....haha...

n realised smt...haha...can l or s or htg last beyond our ns? haha...a rather far tot...a rather -ve tot too....but seems like a more logical ans...n that is no...haha....cos pple will get attached...mayb work...guys serve ns....weekend either kena kept back or go home sleep...hehe....so it means wat....mayb got 5 more mths left? excluding prelims n As la...so even thou tests n hw r impt....should learn to try harder to make e most of e 5 mths..for ltg la....haha....wait....do i make sense?? hehe....today in un-normal jeremy q mode....incurred by sudden tots yday nite...haha....off i go to c song1 long2 zi3..... **ulcer on tonuge....ouch....**

alaka | 10:12 PM

hmm.. acty also not veri sure if u were toking bout us.. juz felt dat it could hav been.. okie.. it's sunday.. easter day.. hope everyone is having a good day.. preferably after a good sleep.. they say sleep helps.. it does for me.. u pple leh?

shuqin | 1:37 PM

are u talking abt me? dun worry i'm ok. jus not having a good day. yup dun blame urself over anything. k. i'm fine.

Pebbles | 2:14 AM

hmmm... okie.. feeling super super guilty now.. did observed something was not quite right.. but din expect it to be so serious.. kenny juz proven de point even further.. haiz.. we shd hav been more considerate.. st 2.. i'm sorry.. tink we all are.. even though u said nothing.. but ur nick and blog entry says it all.. tink we went abit over at times.. will try our best to choose common topic next time.. it does make a diff.. things wud be diff without u ard today.. u r not non-existence.. it was more of negligence on our part.. tink it's juz dat i hav known LTG members for a longer time den u.. dat's y i was able to understand wat they were toking bout.. sorry dat sometimes i dun share things with u or tell u wat i knoe.. cos afterall it is not my own story.. doesn't feel quite right to tell u.. juz feel dat i need to seek their consent bout those more private issues.. promise to be more open.. tink all htg members shd be.. not here of cos.. but at least share more when we meet next time..

hmmm.. probably 1st major internal prob that HTG face.. acty.. dun tink it juz surfaced.. been ard for quite awhile.. tink u felt tis way for quite some time le.. i understand de feeling.. it dun feel good.. de feeling of not being acknowledged.. so next time got any unhappiness juz voice it out kz.. like we said.. it is unlikely dat we will fan1 lian3.. so comments and complains will only further strengthen our frenship.. yupz.

shuqin | 1:02 AM

heyz.. today went for dinner with yt and 3/4 LTG.. yc went for vj's musicfest... hmmm.. went shopping at suntec for timothy's pres.. had an idea of wat we wanna get.. a bright orange tee.. hehe.. and we got 1.. with a cool design.. frm OP.. not bad wor... gotta say LTG really knoe each other well.. cos they even knoe wat size he wears.. yupz.. hehe.. wear it on next outing kz.. onz la..

anyway.. LTG was trying to be lame during dinner juz now.. heyz.. i not dat dumb la.. knoe wat u pple were getting at.. timothy.. dun be spastic.. y not debbie? u knoe wat i toking bout.. so dun act blur.. kenny ah.. u even join him to niao.. aiyo.. hmmm.. diff pple hav diff priorities mah.. haha.. i knoe wat u all toking bout le.. so its no longer a secret.. u can say it out loud next time.. i dun really care la.. come on.. we are so close as a grp.. nothing really matters.. at most juz kena a few whacks frm me... =p

hmmm... really amazed by de power of love.. makes a person willing to sacrifice so much.. tink someone busy making egg now.. probably wun be sleeping tonight le.. hmmm... jia you wor.. good leh.. to see timothy so open bout it.. ans all qns we ask.. tok bout her so openly.. tink tis is de way things shd be lor.. as in within HTG.. not juz within LTG.. hmm.. toking bout it.. feels quite bad.. STG is still not as open with things as LTG is.. maybe we shd really hav a sleepover 1 of these days.. den share all secrets like they do.. will we ever be as open as them? let's try kz.. =)

easy to say.. diff to do.. most of the time de nicer a person is to us.. de more we take them for granted.. isn't dat de case with how we treat our parents.. sometimes tink of it ah.. i feel veri guilty.. but haiz.. things done cannot be undone.. juz hope my attitude will change.. moreover it is so diff to open our mouths to tell them how much we love and appreciate wat they hav done for us.. at least dat's de case for me.. hmmm.. tink i shd juz try to be more guai1..

yupz.. tml is easter day.. not really much meaning for me.. but i knoe it holds great meaning for timothy and chaneng.. anyway.. to everyone.. happy easter! =)

shuqin | 11:04 PM

heyheyz.. u pple are super efficient leh..2 posts within an afternoon.. within 3 hrs i shd say.. all LTG members are at timothy's hse now... supposed to be his b'day bbq.. haha.. but where got pple bbq so early end ah?! now not even 11 lor.. hmmm.. wat st 2 said is true.. pple are unpredictable.. den sometimes they say is for ur own good.. but whether they really mean it or is it they wanna gain something frm it.. we also wun be able to tell.. juz dun believe pple totally.. wonder if de most trustworthy person is really ourselves.. anw dun understand de 2nd paragraph of yt's entry.. wat 9 yr frenship? i count here count there also dun understand.. hehe..

anyway i tink tis phrase i heard frm "big women small women" is veri true.. "it is those things that are not within our reach that we will find more precious.. treasure more and miss more dearly... " so kenny.. wat u said is true.. we shd learn to let go at appropriate time.. but dat's not a excuse for us to give up easily whenever we meet with difficulties.. haha.. remind me of wat timothy juz said.. de bad thing bout hols... cos cannot go sch.. den cannot see u-knoe-whu.. hehe...

we are all in hyped mood i tink.. having a mad htg chat now.. too bad chaneng not here.. if not den will hav full HTG attendance online.. rare leh! if ever post de chat here ah.. pple reading it probably wun get wat we are toking bout
cos there is so no link between de diff coversations.. hehe... tink i shd concentrate on de chat.. so tis shall be it for now.. byez! =)

shuqin | 10:18 PM

wow..this is like..how amazing..came here n saw so many entries..hmm..not bad not bad. haha last nite kinda no time to finish typing wad i wanna say. so here goes..

to st2: hmm dun gek abt this kinda ppl. ppl are selfish one..like some ppl will always do or say things in d name of doing it for ur good..but acty if u think further..it is for their own selfish reasons as well..this i witnessed it happen before..so jus let it go lar. u can't stop or change how they think rite. haiz my class is really a whole spectrum of ppl..like everyone is so different..so ar..sometimes alotof things is si kong jian guan aredi..can't really tell if they got kind intentions for u or not lor. ya so u did d right thing..dun care abt wad ppl say abt ur actions..jus do wad ur mind or heart tells u.

to kenny: woohoo great tt u did overcome all d difficulties in d end. hmm so muz treasure d time u have with everyone lor..not jus family cos everyone always tells everyone else tt they shd not take things for granted..but exactly how many ppl out of everyone acty do tt? k at least ling zhi always says cannot take things for granted. like u can't jus say a 9-yr frenship will never burn out jus like tt..cos if both ppl jus go abt their own lives n not taking some time to ask abt d other, why wldn't it fade? so ar..hehe..muz zhen1 xi1 yan3 qian2 ren2..htg is always here! *hint hint* haha..

k lar..good friday to everyone!! and i've completed my puzzle whee!!

Pebbles | 4:35 PM

wahaha.. juz read 4 entries at 1 go.. took me rather long.. 15 mins.. hehe.. can imagine de speed of reading.. hmmm... 1stly.. although wished le.. tink shd still say again.. happy belated b'day timothy! saw u walking ard with a big plastic bag yest.. pres frm who ah.. hehe.. hmm.. reading thru de longest entry by kenny.. tink he really did undergo sth terrible during his early teenage yrs.. but i feel glad for him.. he has managed to overcome watever de probs were.. and walked out as a stronger person.. applause!!

wahz.. it really tempt me to drop sub la.. pple ard me are dropping subs.. although there are also those trying their best to hold on to 4 subs.. guess it really requires a lot of self-discipline and determination to hold on to 4 subs.. nope.. kenny din tell us u dropped phys.. or maybe he did but i juz dun remember.. registered for As le.. so i guess it is a bit late to wanna drop also.. since i tink if i drop i still need to pay for de papers of de sub i dropped right.. hmmm.. shall jian1 chi2 dao4 di3.. i tink u pple veri brave.. to acty be so sure of wat u all want.. to pluck up de courage to do wat u want.. it means i shd jia you le.. since i made de decision.. i shd do my best to ensure i dun regret it when i recieve de results..

hmmm.. realised it wud be quite hard to hav full HTG meeting again.. unless during de hols.. cos now normally is meet on sat.. if not den is meet after sch.. meet on sat wun hav chaneng.. meet after sch most prob dun hav yc.. wonder if he even reads the blog.. eh.. if u saw tis.. pls tag to indicate ur presence.. yeah?

yup.. feel rather at peace now.. haha.. not in hyper mood.. not in low spirits.. quite rare.. maybe cos it is Good Friday.. haha.. kkz.. i go see wat else i can do.. byez.. take care peeps! =)

shuqin | 10:23 AM

hmmm...no 1 online...just type some crap....sorry e 2 st i din go to find u all...n esp to st 1 for wasting so many sms...hehe...NICE SONG ON 933 NOW...SI1 NIANG2...long time no heard le...anw....din go s paper today...took a super long internal struggle b4 i decided not to go...haha....u all give e pres so fast??!!! i was thinking u all go another day or smt....haha....i din get to c e pres....wasted....u all make it sound so fun...hmm...2 ppl in stg got 3 subs le....but dun really matter...being happy most impt.... ;) long time in a while since i went town n not many pple....n i finally realised how farnie it can get when women buy clothes....WAHAHAHAHA....think bout it now i wanna laugh....if not scared of shopkeeper stare at me i sure laugh there le....n i realised my taste in zar bor clothes not bad...haha.....at least i think...n my vj class e bo liao guy gang did it again as they tried hunting me down in town.....dotzzz...that's about all...haha...this is htg blog not my personal blog....this kinda narrative totally no link with e philosophical theme of this blog...haha.....NIty NitEz to htg.... (-_-)zZz

alaka | 12:18 AM

hehe..got 1 achievement tdy wor..went suntec and got ching's prez! not only tt, we went over to her place and gave it to her! woohoo. cos d poor girl is down with flu. ya so nv go sch. anw, she was so surprised and happy when she saw d badge maker. guess it's wad she's always wanted. haha. yay. anything to make u happy, girl. ;)

d badge maker was like..how fun. and cute. now i've my very own stg badge..haha..it's really cool. and we even thot of a business associated with it. haha..theory of production and cost sia.

hmm..jus watched some liu xing hua yuan..and it sucks. oh man..totally a bimbotic show..so i wasn't wrong when i said it can't make it before i even watched it.

back to my 1000pc puzzle..tatas!

Pebbles | 11:05 PM

Hey guys!!!!!!! i'm finally online after sooooooo long... think its one week.. well dat seems like an eternity cos i go online almost daily one... well, all i can say is. realli can bai4 my bro liao.... made my mom so pissed off dat she plucked the modem out of e com to prevent him from gluing to e com..... and forced him NOT to go to sch, until he finally wake up from his slacking..... zai rite? dats my mom... i like to tink dat i take after her.. but yah, the consequence of dat is dat i dun get to go online too..... well, past one week, qt a lot of things happened ah.. i mean, i spent e last 30 mins reading ur blog entries, realising how much i missed out on..

1stly, happi burfdae tim!! hehe, luckily im not late... may ya go to the next level in ur spiritual walk wif God, and may u noe e Lord and His calling for u! 18 yrs ago on this day the heavens celebrated cos the Lord created you, yup so love the Lord ur God wif all ur heart, ur might, and ur mind!

ehh next, realli realli sorry abt not goin for e previous outings..(again) ehh i mite haf a higher chance of goin if its not sat *winkz* yup but i noe its diff to org outings on oth days one lar.. hai, apart from dat day where i went crazy laffing wif stg, realli miss crapping n stuff wif u guys.....

hmm, oh yah, and i dropped physics liao.. like officially.. tink kenny mite haf told u all liaoz.. acty wanna share some of my thots abt it here, cant write it on my blog cos a lot of my classmates read it.. yup dropping physics is liberating man!! muahaha... im realli glad abt my decision, cos i noe for sure i dun nid physics le, and im goin smu aniwae.. it means dat i haf to take physics again as part of the general education course over dere, but frankly i tink it wun be as taxing as taking it now.. like, opportunity cost? hehe. now got lots more time to focus on my oth 3 subs so its loads better.. and initially while i was deciding to drop a lot of my classmates tried to dissuade me agst it lar. acty i was tinking abt it for qt some time le den when my ct gave us e form to reg for As i voiced out dat i wanna drop.. tink it shocked every1 lar cos every1 thot my phy is ok one.. acty comparatively my phy is qt on par wif others.. so like every1 was telling me how its very wasted to study it for more den 1 yr den drop now.. but deep in my heart, i was very very sure i wanted to drop it le.. sometimes i feel dat my frens were more like trying to themselves dat its a wrong choice to drop phy, rather den trying to convince me. at hc, the kiasu culture is so freaking scary. dropping a sub is not usually sth dat one chooses to do, normally one is juz forced by e sch to drop it.. i feel like they noe it themselves dat i've made e rite decision for myself, but they're irked at my nerve to do sth agst convention, to do sth rite, as opposed to doin wad every1 else is doing.. it was realli getting to me.. all the barbs, criticism.. "u realli shldnt drop lor.. wad abt scholarship.. no more 4 As.. blah blah blah... i've already got it figured out, and not getting 4 As dun matter to me lor... i noe for sure i wun ace my phy anw... arghhh.... cant stand hc ppl sometimes.. they're so... uptight.. and when my tcher returned a phy lect test i took b4 i dropped, turned out i got one of e highest.. and they were pissed off at me leh.. can u imagine? pissed off cos i dropped a sub dat altho i may haf done okay in, i chose to drop it instead... and they cant stop ribbing me dat my timetable veri slack, get to go home early and all dat.. like they bu shuang juz bcos i got a slack timetable.. arggghh, dun understand!!!! sigh........

hmm ok finished ranting, feel much better, hehe.... acty my classmates are not so bad lar, its juz some aspects of them juz make me go bonkers sometimes... yup, and was reading thru all e evaluation n stuff.. feel ashamed dat i wrote so little, as compared to like yt or tim, realli not write essays lar.. hehe, yah u guys are qt on e spot abt me, hehe, seems like the conclusion from sq's "experiment" is dat we noe qt a lot abt each other after all! *applause* hehe yup.. dis frenship can go a looong way.......

okie, finished updating here liao, shall go update my blog next.. the last entry was like march?? cmi... yea hope to see u guys soon!!

chan eng.charis | 4:47 PM

EASY ....... DIFFICULT
Easy is to get a place is someone's address book.
Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart.

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes

Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound...

Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness

Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them...

Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream...

Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity...

Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult to see the other side...

Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up...

Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult to give its real value...

Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise...

Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day...

Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself...

Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them...

Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it.

Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action...

Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt...

Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give

Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings.

Easy is to make a mistake
Difficult is to pluck up courage to say 'I'm Sorry'

shuqin | 6:05 PM

hmmm.. hehe.. gonna rain le.. sky black black.. hope no one is having black face.. hmm.. realised long ago.. but den felt strongly bout it again today.. some things really not within our control.. haiz.. feel so helpless when things go beyond my control.. den realised it is not possible to please everyone all de time..1 wrong sentence may juz ruin de day for someone and my own day.. hmm.. tink i shd learn to let go la huh? i mean it's better to be truthful den lie juz to please someone.. hehe.. these tots not provoked my my clique pple.. in case u pple are tinking..

hmm... my life ah.. i wud say it is rather complete le.. true.. there may be things that i want to do but hav not done yet.. pple i wanna meet but they hav not appear yet.. budden.. i tink my past 17+ yrs hav not been in vain.. i've met diff kind of pple.. experienced many kinds of emotions.. some may not be nice.. but they add to my memory.. i'm thankful for de pple that has made my life a fulfilling 1.. but i am not satisfied.. if possible.. i want to hav better interpersonal skills.. de ability to knoe wat someone else is tinking.. to be able to knoe wat to say at wat time.. dun wanna say de wrong things again.. i regret some things too.. regret not grabbing de chances when they arrive.. maybe chance really come knocking once.. de next time it comes again.. it will never be the same again..

i'm contented ba.. at least at present.. i got nice frens.. my family.. my nephew and niece.. wat else can i ask for.. good A level results? tink shd juz live each day to de fullest.. cope with troubles as they come...

shuqin | 5:35 PM

woohoo! way to go. great start. yay! let's all welcome long-lost timothy!! *wild applause*

1stly..have to say..u really dun sound like urself. hmm..but ppl shd always give ppl d benefit of doubt rite. haha..so u'd be glad to know tt i believe wad u say lar..hehe. hey no need to apologise lar. heh now i really believe love can change a person..kaka.

hmm..been eating qt little these few days..dunno why..jus dun feel hungry. how ar. jia lat.

hey ppl..are u content with ur life now? do u feel it's complete? cos at dis pt of time..i think i aredi have wad i shd..and tt's enough. results n all tt are not tt impt lor..it's jus a small part of ur entire life..wad we shd rmb and wad shd matter to us is wad we'll take with us for d rest of our lives. i have a complete family..my best frens..my clique..my aquaintances..and i think i got no enemy ba..hmm..ya lor..that's enough for me..at least i know i matter to someone on dis planet..yup. n i'm qt sure i've made ppl's lives happier..at least tt's wad they told me..so i guess i stil dui de qi my frens ba. i dun feel tt i lack anything now..so my conclusion..my life is complete! at dis point of time lar.. :)

Pebbles | 11:17 PM

hmmm.. no idea wat really pissed JK off.. but shd be sth big.. so big dat he acty need to write it down to get it off his chest.. heyz.. relax fren.. some pple are immature.. or juz needs to be disillusioned.. let them be.. they will wake up when they finally think it thru.. =)

hehe.. distracted halfway.. cos timothy finally posted sth! clap clap!! =D not bad.. muz thank u pple leh.. sumtimes even if i start sth and u all dun cont.. my post will hav no effect also.. but u pple are supportive.. always try ur best to contribute.. hehe.. 1 big big thanks!

hmmm.. finally got to see my niece yest! she is so tiny.. and she will be called adelle.. nice name? hehe.. my nephew fell sick yest le.. wonder how is he now.. realised sumtimes life can really be made better if i choose to face it with a smile.. realised these 2 days of de week had been nice for me.. last week too i tink.. achievement! hope tis will last.. i like it tis way.. and will try my best to maintain things as they are now..

hmmm... wanted to write sth 1 i tink.. but forget le.. cham.. eyelids getting heavy le.. oh yah.. remember le.. i tink my CT is brave.. Ms Lim.. she is so optimistic! i tink i wud never be as brave as her.. she contracted cancer.. but good news is.. she underwent surgery and is fully recovered now.. tink wat she and mrs noordin say are veri true.. hers was a battle of life and death.. our battle with exams seems nothing compared to hers.. if she can do it.. there shd be nothing we can't do.. not dat i am a veri religious person.. but i tink wat mrs noordin said is veri true.. God wud not give u more than wat u can take.. so pple.. let's jia you! we can all do it.. all hav come tis far.. no reason for us to give up now.. take care! =)

shuqin | 10:49 PM

screw today..seriously....v long not in such a pissed off mood...haha...i was like telling e ppl i no to stay away from me in case i decide to whack smt....some pple r just so immature n do e stupidest things la...shall not elaborate on it.....but cannot stand it when pple cannot wake up their idea....physics prac neva went so bad b4.....haha....e whole classs almost no 1 did e expt correctly at all...but managed to fake out my readings....tomolo got gp test after sch...no early day for me.....n i dun understand y oso...cos my tch just din wanna tell us whether it was gonna be compre or compo....cos only 1.5 hrs e test...heard is only compre...means really got this chance can fail....need essay to pull myself up 1.....fail oso nvm...main thing is gotta get into remedial...which i think wun make much use....den pe...kaozz...it rained...tj pple happy i guess...but i had to stay in hall do circuit....wah sian...basically....it's been a sucky day where many small sucky things n 1 big sucky thing add together to make me damn sian diao....no hw gonna be done today le....ciao.....if only i haf punching bag at home.......

alaka | 9:56 PM

hehe.. cos i realised dat after u changed de skin.. it no longer appears as shuqin mah.. den i see le also wanna laugh.. so change lor.. hmm.. most of the time.. pple try to suppress and deny their own feelings.. self-denial i tink.. cos we are afraid to face de truth.. especially if there is a chance that de truth is sth we wud not want to hear.. nobody's fault ba.. it's juz how we behave..

haha.. i seriously dun see anything nice bout orchard.. really puzzle me y pple like to go orchard so much.. is it bcos i dunno how to shop.. or issit pple are living in self-denial.. cos it is a trend to go orchard.. so we muz go orchard.. can't be bothered.. but i conclude 1 thing.. i seriously hate crowd.. u really need de patience and determination if u want to walk about in orchard road.. crazy..

hmm.. yest dinner was quite pathetic la.. but it was nice.. dun u agree? it may juz be de 4 of us.. but we did enjoy de meal.. acty i tink de guys were not full.. too little food for them le.. i liked de ice-cream best.. yum yum.. hehe.. can't really remember wat we did at de grass patch le.. only rmb flipping thru vj's yrbook.. den we probably tok a bit of crap as usual.. really been quite long since we went there to sit le.. hope we will hav more complete htg outings.. hint hint ah.. those who see tis.. pls pls try to keep urself free next sat..

sianz.. haven study for my econs test.. suddenly i dun feel like studying econs le.. even feel like dropping de subject lor.. stupid MCT's fault.. hmm.. no matter how i dislike it.. i tink i better go study later.. haiz.. up to now still haven seen my niece.. when will i get to see her?!?!?!

shuqin | 6:45 PM

sq..finally changed ur username..and d blog doesn't show up when clicked on..weird. blogger can be really irritating sometimes. sigh can't do anything abt it now oso. jus wait n see. n erm..sq..it's qt hard to change d size of d image n everything..so can u erm..change ur resolution instead. hehe.

v fan ar..feels like it's even a luxury to shop..life is jus too busy..too stressed to let anyone spend a minute worry-free. ever since mct..i'm like totally deflated..dunno wad to do..partly oso christine's call..made me think abt wad i'd do if my grades in d end stil cannot make it..acty..i oso dunno how i made it in 'o' levels..shd be tyco..like me n my frens always conclude on..cos we really jus can't understand why we're doing worse than wad we shd have done..maybe d 2nd intake curse got sth to do with it oso..like all 2nd intakers are fated to be worse off than 1st intakers..haiz why why..

watched a little of winter sonata jus now..and sth in it was abt wad u'd do if u're not supposed to look a person up..wld u suppress ur urge to see tt person or wld u jus go n see d person..well it made me ponder for awhile..but acty dun need lar cos i know since a v long time tt i'd always choose to suppress my urge..cos in some cases..going against things will hurt u in d end..

wad a depressing entry..but wadever..sums up my mood totally. thks kiu kenny n sq for ur company tdy :)

Pebbles | 1:35 AM

hmmm.. hehe.. yt got half de story correct la.. but i shan't elaborate or correct her story.. not impt anyway.. hehe.. JK say i got endless things to write.. can even hav my own blog le.. but i rather not.. i tink i hav lotsa guardian angels too.. really nice pple.. includes all of HTG! =) a million thanks can't express my gratitude for de appearance of these pple in my life.. hmm.. acty i also dunno whether i am anyone's angel.. maybe maybe not.. hehe.. juz know i love my nephew and niece!! hehe.. =p

love or be loved.. haha.. wat a profound topic we started on.. someone said gals shd be loved.. guys shd love.. hmmm.. maybe.. too profound le.. like yt says.. no right or wrong ans.. and jk's nick... watever la..

oh yah! my niece was born yest.. at time 1616.. cool... hehe.. weighs 2868g.. haha.. frm wat i hear.. small chio bu.. haha.. resembles her bro.. ah.. haven get de chance to see her yet.. wanted to go find her today 1.. budden supposed to buy pres and hav dinner.. so dun tink can le.. hehe.. hope pple only read tis at night after dinner.. veri tempted to pao1 qi4 u pple for my niece.. but cannot.. cos u pple are juz as impt.. and promises shd not be broken easily.. yeah..

p/s: st 2! de new blog skin is nice! unique to us and only us.. budden i tink abit diff to read.. den can change to resolution 600x800? cos now need to scroll left and right.. quite mafan.. hehe.. juz suggesting..

shuqin | 2:15 PM

i think i kinda know wad u mean lar. jus tt i dunno who's A and B. u and A are sms-ing each other..and A is telling u how much he/she likes B..den u wondering if B ever gets to read those, wld he/she have changed his/her mind abt accepting A..sth lidat..is it?

hmm..acty..d debate over bei ai or ai ren more xing fu got no answer one lar..i mean isn't it obvious..it all depends on who u're talking abt. in both cases, only when both care for each other den it's xing fu..rite? one-sided affairs can never be xing fu..like even if someone doesn't mind loving another person for d rest of his/her life, it doesn't mean tt the person being loved won't mind rite? i think being loved by someone u dun want or loving someone who doesn't want it is both a burden and a waste of time..cos u're not making anybody's lives happier. in fact i think it's a scary thing hearing someone, whom u dun like, gao bai to u..cos it's so bad to reject somebody..and so hard to shuo chu kou. tt is my thinking lar..i think most ppl wld be happy to hear ppl's gao bai cos it's like real sweet and everything. haiz..but then..has anyone thot of d stress it will bring to d person hearing it?

acty..i dun think a couple who loves each other to d same extent will last forever. rather, it's a couple where one prefers loving ppl and the other prefers being loved. in all relationships..there will be surely be an imbalance between d guy and d girl..cos it's a way for both to learn to cherish each other..yup.

hmm..i think i got qt alotof guardian angels..got alotof names i'd put under d "frens for life" section..yup..really grateful to them for all tt they've done along d way..tt incl htg!! hehe big thank you to everyone. hopefully i'm oso a guardian angel to someone..cos er..i really dunno who i'm guarding over..hehe..i mean i jus help whoever i know needs help..hehe..yup..

Pebbles | 12:08 PM

hmmm.. acty chatting with htg pple now.. in MSN.. i feeling rather bad mood... but i dun tink they knoe.. cos i dun show it in de way i speak ba.. wat they juz chatted bout and the story on yin1 yue4 ri4 ji4 really link with my tots for tonight.. is being loved really xing4 fu2? when i was out juz now.. and as i was replying smses.. i really tot dat way.. de loved shd be glad.. shd feel fortunate.. but if de one loving does not recieve de same reciprocated love.. shd he/she still cont loving? haha.. if i am not wrong.. u pple shd be tinking abit far-fetched le.. hmmm.. wat provoked tis tots were things i heard frm person A bout de love for person B.. if B ever gets to read de smses i recieved.. i wonder wat will be de response.. will A love still go unreciprocated? u pple may not understand wat i am toking bout.. but it's okie.. juz needed a channel to sort out my tots.. and it juz happen dat i tot of de blog as an outlet..

will love really become a burden when de love u recieve is frm someone u dun hav de special feeling for? if u dun like de person but de person likes u veri much.. to de extend.. it is their belief u will be de last stead of theirs.. shd a chance be given to tis poor souls since pple say bei4 ai4 shi4 xing4 fu2? shd tis poor souls give up trying.. and look for another one meant for them... but if de 1 u like so much is whom u percieved as de special one.. will u still be able to find another only one? if found.. does it juz destroy ur own stand dat de special one is de only one.. haha.. pple are juz contradicting at times.. stubborn too.. will there really be a case when both parties are both givers and recievers to de same extent? if there really is.. i believe they will last forever.. nothing will break them apart le..

hmmm.. some pple are juz meant to be others' guardian angels for life.. juz be there to give support when their mortal is down.. these guardian angels are de ones dat are willing to go dat extra mile.. juz for that mortal of theirs.. but normally.. angels' presence are neglected.. their efforts are taken for granted and care go unreciprocated.. tolerance for their mortal unreasonable behaviour is higher than those for others.. and it may even seem irrational.. to all that haven found ur guardian angel.. look ard.. he/she may juz be ard.. be kind to those dat are kind to u.. dun let them feel that their efforts are gonna be wasted.. to those who hav found their angels.. be glad for their presence! to all guardian angels out there.. dun feel down even when ur presence is not acknowledged.. ur mortal may knoe of ur presence.. juz dat they dunno how to reciprocated ur kindness.. hao3 ren2 you3 hao3 bao4.. bu4 shi4 bu4 bao4.. zhi3 shi4 shi2 jian1 wei4 dao4... =) i tink all angels are great.. the amt they are willing to give.. we shd all learn to give without expecting returns.. learn to believe that human is born good-natured..

haha.. i juz wrote some crap.. and u are reading tis sentence.. u probably read some crap too.. hehe.. smilez pple... stay happy! =D

shuqin | 11:33 PM

kkk..indra rocks indra rocks.. -______-

hmm..only 1day nv come online..but once i come..WOAH!! everyone chu1 kou3 cheng2 zhang1..entries all so long..k i shall do long entries too..now is 10:45..shall gif myself half an hr..later finish blogging den put down d time again. that is if my browser doesn't hang. if it hangs before my last word i'm gonna hang myself too..hmm so i'm gonna periodically copy wadever i've typed..to precaution against such er..gek events.

so. guess d main motive is to say wad we think abt other ppl lar huh..but a pity yc or maybe tim will nv get to read this haha..hear that yc/tim??? if u're really finally reading this pls tag..k. yup..start w stg 1st lar huh..

st1: cheerful girl..sensitive and considerate to others..that's why so affected by those who not only dun reciprocate, but en1 jiang1 chou2 bao4..k lar maybe not so serious..but well maybe now u know tt not all ppl appreciate d concern n welfare u have in mind for them. a girl whose mouth works faster than her mind haha..that's why sometimes say stuff tt she ownself will peng at..but it's a good thing! say wad u think ma..that's wad's crucial to avoiding misunderstandings..budden..next time go to work cannot so easily let ppl know wad u're thinking..if not they can easily backstab u. heh k..maybe u dun need this advice yet. eh..wad else..erm someone who knows how to fa xie..which is good..cos sth my fren said makes sense lar..he said ppl who look like they kan de kai is acty those tt are d most kan bu kai..and vice versa. cos ppl who complain all d time look like they kan bu kai..tt's why so zai yi wad happens to them..but acty they're fa xie-ing..ya..sth like u la..get v gek abt ppl..den u'll kb kb..den aft tt feel better le rite? :) oh how could i forget..this girl likes to dan1 tiao1!!! hahaha..jus recall d times she utters "wa wo hen xiang da ta..." hehheh..sth like tt..haha..why u so emotional one ar..haha..and sometimes u see mei nu oso like u dun believe lidat..haha..hmm k i guess tt's jus u..no reason..redundant to ask why. k i can only think of one last trait..and tt is..she's d blur-est!! among d 3 of us..but have u noticed..she's d only one who stil has d sotong with her..and somewhat intact lar huh..so wad does show?? hehe yup she's v xi xin..not d careless kind of sotong..k let's move on to st2..

twin!! haha our mo qi not qt there aredi ar..but den we influenced sq ar..now d 3 of us qt synchronised at times..hehe. u're d busiest of us..wonder where u find d time to do all d things u gotta do. v passionate abt religion too..we can aredi tell u devote a big part of ur life to it..but i'm sure u enjoy it rite..all d trips to boonlay..meals at jp..hahaha..no lar seriously..i'm sure u have fun at it..and everyone's gotta find their path in life someday..ya..so now u've aredi found where u belong lor.. :) wah i can never forget all d 2000+ hrs we spent together..and stil counting! yup i think we got record aredi lar..everyday sure laff until peng..cos u know..we're in a v strategic position..can see all d happening spots in class..kk..back to u. haha. u're really independent..got ur own thinking..and u influence those ard u. luckily it's all good lar. haha. hmm that's partly wad makes u stand out from the rest ba..that's wad makes u cool! think u oso got ur own way of dealing with problems in life..u seem to treat all events equally..like they're really not more impt than others..haha..like sometimes hear u kb..can even make a joke out of it. but ya i guess if u can't do much abt it den jus heck care lor. u're a great pal! you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang. i think i'l nv forget d day at mac lar. haha. yea u can cheer ppl up effectively..heh thks for tt few hrs tt day. and..nice phone. haha. yup..can cheer ppl up..can listen to ppl..tt's why ur frenships all v lasting ba. :) so..stg will last v long too rite. yea.

myself..erm..ya wad u all said qt true..so wad else can i say..haha it's aredi 11:26..spent almost 45 mins until here le..see how yong xin i am? k lar..on to ltg..alphabetical order..

kiu! haha..nan ren zhong de nu ren..tt's wad he seems like..aft i heard he's d sole survivor frm d shopping trip with ltg..den he v zai with all d handicrafts oso lar..ya..all d stars..stil rmb..haha. v generous guy..willing to spend on frens..resourceful oso..always can find out wad he wans to..and oso always finds out wad ppl need to know. got qt a warped family life..haha maybe tt's wad shaped him..v expressive..haha..dunno good or bad oso..always has funny poses or actions tt render him less human..erm..ya. haha. incoherent speech is acty improving..but den d ridiculous style of blogging needs to be improved..u realise half d time ce doesn't get d slightest hint wad u trying to say?? haha k lar needless to say d prev entry was interrupted by snippets of indra guy..ya..tt tickled me..haha..tt song! wonder where u always get ur inspiration for all those crap from. hmm..a guy tt can be classified as a sensitive new age guy. yup.

kenny. ah gong..freelance stg..considerate. u shy meh? ok lar. hmm..yup capable guy..responsible and true to his frens as well. always turning up for htg meetings no matter where it is..poor guy..spend half his life on mrt..haha..but it's all cos u wanna see frens more often rite?? heh. oh..k lar ^5 to u. another thing to ^5 abt..tt time i typed one whole load of stuff here oso..den browser hang..den all gone..ya..so i know how u feel. he gives d impression of a sweet n shen cang bu lou person..handles stress well..smarty pants oso..k..so now u know ar..heaven is unfair cos of ppl like u!! haha k no lar jus jk. are u stil as black? or is it we all xi guan le. but bai tuo bai tuo dun get any blacker liao..if not next time cannot go out at nite. typical guy..goes crazy over soccer..always has new paper with him except when ppl really need it for other sections..like movie listings..haha. hardworking..knows wad to do at different situations..yup can go play survivor liao. fellow all in buff!! yea!! hehe..all in all, a sensitive new age guy too.

tim..lamest among ltg. haha k lar dun really know wad goes on in ur mind and life..so maybe i dun understand wad u do cos i wasn't there like d others when u needed frens. :/ anyway, another staunch christian..always using nicks to further state d obvious. v motivated and directional guy..knows wad he wants and goes out to do it. but of cos he can lar..so smart..u wld have taken f maths 's' paper rite. haha. that's abt all i can type..haha..sorry lar..

yc..erm..guilty to say..maybe even less to say abt him than tim's. heh. outgoing! that's wad pops up in ppl when they see him..rite? hmm..i'm sure his carefree and easygoing image has got sth to do with him being able to see things differently from others and turning crisis into opportunity..rite? real sporty guy..if he's not with her, he's playing some games. hmm..why all vj ppl dun need to study one ar??? haha. k generalising. yup someone who will always bring laughter to ppl wherever he goes.

k! done!time..erm..11:59..haha cos browser hang for awhile jus now..

Pebbles | 11:51 PM

INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA INDRA
woah man he totally rox my sox lar.. he rocked the whole of s'pore dats for sure!! woo hoo! scored agst man u, scored agst japan.... woah man.. incredible.. and he wears the coveted no. 10 shirt! lives up to the names of those who wear no.10 man.. muahaha... i expected to ultra disappointed by s'pore tonite, but i am contented... there is hope for s'pore yet! bwahahaa

ok, ill try to do the individual evaluation thingy... but den i acty dunno much lar.. will try to add my 2 cents worth.

st1: laffs a lot.. ok redundant point, we ALL laff a lot.. haha, common trait dat binds us together.. hmm, can sometimes get qt affected by ppl ard her, but she cannot stay depressed for too long, hehe... cos there's alw us to cheer up her.. or rather her to cheer us up.. argh it works both ways lar ah? hmm, she's alw ready to organise outing.. enthu! she can lend a listening ear as well, and doesnt reveal things dat she noes she cant reveal.. at least dat is e impression i get lar..

st3: hi there pal.. haha, u can design damn well, good wif fonts n colors.. crazy fetish wif fishes.. stupid fish joke in my head now.. argh.. acty ur qt a private person, keep a lot to urself... eh, u shld share more wif us u noe... yep.. and matured in thinking too.. noe how to look beyond the surface of things..

hmm ltg... ehh for q rite.. he seems to haf a lot of non-male traits... for one he can understand girls qt well.. and he cant stand any form of slackness... thot most guys wld wanna slack to a certain extent one.. ehh he's oso loud... expresses himself well in hokkien... and expresses his frenship wif tim in the art of violence too.. ehh shoot me getting into lame mode again.. and he sings well too! (duh) yah and he can be qt perceptive n sensitive to ppl's feelings.. rite next....

kenny.. ur chem is like how zai can?? haha.. hmm, e onli 2 hc ppl.. alw moan to each other abt the pressure and madness in hc.. qt caring lar.. alw seen making comments such as "cannot dun eat leh, stomach will pain one..." yah, and veri hardworking oso... which is reflected in his results.. responsible guy too.. alw turning up for band..

tim.. fellow bro in Christ hehe.. but hardly see him ard one.. hai.. super mugger.. msn nick was once sth like "mugging is good for u" or wadeva.. definitely got a screw loose dere.. budden dropped s papers le, mite haf restored some semblance of sanity, but maybe u drop to take up oth "s papers"? hehe...

ehh yc... dunno whther he even noes abt e existence of our blog anot.. hehe.. dat guy seems like he's in a world of his own, wif someone else of cos.. hehe, but got make effort to ju4 ju4 wif us oso lar, so dats gd.. ermm, yah and i echo the sentiment dat he alw seems trouble-free.. seems like the onli troubles he has are finding a limitless source of food to supply his bottomless pit...

ran out of things to say le..
later 2.30 am still got england sweden, no nid to slp liao...................
well, see ya guys!

chan eng.charis | 12:15 AM